My first blatantly obvious Destiel song. Woot woot! :)
I wanna rerecord this and make it better at some point...

Lyrics:
Well you were going through hell, with no hand to hold.
You were tired, you were beaten, and you were feeling alone.
So you prayed to the God you were doubtful was there,
"Send me an angel, send me someone who cares."

Then he came along and pulled you out of that pit,
And he tried to tell you you were worth it.
But when he let you down, oh you put up that wall.
You couldn't trust an angel who was starting to fall.

Oh, you tried but you just couldn't help but let him in,
And you started to care as you taught him to sin.
But with all that freedom came the inevitable fall
Of the angel who just wanted to give you his all.

So you thought you had your angel, but he won't stick around,
And now you're lost once again, when you'd thought you'd been found.
And you cry to yourself when you're sure no one's there,
"What's wrong with my angel? I thought that he cared."

Oh, if only you could see that he wants to be
Where you are, and he loves you, too.
Yeah, he's just afraid that he'll mess up again,
And end up hurting you.

When he came back he asked if you were doing OK,
So you smiled and you lied and you hid your dismay.
But before he leaves again, you'll remember to say
That you miss your angel and you want him to stay.
Yeah, you love your dear angel, and you need him to stay.

Stay (A Destiel Tribute) 1

An original song about the fear of disappointing a loved one, inspired by Sam Winchester.

Of all the songs I hope to get done, this one's first on the list.

The Fear (Sample)

This one was based off the scene in Sacrifice when Crowley tells Sam that he just wants to be loved, and later asks how he can work toward earning forgiveness.
In real life, I figure this can apply to anyone who feels they have messed up their life and seeks redemption and love.

Lyrics:
I used to think I was a ruler, a god, a king. Thought I had it all.
But in due time my swollen pride got the best of me, and then came the fall.
And now I see so clearly, and there's so much that I regret.
It's kinda funny how I tremble now, when I used to be the king of threats.

I wish that I could make right all of the wrong I've done, but time waits for no one.
I long to find a way to change my cold and darkened heart, but I don't know where to start.

I just wanna be loved, but am I good enough?
After what I've become, is it too late?
I don't wanna miss out, so I'm turning around.
I just hope I can find forgiveness now.

It's no excuse in light of all that I've done wrong, but it could have been
The need for love and the desire to belong that inspired me to sin.
I became so desperate that it nearly made me go insane.
And in my search to fill that hole, I caused so much pain.
It became an evil game.

I wish that I could make right all of the wrong I've done, but time waits for no one.
I long to find a way to change my cold and darkened heart, but I don't know where to start.

I just wanna be loved, but am I good enough?
After what I've become, is it too late?
I don't wanna miss out, so I'm turning around.
I just hope I can find forgiveness now.

Now, I know that they say, "anyone can be saved",
But for me I can't help but feel like it's too late,
After what I have done and what I have become.
Yet I raise up my hands as I come undone.
'Cause I know it's been said, "love has already won", and

I just wanna be loved, but am I good enough?
After what I've become, is it too late?
I don't wanna miss out, so I'm turning around.
I just hope I can find forgiveness now.

I just wanna be loved.
I just wanna be loved.
I don't wanna miss out.
I just hope I can find forgiveness now.
I just wanna be loved. (repeat and fade)

I Just Wanna Be Loved

Another SPN song. (Spoilers for season 8 finale!!!)
Written from Castiel's POV, just after Metatron betrayed him.

Lyrics:
I always think that I am right, but now I know I was wrong tonight.
Why is it always far too late for me to fix my mistakes?
Well, I give up. I've had enough of my messed up mind and foolish trust.

Now I can't run, and I can't hide. I have to pay for my stubborn pride.
Maybe one day I will learn how to shine, and not burn.

My heart is always where it should be, but my mind's another story.
If I had stopped and thought this through, then maybe I'd have been there for you.

But I can't run, and I can't hide. I've gotta pay for my stubborn pride.
Maybe one day I will learn how to shine, and not burn.
The future looks so dark from here, and all my hope has disappeared.
And, though I know it was all my fault, I hope you'll break my fall.

My foolishness has left me burning. I wonder if you even care.
'Cause my mistakes have left you hurting, and, when you called, I wasn't there.
The last thing that I deserve is for you to take me back with open arms.
'Cause it was you who warned me first, that the path I chose would lead to harm.

But, if you could find it in you to forgive me for the things I do,
I promise that I'll heed your words, and, next time, I'll avoid the hurt.
But I know that, right now, I've got to wait this out.

No, I can't run, and I can't hide. I have to pay for my stubborn pride.
Maybe one day I will learn how to shine, not burn.
Shine and not burn.
Shine and not burn.
Shine and not burn.
Shine and not burn.

Burning

A re-recording of this Destiel song. :)

Lyrics:
Well you were going through hell, with no hand to hold.
You were tired, you were beaten, and you were feeling alone.
So you prayed to the God you were doubtful was there,
"Send me an angel, send me someone who cares."

Then he came along and pulled you out of that pit,
And he tried to tell you you were worth it.
But when he let you down, oh you put up that wall.
You couldn't trust an angel who was starting to fall.

Oh, you tried but you just couldn't help but let him in,
And you started to care as you taught him to sin.
But with all that freedom came the inevitable fall
Of the angel who just wanted to give you his all.

So you thought you had your angel, but he won't stick around,
And now you're lost once again, when you'd thought you'd been found.
And you cry to yourself when you're sure no one's there,
"What's wrong with my angel? I thought that he cared."

Oh, if only you could see that he wants to be
Where you are, and he loves you, too.
Yeah, he's just afraid that he'll mess up again,
And end up hurting you.

When he came back he asked if you were doing OK,
So you smiled and you lied and you hid your dismay.
But before he leaves again, you'll remember to say
That you miss your angel and you want him to stay.
Yeah, you love your dear angel, and you need him to stay.

Stay (A Destiel Tribute) 2

This is from Dean’s POV during A Very Supernatural Christmas. Sorry I don’t have something more positive to offer for what’s supposed to be a cheery season, but what could I do? It’s Supernatural.

Lyrics:

Holidays aren’t a thing that we do,
'Cause, with our life, we don't have time
To buy gifts and put ‘em under a tree.
Yeah, we’re too busy savin’ lives.

But this year just might be my last,
'Cause, Sam, you know I can't be freed.
So we’re gonna celebrate this holiday,
Because that’s what I think we need.

Merry Christmas, Sammy.
Don’t you cry this Silent Night.
Don’t worry, little brother,
It’s gonna be alright.

I know you can’t help but think about
The fact that, soon, I’ll be gone.
So let’s get a tree and forget what’s to come,
And maybe learn some Christmas songs.

And, Sam, just let me say: This time next year,
You better go out and have a good time.
Get some drinks and maybe get yourself a girl,
To keep my fate off of your mind.

Merry Christmas, Sammy.
Don’t you cry this Silent Night.
Don’t worry, little brother,
It’s gonna be alright.

Merry Christmas, Sammy.
Let’s pretend that we’re just fine.
When I’m gone, little brother,
You’re gonna be alright.
You’re gonna be alright.

You’re gonna be alright.
You’re gonna be alright.

Merry Christmas, Sammy.

Merry Christmas, Sammy

"I'm not really with the whole, uh, love, and... love." - Dean Winchester (9x02)

I really don't even know why I decided to do this but I needed another cheesy Destiel song in my life, so. This happened.

I messed up some of the chords and lyrics, but, eh. This is just a demo. I'll record it again later.

Lyrics:
I've always hated sentiment, don't want a chick flick moment, like saying "I love you"
Even when it's true, it's something I just cannot do

You and I have become "we", and I know you love me, 'cause you tell me all the freakin'  time
If I could, I'd find, a way to tell you, too, but I...

I don't know what else to say
Cas don't look at me that way
It only makes me want to tell you that I…
…I can't say

'Cause I'm not really good with romance, baby, all I know is that you drive me crazy, but I'm
Not really with the whole, uh, love, and… love… yeah, love
You can try to get me to admit it, but you know I'm gonna keep it hidden 'cause I'm
Not really with the whole, uh, love, and… love… yeah, love

Don't take it personally, 'cause I can't even tell Sammy that I care
No, I can't bear the way those stupid words fill the air

I said before that I needed you, and it's so true, I hope you understand
That where you stand, I wanna be there holding your hand… wait, I mean, uh…

I don't know what else to say
Cas don't look at me that way
It only makes me want to tell you that I…
…I can't say

I'm not really good with romance, baby, all I know is that you drive me crazy, but I'm
Not really with the whole, uh, love, and… love… yeah, love
You can try to get me to admit it, but you know I'm gonna keep it hidden 'cause I'm
Not really with the whole, uh, love, and… love… yeah, love

It's so damn hard for me to say
But when you look at me that way
It really makes me want to tell you that I…
I'm gonna say...

I'm not really good with romance, baby, all I know is that you drive me crazy, and I
Think that maybe I have fallen in love… yeah, love
For the longest time I couldn't admit it, but it's too damn hard to keep it hidden 'cause I
Think that maybe I have fallen in love… yeah, love

Yeah, I'm not really good with romance, baby, all I know is that you drive me crazy, and I
Think that maybe I have fallen in love… yeah, love
For the longest time I couldn't admit it, but it's too damn hard to keep it hidden 'cause I
Think that maybe I have fallen in love… yeah, love
I'm in love

I Can't Say (Love And Love) (Demo)

I don't know if I'll ever update again, but this is my fan-song account. I might re-do a few of the songs on here, once I begin transitioning and my voice changes to better align with my gender identity (yes, hello, I'm a nonbinary trans male, please use they/them or he/him pronouns in reference to me). I'm no longer in the SPN fandom, so don't expect any more Destiel songs outta me.

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