Scared of Myself

Life will eat you up. Spit you out. Make you the villain make you the hero.  At the end what was it all for?.

I’m finally happy. I’m doing absolutely fantastic. Thank you to all of the musicians who helped me get through it.  Don’t think I forgot y’all. And to all of you struggling who see this, keep going. It’s worth it I promise. Remember not every day will be happy but it is another chance. And that leads to more and more happy days. 

Learning to love every day. Myself. And others. Learning to live. Express. Be myself. And to be who I want to be. Learning to trust.

Have a beautiful blessed day.

Yk what summer was kinda a struggle but I’m getting my footing and feeling fing great! I got the gym. Fighting. And this cool person just showed up in my life. 

Everything happens for a reason. God is great and works in mysterious ways.



SH is addictive and disabling. I was 2.5 years clean and relapsed a week ago. Not badly. But it proved no matter how “okay” you are u can mess up and need to keep working at it


Yk that “cool person” I mentioned! Yeah well now me and her are 5 months into dating and oml she’s amazing!


“Cool person” that’s what I called her. She’s more than that tho. She’s my whole world. 7 months is 6 days away and genuinely I couldn’t imagine my life without her. “Cool person”. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with this “cool person”. My love. My Panda. My cool person.

Haha. I’m not great. Idk. Just struggling. Urges tn it’s scary because it hasn’t happened for like 6 months. Sometimes it happens. But hey. Yk what. Imma get past it because I got a ton to be greatful for. That cool person that I talked about. Yeah. In like 2 weeks. 1 year. 1 year I’ve been head over heels in love with her. So that’s great. And I’ve got a huge fight coming up so that’s also amazing. Gods got me. You. And us all. I asked for the strength so he gave me the burdens to broaden my shoulders right. So thank you for my struggles lord. Thank you all. (All 0 of you that read this it’s more for me then anyone else) start of the year is stressful though. And family is too. Mine. Hers. Everyone. It’s hard having people expect perfection then be mad when you mess up but at the same time idk if it’s them expecting it or me expecting it and falling short either way. I make mistakes and I know that and I want to do better but sometimes I need to make a mistake and not be ridiculed for it. Although that’s not life huh so. Maybe I should just toughen up. Anyways that’s all for now. Bye

Life gets you down remember it’s 1 down the rest up 🏍️💨

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Scared of Myself

Alexander Stewart