untitled 2

produced by @jolst and @sainttomorrow <3
out now on youtube through biteki & static:
https://youtu.be/DWpNablizm0
https://youtu.be/nEK_a4oFms8

music video:
https://youtu.be/95Kayd1Rpiw

hope u enjoy :)

lyrics:
i let my soul drift away just to feel something again
i sold my conscience for free, nothing to see but a man without his skin

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

plenty people consider hitting my phone again
i don’t mind but i’d rather just be alone again
findin peace in my soul life ain’t that innocent
if i wanted em to be, things would be different
quiet nights in my attic, now the static is loud
i just wanna see my dad again and make him proud
tired of the recycled life i’m bottling up
smoked a little bit too much and now i’m throwing up

whats in the water, i wonder...
sink to the river, discover
see my reflection in ripples
i think i need you a little
more than i’d admit
i find it hard to reminisce
feel my stomach start to twist
and now i’m back with those i miss
woahhh

cuz im nothing like him
you’re not the person i remember
i’ll just disappear into the trees
like i did back in december
my voice is cracking as i talk,
on the phone, i watch the clock
why won’t time just ever stop
why wasn’t i enough?
enter the forest, forget life,
i’ve done this shit for the last time. 

enter the forest, forget life
i’ve done this shit for the last time x2

enter the forest, forget life

enter the forest, forget life [p. jolst x saint tomorrow]

spotify!

enter the forest, forget life [jolst x saint tomorrow]

luca.
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7rvToKFpMMPIwV1kr6MUJI
https://www.instagram.com/lucatrezzamusic/
walmoods
https://open.spotify.com/artist/4B53ZdPG7X8UrnLQB1gFBZ
https://www.instagram.com/walmoods/

lyrics:

i don’t need too much friends
i just need someone who’ll care
i don’t want to stay around here
i don’t feel like i belong

even if im im running away
i feel numb cause im alone
all alone

even if im im running away
i feel numb cause im alone
all alone

i don’t need too much friends
i just need someone who’ll care
i don’t want to stay around here
i don’t feel like i belong

even if im im running away
i feel numb cause im alone
all alone

even if im im running away
i feel numb cause im alone
all alone

someone who'll care

stream

luca. & walmoods - someone who'll care

i feel hypocritical 
ive been hanging out at bars a lot
its kinda cool but i hate to think about it cause its fucked up
the fact that i actually kinda find it fun
its like a trampoline for when you feel down
i understand the appeal now 
sing along to the songs that you love
and im zoned out 
for right now i guess its what lifes all about 


i give it a week before im over it 
why the fuck am i here?  dont have money to spend
theres a girl looking at me and i need her to fucking stop, honestly. 
i really hope i dont wake up tomorrow 
cause i dont know how much more i can handle of this problem 
i hope you know that im not having fun at all
id rather be anywhere but here now 
where’s my trampoline? 
bitch i feel down
feel it everywhere 
so i dont think i deserve to go anywhere 
everything you said makes sense now
you had your reasons to peace out 
and i get it 
i just really wish that youd never said it

trampoline (prod. pekarot)

prod. me
(capsctrl on acoustic guitar)
<3

lyrics:
what was it like to fall in love with me?
asleep in the morning, awake in the night
i'll take it all, i'll face it all, im in deep.
no saving me now.

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

take your time, take your time
save your breath
its all a lie, all a lie, its a test
waking up, waking up all over again
waste of lungs, wasted lungs i am.

if youd listened to me who knows what we could be
(stop it now its dark in here)
so tied up on things that we didnt even mean
(stop it now i've had enough)
said you know me the best but you dont know me at all
i was depressed and didnt bother to call out to you
so much changed so fast but im right here
please dont give up

what is it like to fall out of love with me?
i feel so annoyed and, i dont know why
i took it all, i faced it all, i was in deep
dont start from the beginning just end it

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

who i was

spotify

Thoughts Just Repeat In My Head [Prod. siem spark]

worth it [+grayskies]

guess you could call this my remix of "past lives" by borns

past lives (prod. ken3r beatz)

COVER ART BY KAIZEN


LYRICS
you see you scarred me
when i was still so young
you didn't harm me
just taught me to man up
don't say you're sorry
you never did that once
how you still look me in the eye
after everything i’ve done
is so disarming

i kick and scream
you swing and yell
you say those things
(yeah, but i get over them)
when i'm smokin' tree
and your lip is filled
for our football team
i know we’re not the same
i’m just your son

here’s to the father of the year
everyone raise 'em up
for the father of the year

you see you saved me
you’re always there to bail
like i'm a baby
i never fail to fail
so you berate me
my depression makes me ill
i know i'm not the man you are
but i have harnessed special skills
i swear i'm changing
and i’ll be a better man
but i'm too crazy
and you’d never understand
some things are hazy
and it really makes me sad
that you support me through it all
'cause i was born into your hands
and now i

inherit genes
that overwhelm
you’re sick of me
(if you think i couldn’t tell)
you’re always there
and it’s why i’m here
i put you through hell
i know we’re not the same, I’m just your son

here’s to the father of the year
everyone raise 'em up
for the father of the year
i thank god that you’re here
you made me tough

friend or faux

Father of the Year (prod. Young Taylor)

7/3/24 disclaimer: fuck splashgvng

double xl bape tee
it feel better when it drape me
i know i’m never on time
sorry if i kept u waiting
double c on my cologne 
it’s always blue just like my mood
she not used to hearing no
and so she loves it when im rude

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

She keeps on
Coming back to me
Ignore th signs and jus say yes to all this tragedy
It says a lot ab u if im honest
U see its chronic
But somehow wants to stick around coz of these melodys

She saw 16 bottles
Still I couldnt open up
Goin full throttle
In th backroom & im thrown up
Toxic waste it surrounds us 
How it was growin up
Safest place, it grounds us
But we’re stuck inside th substance 
Its so fucked

she the reason why i put myself thru hell
i’m the reason why she mad u can’t buy her chanel
way too faded so she taking off my belt
i know “i love u” is just a lie u tell
um i been flying to close to the sun
um sorry baby i know i can’t be the one
um she start catching feelings and i gotta run
i don’t like it when they like me back the chase is fun

too close2 th sun w/ maesk (secre x splashgvng)

One Day At A Time [+ pekarot]

with the OG  soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Greenwood:
just to fill the space, what we talk about
nothings really there when i'm laying down
cold breath in your old room but it's over now
just to fill the space when you're not around 

but i could start again in a little while
i know it's not the same as the first time
but i could take the waiting and the crossed lines
lights had lit the way back
 i never realised

cause no one ever tells you cause it's real life
breathing hard in the moment it's never clear why
all of this never mattered but i don't mind
falling quick but it's faster when the times right

just to let you know things are different now
voices at the door, all i think about
something in the words left to figure out
just to fill the space when you're not around

Eoin Disney:
say it to me while you're stalling with yourself now
put a dagger through me, least you let your thoughts out
i can never truly put the words in your mouth
i play it cooly cause i want to see it work out

there's a part of me that never gets the words out
follow voices but i want to make my own sound
i'm addicted to the things that make it worse now
hurt now, never hits the same as the first round

let me in, oh God i miss your skin
i miss your smile see my world right in your eyes
tell me things you never said to him
i miss waking up for the sake of it

Transit (w/ Eoin Disney)

prod @tiedforsilver x @fleshgolem

i don’t show emotion till the moment i break
i don’t want u to see me in this state
give me a lifeline, give me somewhere to feel safe
up in the night time, where i can hide my face
tucked in shadows, diving head first into the shallow
off with it all into the gallows

i’m in a 6 figure truck counting digits
my foot on the gas till i get to the finish
the shit i been thru, for u i wouldn’t wish it
it taught me a ton about pain and forgiveness

hope i turned out the way u were hoping
all the love i’ve known was broken
bloody benz ripped my chest open
she said flashbacks had her soaking

making the most out the time that i have
called some others my brothers they let me down bad
now this g23 all that’s watching my back
overflowed by emotions i can’t go out sad

did this all on my own
so i don’t answer my phone
pull up in a 4 door
creep real slow
limousine tint covering my windows

been waiting patiently
but nobody’s saving me
tear off the shackles and burn down castle
i won’t let u table me

bittersweet taste in my mouth is this betrayal?
the wires crossed it’s best if u cut the cable
i’m overheating my cores becoming unstable
run far away from here but keep me in ur prayers

adoring illusions and people that tell me they mean it but acting confusing
im always pursuing the benefit of the doubt so i don’t have to lash out when i lose it
u look in my eyes and tell me we’re the same but when i look at u i see nothing congruent
cause i would still die for the people who double crossed me and they left me there laying in ruin

i need space i need distance
i need substance in my system
not from drugs but made of love
don’t come around me inconsistent

so let me know
let me know
let me know
just let me know cause i

did this all on my own
so i don’t answer my phone
pull up in a 4 door
creep real slow
limousine tint covering my windows

been waiting patiently
but nobody’s saving me
tear off the shackles and burn down castle
i won’t let u table me

bittersweet taste in my mouth is this betrayal?
the wires crossed it’s best if u cut the cable
i’m overheating my cores becoming unstable
run far away from here but keep me in ur prayers

lmk (tied for silver x flesh golem)

Blue Tint (Feat. FøRD)

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

much love to @sleepywater <33
Produced by me ^-^

Lyrics:

(grasior)
you think your just so perfect
skeletons in your closet
faceless beast yeah you know it
but you lost with your 2 tricks

but you writing my phone
texting my phone yeah you feel so alone
you take me out
feel so loud

never thought the void could fill
this emptiness makes me shrill
the quietness that you built
fills me up with guilt

you watch the world in flames
tryna shift the blame
manipulate the world
to figure out your name

everything that you do leaves me in disbelief
count to three in your dreams damn you feel so unique
you hear the screams of the past yet you smoke n repeat
switch em out yeah you making em leave
baby running my mind but all I need is just me
everyday that you lie makes me feel one with peace
keep it up till you try to wave it all back
all your feeling are back but you feel so detached

(sleepwater)
push me in the ocean let me drown
wont be alive for long you know that now
feels way to open need way out
got me fleeing for safety a royal
i plead for ignorance in hell
im scared but here i bloody am
im facing death im in the sea
i would kill myself for you and me
baby i think that your the bee
baby i swear your in love w me
it was only you and me
baby i swear your in love w me
i wanna kill myself
baby you should kill me
i wanna kill myself
baby you should kill me

(grasior)
everything that you do leaves me in disbelief
count to three in your dreams damn you feel so unique
you hear the screams of the past yet you smoke n repeat
switch em out yeah you making em leave
baby running my mind but all I need is just me
everyday that you lie makes me feel one with peace
keep it up till you try to wave it all back
all your feeling are back but you feel so detached
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

disbelief w/ sleepwater

my mind is not your home. i know you saw the eviction notice. w/ vict molina (vedh)

@tnvr555 

you always bring out the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
watched u burn our home straight to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
u burnt it to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

i want to take the blade
slice across my throat okay
hurts more than i’ll ever say
hurts more than my music could ever convey
don’t come and play your games with me
i wanted somewhere i could breathe
it hurts
it burns
so endlessly
i swear to god you’ve ruined me
and i don’t ever want to feel
if this is love i rather bleed

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

just like you promised 

prod: https://soundcloud.com/youngburial https://soundcloud.com/anxietyattackss
master: @vito2300

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need 

every night it’s silence 
i always dream i’m dying 
i wake up before the knife hits 
you used to hold me till my tears quit 
now you’re there watching as my skin rips 
helping hide the evidence 
cleaning up so elegant 
like it’s so lovely how your day went 

look in my eyes, for once 
i want you to tell me i’m never enough 
throw me on the bed so rough 
bite through my neck till i’m covered in blood 
want you to hold me down 
cover my mouth till i can’t make a sound 
want you to hold me tight 
and give me some scars to remember you by 

just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
(just like you promised, you promised)
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest
(you promised, you promised)

put me through the pain 
just keep talking to me 
just like you promised 
i wanna watch while you leave 
put me through the shame 
all this crying to me 
won’t make you honest 
i can’t be what you need

pain

pain (prod. fats'e & anxiety attacks!)

i'll make you my only purpose

prod. acey 
master: @vito2300

cut me open
let me feel you
ripping up my skin
i’m a masochist at best
i let you come right in 
pulling out my heart
(i let it happen)
lying in the dark
(i heard you laughing)
chain me up so tight 
that i can’t feel my wrists 
and let me stare at you 
in anguish 
losing oxygen 
i’ll treat you like a god 
just let me worship 
leaking blood out at the sermon 
put me down right on my knees
and i’ll be good for you for certain 
let me prove to you i’m worth it 
i’ll make you my only purpose 
i’ll be waiting till the winter ends 
just let me be of service 
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosene
look at me now 
i’m fucking collapsing 
i don’t wanna feel fucking anything 
every time i dream i’m fucking relapsing 
sipping it straight fucking kerosene
(let me be that once, once
and let me feel your touch
and let me be your crutch, crutch
until you’ve had enough)

untitled 2

Aleksey K. Mikhailov