you were the thought i slept to 
you were the prison that i entered 

is there anything anything anything 
to make you fall again fall again fall again 
ooohhh 
is there anything anything anything
to bring your smile back smile back

anything (voice memo)

when i'm with you, everything makes sense
i'm not held back by premonition
and i can breathe in and out

and my eyes, they look up at you
and my hands, they stop shaking too
and my smile sees the light

oh you're my life, you're my life
so please don't die

don't die
don't die

written by and violins done by me:)
production, mixing, and mastering done by wander!

when i'm with you (slowed) w/ wander all winter

"all i ever wanted was you
all i ever got was the truth

i'm so sorry for asking you to love 
someone so difficult

but it's not fair 
how much i gave
to someone who left me to... break

to someone who left me to... 
to someone who left me to 

(break) 
(break)"

credits: 
written, composed, and violins done by me :)
produced, mixed, and mastered by grant fontyn aka wander all winter

all i ever wanted was you

"show me things i cant see
oh love me madly

oh i can be reckless, i can give up
all of my color to someone else

but i can't be standing here full of love
and watching you smile by yourself

i'm turning blue, i'm turning blue
oh everything is stained from you

i'm turning blue, i'm turning blue
oh everything is stained from you"

this song is so special to me. thank you for listening!!!

credits:
written, composed, and violins done by me:)
mixing, production, and mastering by grant fontyn aka "wander all winter"

turning blue :/

what can i give up for you to see me as,
as the one?
can i be the one?
can i be the one? the one?

can i be the one (voice memo)

hello? hello? hello?
are you there...again
i'd just like to know...
i'd just like to know...

hello? (demo)

oh how i wish u could help me see the person that i wanna be
maybe if i wasn't so unsure, i'd be fine to see you leave

don't come down, don't come down, 
i can't stand another sound of you drowning

broken angels. (demo)

tell me all your darkest secrets 
ill tell you mine
no need to hide yet 
you can lay here with me 
and watch the sky 
bleed into nightfall 

why they coming after us? 
precious vulnerability 
oh it’s killing me 

tell me all your darkest secrets 
and i promise 
i won’t let go

why they coming after us?
precious vulnerability 
oh it’s killing me (tell me all)

tell me your 
darkest secrets 
and i’ll tell you mine

darkest secrets slowed (w/ wander all winter)

open my eyes to desolate crimes
you’re on fire, lost in a nightmare
and you might oblige i not criticize
internalize and move on
cauterize the trouble

pieces of you in pieces of me
hopelessly devoted to misery
can’t outrun tragedies designed as healing blessings

cause when u say youre dead to me i cry
like theres nothing left of me and i try
not to let you get the best of me
but im lying if i said there was a remedy, a remedy, a remedy

im used to lementing our younger selves
and when you are drowning i’m too lost to help
the angel who would listen, her life was your reason
died along the way, became distant, locked in hatred

when pieces of you slit pieces of me
i started to realize with you, i couldn’t breathe
you were honest in your pain, your hurt i cannot blame, but that doesn’t mean i could handle all the crashing planes

cause when u say youre dead to me i cry
like theres nothing left of me and i try
not to let you get the best of me
but im lying if i said there was a remedy, a remedy, a remedy

no one here is evil
toxin’s in the default
thought we were forever
as i decorate a new home

we were so beautiful
it’s as strange as it comes
to let go of what you thought was going to heal you from the world

remedy - alternate version

wait a minute
before i listen
not your business
but i’m a different girl now
although i gave in
you’re too expensive
finally circling back with myself

you testify drunk 
that i’m the one
drink all the failing love
feel the burnt lips
and hundreds of minutes
worshipping figments

 i feel only what is wrong
and wonder what is right
you’re swiping credit cards
and leaving me the dimes
don’t you cry again 
it’s about damn time that i’ve left

swallowed up the lies in your
breaths while you fill my lungs
all your consumption has
made my debt overflow
don’t rewind events
i’ve declined the transaction, the transaction

i taste your gimmicks
on paper feelings,
you say you’re healing
to delude my emotions

can’t shake the spinning
i fade with each spree
the cost increases
not much left to indulge in

you testify drunk
that i’m the one
drink all the failing love
feel the burnt lips
and hundreds of minutes
worshipping figments

i feel only what is wrong
and wonder what is right
you’re swiping credit cards
and leaving me the dimes
don’t you cry again 
it’s about damn time that i’ve left

swallowed up the lies in your
breaths while you fill my lungs
all your consumption has
made my debt overflow
don’t rewind events
i’ve declined the transaction, the transaction

money on my mind, you took all of mine
hard to feel a- hard to feel a- hard to feel alive
crimes and heavy fines
should’ve left the line
should’ve let you pay with your own dimes

(the transaction)

money on my mind, you took all of mine
hard to feel a- hard to feel a- hard to feel alive
crimes and heavy fines
should’ve left the line
should’ve let you pay with your own dimes

can i be the one (voice memo)

Alexa Cirri

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