Memory Leak

Visuals

𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑹𝒀 𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑲

ive become aquainted well with the morning sun
well maybe all of this aint quite so bad
glancing at your sleeping face makes me feel so excited
about whats next to come past these fleeting moments

is this what you felt?
is this what you felt?
is this what you felt when you gushed about
watching clouds go by before the first train in the morning

take me by the hand

take me by the hand (2021 demo)

who's gonna hold my hand while i google symptoms (slowed and reverbed)

past nights you kept me up
talking endlessly
hands held intertwined
skipping school
with you

past nights you kept me up
talking endlessly
cling to me
dont drift apart
keep your gentle heart
x2

come on lets go out
throw paint on walls
tag our dms in concrete malls
pet all the dogs and jump in puddles
make flower crowns, catch dreams and cuddles

could you maybe care less?
confess, that we're best friends
deep breath, cigarettes cluttering our hands
same clouds under the same sky, we'll be fine
cling to me
dont drift apart
keep your gentle heart!

Gentle heart

i'm sure you finally moved out
i hope some of the things i bought for you
a while ago
still found their way to you

tried to break off contact
she asked if i was free
busy getting carried away
filling gaps in history
never learned how to like someone
just throw them in the attic
the dust will suit me well

we used to hold up traffic
not fond of letting go
your body always said 
"no way, it's way too cold"

care package

flipped this (2022)

clay figure

hey june
we both got here early again
and im fumbling to get
my hair back to my bed hair
june please dont hold my hand
i want to stop worrying
if this is as good as its gonna get

whats holding us back?
all of our old friends keep asking about us
whats it like for you?
can i be the green tea in the morning
instead of the cold sweat on your face
can we catch a break this time we've learned from mistakes
just lay down on the grass like we used to
and we still do

never meant tuning, capo 3

June

Unused instrumental track!! (2022 demo)

Tyler yaamc i did not forget about the merch store package that got lost and i never got a refund for

here is the original: https://soundcloud.com/ylerdom/03-in-october-of-2019-i-called

In October Of 2020 I Realized I Never Had A Place To Call Home To Begin With

super-glued to the feeling
that no matter how kind
i will become
how much i wail in regret
it will never ever excuse
my mistakes

when i chat with you i just want to hear you understand
i know my voice was never that pretty
though it might feel like you hold me hostage (all the time)
it might be better this way

oh, i just wanna be held

cant wear myself down for such stupid reasons anymore
youre another me with all the good parts
and mishaps all intact

i want to say it again
my grip isn't something i could fix with something as simple as a sorry

just so terrified of losing everything again 
once i let loose it'll all move apart
like with everyone else whose faces are etched into the back of my eyes
while i stayed nothing but a messed up canvas of their past life

hostage

this was never the way i planned
not my intention
i got so brave
drink in hand
lost my descretion

i kissed a girl and i liked it 
the taste of her cherry chapstick
i kissed a girl just to try it
i hope my best friend doesnt mind it
it felt so wrong
it felt so right
dont mean im in love tonight
i kissed a girl and i liked it 

i liked it

i kissed a girl (cover)

came crashing thru ur boundaries
confused friendship with tug of war

as much as i tried
i dont think ive treated you right

so let me be the one
to build up a wall
its fine if we catch up again
once in a while

i never had the kindest eyes
a little souvenier of some terrible years

cant get rid of the worried looks
that keep staring back at me 
through every mirror that sees me

back+forth

you kept me on the edge
trimmed my blossoms
now you're surprised when i cant stomach
lose my focus
im sure you wanted me to do well
and to grow up to be more than you ever could

but im not you
and youre not like me

since you did your best 
please set me free

long gone since i first realized
this is a path i want to stray from

Trim (2023 snippet)

Unfinished D&B sketch (2023)

Life by a thousand kisses

out in the city
you wont need to hide

there will be someone to see you when youre pretty
of course it wouldnt be as easy 
as floating to the surface up above

if waves come by
and knock me back down
will i make it back up?
will it matter where i came from?
how long will i stay a float

Waves (2023 sketch)

looking for the star you saw
let it blossom
looking for the star you saw
pry it open
following the seeds you've sown
let them blossom
follow all the seeds you've sown
make it back home

don't fear
every hand you hold
make a wish
get your story told

get yourself out of your bed
your body won't forget it
don't fear every hand you hold
speak easy, get your story told

thanks for 1k followers :)

Speak easy

reupload from the liveshow on oct. 11th 2023 @ https://sicnal.de

Listen to dubstin's @dubstin_not_dustbin [SIDE A] over at our shared playlist: https://soundcloud.com/alexseibelorsomething/sets/dubstin-b2b-alex

dubstin b2b alex .°☆ @ [sic]nal CyberCrush [SIDE B]

Be clear (2022 sketch)

Main Theme for the MinnHax2024 Gamejam I participated in!
You can check it out here: https://itch.io/jam/minnhax-2024/rate/3085062

Art by Cath from the MinnMax discord and huge thanks to the rest of the team <3

Toaster's Very Busy Day! (MinnHax 2024)

Sure you're still a part of me
kind of like a hoodie i barely wear anymore
that still smells like second hand smoke
when i decide to take it out
for some fresh air

when i grew up
nothing was cosistent
often i still think
what would happen if i
couldn't be around
in a year or two

always out of time to become someone new

you're still a part of me
like when they say 
you're a collection of past memories
now 25, i still feel like a highschool kid
that has to
commit to
who i wanna be
for the rest of my life (x2)

do you ever feel nasty
just considering it?
i know grass gets greener where you water it
i take worries of a growing heart
and keep growing them towards the stars
(x2)

sea salt and camomile in my nose
things get better soon i know
got another birthday coming up this year

sea salt and camomile in my nose
things get better soon i know
and for my next trick
i will disappear 

Tuning: DACGCE capo 3

Salt and camomile

So we had a different idea of growing up
sparks of shared problems
turned to a grinding halt

and you love to tell the world
youre self aware
when all you do is amplify the loud parts
and you think you're all fair

you didnt believe in others,
when you made it all alone
now we're stranded with another
no clue what to say, don't know how to be close

you didnt believe in comfort,
a space you would ever feel home
you went out and broke your bones
and now you push others to break theirs too

when you raised your voice
did you ever look them in the eyes
is it so embarassing to be nice?

when you're a kid, you have the so much love for the world,
it takes so much neglect and shame
before you have to leave for a safer place

so, is it worth it to you to pump your heart up full of hate?
because kids don't play your part, have pierced lips, and want to give back in their own way?

you didnt believe in others,
when you made it all alone
now we're stranded with another
no clue what to say, don't know how to be close

you didnt believe in comfort,
a space you would ever feel home
you went out and broke your bones
and now you push others to break theirs too

you didnt beleive in comfort,
a space you would ever feel home
you went out and broke your bones
and now you push others to break theirs too

you didnt beleive in comfort,
a space you would ever feel home
you went out and broke your bones
and now you push others to break theirs too

amplifier

How's this little thing from 2017 been getting so much love lately

blooming

cover art by https://www.instagram.com/babygeist
bandcamp upload: https://alexseibel.bandcamp.com/track/wither
youtube upload: https://youtu.be/l3km-HGFmUc

featured on https://www.treehouseradio.live

Wither

sample:
https://www.reddit.com/r/oneohtrixpointnever/comments/as5b86/my_heart_will_go_opn/

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Tori's Postcards (2020)

Midi in the klerb (2020)

that distance
you keep
to everyone you've ever known
so you can run away
as soon as you need to
is growing old

it took a litte more than 3 days 
for your scent to leave my bed
dreams of you became so much clearer
and after all this time 
im so much more certain
that i wouldnt mind
going wrong with you

i wouldn't mind going wrong with you

Riff idea 41-2a (2021)

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