Memory Leak

Visuals

𝑴𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑹𝒀 𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑲

when you think of me
who do you see
how will these mistakes
shape our memories

drifting further from myself as i wake up
distracting from this mess as a hope to break out
never stop moving
so ill never stay the same (x2)

main guitar by https://soundcloud.com/stefan-tantana-519343689

drift

who's gonna hold my hand while i google symptoms (slowed and reverbed)

who's gonna hold my hand while i google symptoms

past nights you kept me up
talking endlessly
hands held intertwined
skipping school
with you

past nights you kept me up
talking endlessly
cling to me
dont drift apart
keep your gentle heart
x2

come on lets go out
throw paint on walls
tag our dms in concrete malls
pet all the dogs and jump in puddles
make flower crowns, catch dreams and cuddles

could you maybe care less?
confess, that we're best friends
deep breath, cigarettes cluttering our hands
same clouds under the same sky, we'll be fine
cling to me
dont drift apart
keep your gentle heart!

Gentle heart

i'm sure you finally moved out
i hope some of the things i bought for you
a while ago
still found their way to you

tried to break off contact
she asked if i was free
busy getting carried away
filling gaps in history
never learned how to like someone
just throw them in the attic
the dust will suit me well

we used to hold up traffic
not fond of letting go
your body always said 
"no way, it's way too cold"

care package

flipped this

clay figure

hey june
we both got here early again
and im fumbling to get
my hair back to my bed hair
june please dont hold my hand
i want to stop worrying
if this is as good as its gonna get

whats holding us back?
all of our old friends keep asking about us
whats it like for you?
can i be the green tea in the morning
instead of the cold sweat on your face
can we catch a break this time we've learned from mistakes
just lay down on the grass like we used to
and we still do

never meant tuning, capo 3

June

caught a glance
across the rails
heart didnt drop as much as the last time
knees shaking but i didnt feel my guts spill out
 
i still hear we talk the same way so maybe
yeah maybe you wont mind if i just say hi next time

(hi)

https://youtu.be/lPFOaRA-Tmw

i'm only photogenic in the pictures you took

music video

your arms are my cocoon cover, please support their music
here is the original: https://soundcloud.com/ylerdom/03-in-october-of-2019-i-called

i hope i can grab a cassette soon

In October Of 2020 I Realized I Never Had A Place To Call Home To Begin With

super-glued to the feeling
that no matter how kind
i will become
how much i wail in regret
it will never ever excuse
my mistakes

when i chat with you i just want to hear you understand
i know my voice was never that pretty
though it might feel like you hold me hostage (all the time)
it might be better this way

oh, i just wanna be held

cant wear myself down for such stupid reasons anymore
youre another me with all the good parts
and mishaps all intact

i want to say it again
my grip isn't something i could fix with something as simple as a sorry

just so terrified of losing everything again 
once i let loose it'll all move apart
like with everyone else whose faces are etched into the back of my eyes
while i stayed nothing but a messed up canvas of their past life

hostage

so i unpacked
the bag of clothes
i prepared
in case id have to go
to the hospital
(im not going anywhere)

spring is over now
and its hard to stay in frame
with all my faults
always in plain sight
(let me hide here for a little while)

it gets so hard to breathe sometimes
and it hurts to have to say no
(i'd just rather go home)

i once thought
life will guide me through
and teach me all i need to know
(but it wont)

this is a song about the frustration of feeling weak and waiting for life to steer you in a better direction, but sometimes it's up to you to initiate the change you want to see

missing out

this was never the way i planned
not my intention
i got so brave
drink in hand
lost my descretion

i kissed a girl and i liked it 
the taste of her cherry chapstick
i kissed a girl just to try it
i hope my best friend doesnt mind it
it felt so wrong
it felt so right
dont mean im in love tonight
i kissed a girl and i liked it 

i liked it

i kissed a girl (cover)

[...] but you know,
i'm there for you

i'll be there,
for you

sweet echo

a little piece on not feeling welcome in your own home

chew the inside
of my mouth 
just to make
the time pass

never tried
to ponder the feelings
of dreaming
on this bed 
made out of so many 
nails

nails

came crashing thru ur boundaries
confused friendship with tug of war

as much as i tried
i dont think ive treated you right

so let me be the one
to build up a wall
its fine if we catch up again
once in a while

i never had the kindest eyes
a little souvenier of some terrible years

cant get rid of the worried looks
that keep staring back at me 
through every mirror that sees me

back+forth

VISUALS:

Tracklist:
01. August Burns Red - Mariana Trench (midi cover by Mads Kvols)

02. alex seibel .°☆ - Gentle heart
https://soundcloud.com/alexseibelorsomething/gentle-heart

03. alex seibel .°☆ - ID

04. alex seibel .°☆ - clay figure (Immy's "Clay Fighter" Bootleg)
https://soundcloud.com/ozoneimogen/clayfighter

05. user-177606669 - brixton bullies (alex's .°☆ drumstep edit)
https://soundcloud.com/user-177606669/brixton-bullies-drumstep-edit

06. dorencore - flower power
https://soundcloud.com/dorencore/flower-power

07. user-788567091 - br8znhvmbkaq
https://soundcloud.com/user-788567091/br8znhvmbkaq

08. E+E - dreaming (seaplanes edit)

09. user-177606669 - caring is punk 
https://soundcloud.com/user-177606669/caring/s-6RyyjdIAH7u

10. alex seibel .°☆ - ID

11. alex seibel .°☆ - june
https://soundcloud.com/alexseibelorsomething/june

VISUALS

alex seibel .°☆ @ Scary Fest 2

been running in circles
but i'll keep going till my lungs give out
we both know i just wanted to be a little bit closer
a little closer
just a dream drop away from a piece of your smile now
wondering when youre gonna be mine
(i want to break out)
dreams catching up to my mind now
lets slow down

next time 
teach me more about this love you love so much
i always feel so ashamed, when i just want to be kind

JUST TALK

is what i always tell myself, my former shell
so many twists and turns in my bed, on my shoulder 
making me second guess so well

just talk, talk, talk–
just talk
just talk, talk, talk–
just talk

written and recorded on the 26th of november 2022

play talk

i just want a simple life
no stressing out over stressing out
how can i be true to my feelings 
if i'm so scared to be wrong
aren't love and frendships supposed to be fun? 

turn my head off
throw down your arms tonight
the resistance has lost the fight now
built up for years
its time for the home run
theres nothing left to worry about
(nothing to worry about)

-47.432988, -72.633077

Here and There

here & there

looking for the star you saw
let it blossom
looking for the star you saw
pry it open
following the seeds you've sown
let them blossom
follow all the seeds you've sown
make it back home

don't fear
every hand you hold
make a wish
get your story told

get yourself out of your bed
your body won't forget it
don't fear every hand you hold
speak easy, get your story told

thanks for 1k followers :)

Speak easy

reupload from the liveshow on oct. 11th 2023 @ https://sicnal.de

Listen to dubstin's @dubstin_not_dustbin [SIDE A] over at our shared playlist: https://soundcloud.com/alexseibelorsomething/sets/dubstin-b2b-alex

dubstin b2b alex .°☆ @ [sic]nal CyberCrush [SIDE B]

Main Theme for the MinnHax2023 Gamejam i participated in!
You can check it out here: https://brainfreeze1026.itch.io/cloud-bound

Cloud Bound Main Theme (MinnHax2023)

visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUjuzhKf04k

blooming

dying to see you

i suck and naming songs but whatever it's 6am and i want to die real bad so does it even matter

picture is a thing a friend of mine sent me on swapdoodle
(@babygeist on instagram and twitter)

i wish it was easier to go to sleep

i wish it was easier to fall asleep

cover art by https://www.instagram.com/babygeist
bandcamp upload: https://alexseibel.bandcamp.com/track/wither
youtube upload: https://youtu.be/l3km-HGFmUc

featured on https://www.treehouseradio.live

Wither

sample:
https://www.reddit.com/r/oneohtrixpointnever/comments/as5b86/my_heart_will_go_opn/

mͨͯ̿ỵ̎ͯ h̬̘ͯe͉ͯ᷀a̭̼ͯr͇ͯͯtͯ̊͜ w̜ͯͦi᷄ͯ᷁l̝ͯ͌l̎ͯ̊ g̢̺ͯoͥͯ᷁ o̷᷈ͯn̯̮ͯ(speedcore)

i dont need to worry about the cold this winter
your smile wraps around my heart and keeps me warm
and i dont need to worry about thinking too much 
we will never run out of things to talk about

the key of your voice always makes me forget
how nervous i get around you 
like when i picture us 
sharing your scarf
wishing you'd be more than just a friend

i dont need to worry about the cold this winter
your smile wraps around my heart and keeps me warm
i never thought you could make me feel so tired
in such a pleasant way

hold you close

that distance
you keep
to everyone you've ever known
so you can run away
as soon as you need to
is growing old

it took a litte more than 3 days 
for your scent to leave my bed
dreams of you became so much clearer
and after all this time 
im so much more certain
that i wouldnt mind
going wrong with you

i wouldn't mind going wrong with you

@tetriscompteam
@parkinglotsunshine
@user-177606669

alex seibel .°☆

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