In “You See the Meds I Need (Remix) v4.5”, I open the doors to pain, resilience, and redemption. Against a haunting piano foundation layered with violin textures, deep bass, and atmospheric synth washes, this track walks the line between vulnerability and lyrical power. The drums hit with crisp precision every snare snap and hi-hat roll reinforcing the urgency in my voice.

From the opening line:

“You see the meds I need, but not the tears I hide,
I’m sixty and still tryna feel alive.”

I bleed into every verse, speaking on physical breakdowns, mental battles, and the raw weight of survival. The lyrics confront mortality, depression, and duty but also touch on purpose, love, and art as resistance. My kids become anchors, the spark inside me refuses extinction, and each verse is drawn with surgical precision 

This version (v4.5) refines prior remixes tightening the transitions, enhancing the contrast between introspective low points and triumphant crescendos. The goal? To not just move you, but to stay with you.

Why it resonates:

It captures Juice WRLD’s emotional openness but merges it with spoken-word clarity.

The instrumentation is cinematic and minimal so space remains for the vocal to dominate.

It’s not a party track: this is a song for the soul, for the night, for healing.

Call to action:
“Dive in. Share with someone who needs to hear this. Let’s heal together.”

You See the Meds I Need (Remix)

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Stop caring bout my health
Quit faking all you've felt
We're not special I've been dealt
Too many cards to hold as well

Fuck off and burn in hell
Beat my face into the ground
I'm still waiting for the sound
Of bullets exiting your mouth

Bite the curb and sleep well
Fight hard like you've felt
All the pain on her shelf
I don't fucking know half

bite the curb and sleep well

tryna catch me prolly find me in my feelings (｡•́︿•̀｡)

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in my feelings w/ little pain (prod. savior)

Prod.
@4evrgone
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Art.
twitter.com/disintegr8tion
www.instagram.com/filthy.hands/

Highschool (Prod. 4evr)

ft. 
https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin
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prod. 
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
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art.
https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN

just a memory ft. lil zubin (prod. nedarb)

game of fate (prod. nick mira)

pretty thing (prod. 4evr)

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good

or am I wasting my time
thinking you might come back 
and make this right
tasting blood when I bite down
miss you so much right now
wish I didn't find out 
all the shit you did
all of our promises are you heartless
I find solace in memories against the truth
me and you we weren't meant to be
god damn I wish the memory would leave

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good
(jon)
about to take it all
just too far now
show the whole world who you are now
I remember how you raised the bar now
with all that hate laying in your heart now
I let you get close to me
you're not what you're supposed to be
wish you never noticed me
are you gone for good or am I

heaven didn't seem so far (feat. jon simmons)[prod. BlingBlou]

TAKE MY CHAIN Ft. LIL LOTUS & COLD HART (Prod. YAWNS)

@smrtdeath - "you could bust out my heart if you want to" is the 21st track on “SOUND BITES,” a limited-edition CD compilation released with Blackhouse Records on December 17th, 2018 in support of the RAINN Foundation, a non-profit which carries out programs to prevent sexual violence, help survivors, and ensure that perpetrators are brought to justice

Limited to only 250 copies available, this CD compilation features 26 previously unreleased songs from some vital and prolific underground artists.

100% of the proceeds from CD sales will be donated to RAINN. Limited copies still available at: https://blackhouseinc.storenvy.com/products/25203801-underground-underdogs-sound-bites-cd-a-benefit-compilation-for-rainn

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smrtdeath - you could bust out my heart if you want to (prod. yung flex)

day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
it all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist

all I have left is in my head
a blank space with your name in it
wish you would have stayed but I understand
went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
pulled out the oages inside my head
felt what it means to see everything and
every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
but everythings hopeless and its not so bad
add another slash and run it back screaming

Day 38 cant make it
counting scars like marks in the pavement
all the love in me turned to hatred
and beautiful things bring pain when
they're gone like we all will be
wish I could kill my fucking feelings
stuck in this hell scratched your name in the ceiling
starting to think that this is really how it ends
been 6 months since I've seen you
hope you're doing good yea me too
things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
then 10 years came and went so quick
your first love's gone and got 3 kids
it took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this

game of fate (prod. nick mira)

all i know is pain