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stains on my shoes (prod. y axis)

Prod. By Sean Houston 

HOOK: 
all of the times, all of the times
that you said you luv me, you lie
love me you lied 

VERSE: 
i've pop pills to numb the pain,
you smoke meth fuck up ya face,
got my name up in ya flesh
but shawty that don't mean a thang,
you a wreck don't fuck with trains,
remember kissin in the rain
now you stick needles in your vains,
all my tears went down the drain

wish i never met you but id prolly do it all again X2

(the samples i used are from shameless :)

Bipolar Lovebirds

bones - deadindesignerclothes [shinigami remix]

shes my crush not my type bitch

Mixed by @iofmusic

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@wheresgoonie
@prodbyiof

crush

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crush [prod. vaegud x HXRXKILLER]

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:

painful memories really get to me 
rumination's got the best of me
desolation's got the rest of me
I'll let the vultures take what's left of me
self-destruction by my own design 
I can't keep living life on borrowed time
I'm typing this out quick cause soon my phone will die
then not long after, so will I
so why don't you go and cross that bridge
while I go jumping off of it
what we had was never pure 
signing this forever yours
body numb from alcohol and ativan
soul worn out and ragged like these tattered vans
but in spite of everything
I don't hope that this haunts you
my ghost is better off alone
alone
and although I'm still sad
every once and a while
some memory of us will still make me smile
every single one I cherish 
yet I still knew
that if our love shall perish
then I will too
and it might not be the most righteous move
but what's right for me may not be right for you
but I'd still like to think that after I depart
you'll still carry with you a small piece of my heart
I guess this is where the story ends
put me in the crematorium
and after my body's burned
place my ashes in this shoddy urn
then bury it in my backyard
where we used to watch the stars
while listening to silverstein
but will you come and visit me?

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but we really loved each other, didn't we?

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

last december (prod. why loner)

Said & Done ft. Foreign Forest (Prod. Rizi)

Stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/2UsvQ3rPyxIqOupbE4HsSg?si=UJvdPMa4SESBxsyXyMXYcQ
(I don't wanna go home right now, I just wanna feel the outside air
I remember I was crying next to you, Now I wonder if you still care)

Face first on the concrete doesn't compare to how I feel about you!
Got me drivin off these cliffs of misery, I can't let this off my chest
No i'm not talkin bout the silly drama, Left our high school days
And we're onto new problems alright
I been getting to the bag don't wanna talk to you
I'm the only one allowed to see my dream fall through

And it's alright, If you replace me, 
You won't find no one that sees the way that I see.
Yea I see visions of the future I can see it all.
All the wins and all the losses even my down-
Fall through, I just wanna fall through
Fall out of the lines and all the spaces that were built by you
Don't hit up my line if you not talkin bout the paper
Tryna make the moves before I see myself fade first

Because i'm hoping that I see just a little bit more than this
Cause i've always been a little afraid of it
But now I think i'm ready to fall through, fall through

And i'm not talkin bout the silly drama, Left our high school days
And we're onto new problems alright
I been getting to the bag don't wanna talk to you
I'm the only one allowed to see my dreams-

Fall through I just wanna fall through
Fall out of the lines and all the spaces that were built by you
Don't hit up my line if you not talkin bout the paper
Tryna make the moves before I see myself fade first

Because i'm hoping that I see just a little bit more than this
Cause i've always been a little afraid of it
But now I think i'm ready to fall through, fall through

I Wanna Fall Through (Prod. Discent)

Produced by Jay Vee
Mixed by Brody

Thank you to Captain Sad himself for the amazing verse. I love you brother.

Patience

Patience (Ft. Yesterday)

Instagram: Instagram.com/worryaboutwhy
Twitter: twitter.com/yungworry

Lyrics

You don’t think about me much do you lady?
And I don’t think about you just the same 
Can you imagine if we stayed together and had a baby?
Can you imagine if we had chosen a different lane?

I think that I still love you 
I know that you love me too 
Can we be together again

I think that I still hate you 
I know that you hate me too
Can we get together one day

[Mastered by @forevrboy]

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imagine

"you were so broken, i was so lost in myself"

LYRICS

VERSE
i was so high
and you brought me down
(you brought me so down)
you wanna try
i’ll see you around

VERSE 2
i was so scared that you would
take a couple pills
try to float away
party in the hills
'quila for the pain
find another man
that’s how we began
why wouldn’t you do it all again

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

RAP
i been tryna fix us
you been caught in mix ups
that receipt it aint mine
you forget what you buy
lingerie aint on my mind
put your baggage on me
i can carry your grime
fuck the shit that you see
if you saw what i see
pussy stains on my jeans
sure as hell came from you
sure as hell aint from me
i been feeling soley
maybe if you hold me
i can show you what’s real
i can show you what’s me

BRIDGE
i just wanna try
but she dont wanna stay
baby let me try
i know that

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

OUTRO (Foreign Forest)
you broke my heart
i just wanna restart
but baby there you go again
i’m hurting and i can’t pretend
i just want to heal
but i can’t tell what’s real
i could really use a friend
baby let’s start from there again

yøu were sø brøken (ft. Foreign Forest)

stella // @edacityy

7.  over you
feat. lil lotus
mix by brody 
prod splashgvng & brody

[Lil Lotus]
Fuck your new tattoos
And your sweater in my room
It still smells like you
And there's nothing I can do

I was just waiting for something more
And I guess that you were too
So I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you again

[Edacity]

I'll be a fly on the wall watching all of your pitfalls
Every time im comin down i think about you
If anybody ever calls askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell ‘em all the things i do

The ways i move
The words i choose
When im beside you
When i try to be alone

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whos the fakest of them all
Took a moments time to paint a picture like you
If anybody ever calls Askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell them All the things i dooo

What do i do?
Ill remind you
Im beside you
When i try to Be alone

Come on out here why you doin this 
We be on that good shit like 
yeah yeah we doin this 
Come and throw it down like you done do this 
Got my shit together i got iced wrists  

But this glass heart it stays broke
Hell its endless 
Youre heartless i'm choking
How dare you come around 
when you just know that 
Life will end this 
And we're so damn hopeless 

I want to breath life into misery 
I’ve spent enough nights alone at peace 
Never knowing where i’ll be
Not coming to terms is on me

I'll bury all these bones from our history (it's an artifact)
It took 3 years to feel complete
Never knowing where i'll be
Not coming to terms is on me

over you (ft. lil lotus) [prod. splashgvng & brody]

thank you to @lilskeleskrrt and @lilduckk

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

I won't be alright
I'm trapped inside my mind
Fallen time to time and never get it right
I just run my life away
Never want to fight
I look right in back of me
The monster's right behind
Oh yeah, it's right behind me (right behind me)

I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

Do you really wanna know my life?
Do you really wanna see inside?
Do you really wanna look through my eyes?
All the suffering that happens at night

[lil skele]
I don't wanna take up your time
Think of what you said
You've been in my head taking up my mind
I've been looking out for what I think is best
But there's something in my head that makes my heart break through my chest so I know that I am more than this

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this

starchaser ft. skele (prod. WellFed)

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

Day 38

day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

Lyrics: 
Is it the start of the end or the start of beginning no
Cuz I don't know where to go when everyone starts leaving home
And the rest feels so unknown
You can be my killer if you wanted, you can be my killer if you tried
I wouldn't move a muscle if you came through 
And just shot me with your lies

Just tie me to the tracks and let me, I'm the killer on the drive home
Blindfolded like a fool in the night in the night
Like a deer in your headlights
And I don't wanna do this on my own
Be the killer on the drive home
Backstabbers play the part in the dark 
Always me on my own when i'm fallin a part

This is your last saving point
You can turn around now or face the fact that 
What you want's not what you'll get
But you'll get something close it
Stop your crying it's not the end of the world
But no one listens to a quiet little girl
I wanna talk about, don't wanna shout about it
Left me alone made me the killer on the drive hom

Okay, here I go again I apologize for the way 
I've been acting since the beginning
I know that you still love me so, Say that you will hold me close
But I know that it'd be better for the whole world if you just

Tie me to the tracks and let me, I'm the killer on the drive home
Blindfolded like a fool in the night in the night
Like a deer in your headlights
And I don't wanna do this on my own
Be the killer on the drive home
Backstabbers play the part in the dark 
Always me on my own when i'm fallin a part

tie me to the tracks and let me, I'm the killer on the drive home
Blindfolded like a fool in the night in the night
Like a deer in your headlights
And I don't wanna do this on my own
Be the killer on the drive
Backstabbers play the part in the dark 
Always me on my own when i'm fallin a part

So tie me to the tracks and let me, I'm the killer on the drive home
Blindfolded like a fool in the night in the night
Like a deer in your headlights

KILLER ON THE DRIVE HOME (PROD. 6SIGMA)

i wish the time we spent didn’t slip by as quick as it did
now i live my life with a fake smile and chase highs again

watching life pass me by
i wish i had one last goodbye

“i’m alright, i'll be fine”
that’s a lie, you know i’m dead inside

if nothing ever lasts, what’s the point of finding happiness?
i’ll never have you back and that’s a life i’d rather never live

i wish the time we spent didn’t slip by as quick as it did
now i live my life with a fake smile and chase highs again

all the fights, every lie...
can i take back all the spite?

i can try to find the light
but without you i’m still dead inside

if nothing ever lasts, what’s the point of finding happiness?
i’ll never have you back and that’s a life i’d rather never live

i wish the time we spent didn’t slip by as quick as it did
now i live my life with a fake smile and chase highs again

i wish the time we spent didn’t slip by as quick as it did
now i live my life with a fake smile and chase highs again

prod/mix/mst by me

subvital-44

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letter from a crow

traktrain

break of lines

shout out @demxntia for hopping on this and making it pretty and @wavewalk for making such a sick unique beat go follow them

Sui:

sick of floating here being stagnant in life know this aint right
but everytime a good thing happens 
storms come in and wash progression all away 
good things come along but they dont ever stay
no~~
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

Dem: 
I don't give a fuck anymore
go to war with myself at the core
you know i felt this way before
everything i used to love feels like chores
i don't know~
which way i should go~
i hope there's room to grow~
i hate feeling so, low~
oo~ oooo~ ye
oo~ where do i go, cause i just dont know

Bofa:

Drowning to my sorrow, keep that to myself
You can save yer rescue, i don't need yer help x2
NO
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

broken glass w/ demxntia ~ [p. wavewalk]

Leave me on the floor
I’ll be knocking at your door
No place I’d rather know
Than your soul, my only home

When u look at me it all stops
It’s quicker than an a detox
All the beating in my heart drops
Grown colder than an icebox

Just leave me on the floor
I’ll be knocking at your door
No place I’d rather know
Than your soul, my only home

I’ll never cross your mind, but you’ll always be on mine
Always try to run away, but I can’t escape the time
Through life I’ll find, how to see behind
But with every waking day my heart grows confined

I know you need space
The thoughts I can’t erase
We’re in another place
I won’t forget your face if you

Leave me on the floor
I’ll be knocking at your door
No place I’d rather know
Than your soul, my only home

Everybody knows
I don’t wanna go
I have to be home, I have to be home

Each and every toll
Keeps taking some more
I can’t lose control, I can’t lose control

Leave me on the floor
I’ll be knocking at your door
No place I’d rather know
Than your soul, my only home

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