Für Lena † 2011
___

her short life ended so suddenly and unexpected with only 20. beside the huge pain i experienced through her decision to leave, i think i can now say after years of thoughts and reflection, that it was also the event i learned the most of.

this day changed literally everything. it was the hardest reminder that we only have very limited time together, so early in life. it effected all my decisions, every breath is a deeper one since this day. i see with a clear mind and open heart now. it gave me more passion, the ability for self care, it strengthened my empathy & understanding and created a even stronger will to leave the world better than i found it.

i’m sharing this because i don’t want her to become forgotten and meaningless. so, this is what i learned. maybe you get something good from it, too.

be good to yourself. be good to people, even the ones you think that don’t deserve it. be kind to every other sentient being. everyone has her or his own invisible struggles, be aware of it and respect it. keep the people that don’t make you grow and keep you small out of your life. trust yourself, but be ready to question yourself, too. fight. try to find beauty in the saddest and darkest moments. don’t be surprised of change, because it will happen. don’t live a life of bad compromises, go for the whole. don’t fear insecurity. be more brave than you actually are.

_____

Was am Ende

hi! this is alice & her piano. 

here you'll find music inspired by compassion - and its absence.


///

compassion hurts. when you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. and you cannot turn away.
your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. you must either learn to carry the universe or be crushed by it. you must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors. -andrew boyd

title picture by Jacob David

Was am Ende

Alice Baldwin