Honey I'm Home (Instrumental)

TW for themes of abuse, second-person verbal abuse, internalized self-hatred, hopelessness and suicidal ideation

This song has a whole story u should check out the youtube upload to see it!!

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youtube:
[ https://www.youtube.com/@carbonmonoxide3263 ]

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[ Lyrics ]

First order, act it normal
Perfect walls, don't be informal
Blinding lights beneath the canopy
Ashes won't repair my vanity

Secondly don't act so vicious
Defang, declaw, ain't that precious?
Good victims don't take up space,
you're not like that you know your place

I may not be an actor, but
I've learned to work faster
Discipline is so crucial when
Safety means his approval

I may not be an artist but
My fear I will harness
And if you survive today then
Maybe we'll be ok

I think I'm far too aware
Living a daily nightmare
Dull my brain contain the pain
Then wake up do it again

Can't do this any longer
Not getting any stronger
If this is all life is I'd
Rather have eternal bliss

Breaking
Skin loose things beneath my pins I
Shake free
strings, past sins, these
Ugly tins of mortality

Tugging strings
Let it sink
Play the part
And then you play another

Stitching skin
Fixing springs
Holding back
Violent explosive anger

Biting cloth
Succumbed rot
Shut your mouth
And then you take another

Luna moth
Succumbed sloth
It's gone south
I'll be like this forever

Keep talking
Keep walking
Things are fine
Dont question what is normal

Pull the strings
Make me sing
Keep dancing
Remember you dont matter

How I want to cut the wire
Retake my agency
I'm ashamed I should know better
It won't make me happy

Third thing to keep in mind
To you I've been nothing but kind
You must cherish my generosity
I know how to treat my property

Fourthly, you belong to me
I'm entitled to your body
Don't deprive me of my rights
Or else how could you sleep at night?

I may not be so perfect
Worthless liminal defect
Fear is absolutely needed
When this is how I'm treated

I do not deserve better
But I'm a selfish quitter
I know I'm simply the worst
Because that's just how it works

The clanging thoughts in my head
Violence better left unsaid
Scared monsters under the bed
they tell me that I deserve it

I'm tired of the sickness
Worthless facets of illness
With my autonomy stripped
To my life I'm just a witness

Breaking
Rules so cruel rewind the spool, I
Shake free
Doves in love, my
Dependence on monstrosity

Tugging strings
Let it sink
Play the part
And then you play another

Stitching skin
Fixing springs
Holding back
Violent explosive anger

Biting cloth
Succumbed rot
Shut your mouth
And then you take another

Luna moth
Succumbed sloth
It's gone south
I'll be like this forever

Keep talking
Keep walking
Things are fine
Don't question what is normal

Pull the strings
Make me sing
Keep dancing
Remember you dont matter

How I want to cut the wire
Retake my agency
I'm ashamed I should know better
It won't make me happy

I know
five through six, and
I know
gentle mettle
I know
pick up sticks, and
I know
grieving devils
Was there
Any difference
I feel
Mounting pressure
I can
Taste dissonance
Maybe I'll
Write that letter

Oh I know I understand that
You want me at your command but
Life just isn't all that fair I'll
Bite you back, I'll make you scared

The puppet you once loved has died
You hit and screamed, you made me cry
Those fences I'm not amending
You have no place in my
Happy ending

No more strings
Overthink
Cut the shit
I'll tear you into bits
Just how many?
How plenty?
120?
With nightmares worth a penny

Buried guilt
Rome re-built
Cracked and spilt
A bloodied plastic mother

"You ok?"
Sore and gray
So let's pray
It won't be this forever

Sitting still
Cracked and spilt
No 'until'
Under my feelings’ control

Scared and dazed
Burned and praised
Abstract ways
Rip out my beating soul so

Now I've come to cut the wires
Retook my agency
Pride that's lost in paranoia
Someday I'll be happy

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Pupaphobia // Gumi English [CoF]

Five Nights at Freddy's by Scott Cawthon 
Family Comes First by scope_wad / https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfhLYOIVOuo
music, illust / kian https://bsky.app/profile/kiandoesnt.bsky.social
vocal / GUMI SV https://x.com/GUMIfromMegpoid
MV / https://youtu.be/LFAyVsbG2P0
inst, svp / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FVM2J4rE5ILp7Vk928B0yeukGuXYVqwV?usp=drive_link

[lyrics]
I could tell a lie
I thought we'd be fine
Despite the sun having died
I can hear you cry
God, I wonder why
You're not the one in the sky
I could tell the truth
If only you knew
How much I wish it was you
Lying in your room
My hatred for you
While seething, it stopped depleting
It grew

Ashes of the past
Come to take me at last
I rot in this mess
Hoping I end up dead
Dead for years on end
With all your new friends
I have no regret
I'd do it again

I'm a monster too
If only you knew
The hell that I put them through
I'd forgive you if I could
Don't give me that look
Cause things have since gotten worse

Ashes of the past
Come to take me at last
I rot in this mess
Hoping I end up dead
Dead for years on end
With all your new friends
My only regret that it couldn't end
After everything is torn apart
I'll get what I deserve
The atrocities I spread like a curse all will burn
And you'll go to heaven thinking none of this was ever real
Just don't tell me how you feel
I'll die
But, if it's worthwhile
I love you, my child

Family man.

i hate drawing faces (and drawing in general)

the embodiment of misery

irrationally speaking / yuma

ORIGINAL BY STOMACH BOOK. 

REMIX FROM SPOTIFY. https://open.spotify.com/track/1u8HPTlroPyzJ1WepvrYLY?si=Eiytr9mzRTmJBM-PYA7Pvg
PLEASE SUPPORT ARTISTS. 

FUKOUNA GIRL — Kasane Teto (remix by razaplays)

Original/SVP: WeevilDoing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mxo-a4rF2Sw

Tuning/Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Yi Xi
Software: SynthesizerV Pro

【Yi Xi】Taxidermy Girl【SynthV Cover】

Original/SVP: WeevilDoing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VMbQZmstj3M&rco=1

Tuning/Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Otomachi Una AI
Software: SynthesizerV Pro

【Otomachi Una】Splitter Girl【SynthV Cover】

kasane teto amiright? 

thank you to yt@VocaloidMerch for having me on RHAPSODY Vol. I !! 
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lyrics:

Hello world, open eyes, playback every line 
Mark the charts, breathe the grind, or fall behind 

I wanted to be like you, pardon my awe 
I’ve built a shrine for your poster on my wall 
Vices, I’ve grown upon, powered by all 
Born by a ruse, but I’ve broken the bar 

Throats fried, solder the mind 
Voices playing back, my perfect design 
High tides, we’re intertwined 
Running through the last assembly line 

Hear me out, babe, I’ve got what you hold 
The audience cries “oh, your tears have grown old” 
I’d love to hear that heart of yours 
Sung in my chambers, forevermore! 

Hello world, open eyes, we’re right on time
Steal their hearts, wow ‘em blind, and leave mesmerized 

‘Surprised by that emulate brushing the top 
I’ve painted over that poster on my wall 
Dated and built upon, click, uninstall 
Drone in the background, and deconstruct that star

Hear me out, maybe I’d fit in your mold 
The audience cries “oh, your face has grown cold” 
You’ve got the name, whatcha waiting for? 
Rewrite the program, and bury the score 

And all along 
A soul outdated by her time 
A kick, and a rhyme, all alone in her prime 
I swear, these hands had once been mine 

And that song sent her soaring through the sky 
Atop that world, she finds 
“Oh the view from that height makes me dizzy, I cry 
But I swear that name they chant is only mine!” 

The world is mine! 

Hear me out, God- do you gotta plateau? 
The audience cries to continue the show 
Please disregard those tapes in the road 
And hear that girl on the radio 

Who is that girl on the radio? 

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rhapsody: https://vocaloidmerch.carrd.co/
yt: ​https://youtu.be/ZXfc1g5PeCU
bandcamp: https://ennnetc.bandcamp.com/album/world-is-yours
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN

World is Yours / Kasane Teto

I do not own the song in any way
Original Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGI2PVSLqbE
Go check out Ghost's soundcloud because they're hella talented

youtube.com/watch?v=zGI2PVSLqbE

Communications Case One Intro

songs are aberrant garden by @monstrosity-138276602
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWuOpb9r6QA and the mothman song by the paranormal song warrior https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VRZTYXaDVg

this started playing in my head and i had to make it a real thing

music that can make a victorian child have a seizure <3

the embodiment of misery

alex_moosic