Hallelujah by Shana Wilson

A recording of I Won't Go Back, originally performed by William McDowell, from our studio work in May 2014. 

We do not own this song. All rights to the original composers and performers.

I Won't Go Back

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“Back When Love Was Mine” is a soulful jazz-blues ballad about a woman reflecting on a past love that once defined her world. Through vivid memories of tender nights, bittersweet promises, and emotional loss, she realizes her own strength and resilience. The song moves from longing and heartbreak to acceptance and self-discovery. Supported by rich harmonies and gospel-style backing vocals, the narrative celebrates emotional growth — turning the pain of lost love into empowerment and peace. The final saxophone solo symbolizes release, echoing her transformation from sorrow to soulful freedom.


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Lyrics – “Back When Love Was Mine”

Mmm… those nights still whisper low,
Crimson wine and candle glow.
I can see your face through the smoke,
Every word you said still spoke.

You held me close like time would bend,
Said our hearts would never end.
But honey, even stars burn out,
Now I know what love’s about.
I walk that line between pain and grace,
With your memory in my embrace.

It hurt to lose you, but I found my way,
No storm can wash my blues away.

Back when love was mine, I was blind to the signs,
Chasing shadows through the wine-stained nights.
Now I sing alone, but I sing just fine,
‘Cause I found my soul in the afterlight.

Your touch was gold, your words were smooth,
We danced in lies we thought were truth.
I lost myself in your sweet tune,
Now I rise beneath a different moon.
Got my fire back, my heart untied,
Ain’t no tears left unsupplied.

I still keep that letter in a drawer,
Don’t read it much, not anymore.
Your scent, your voice, your careless grin,
They fade, but peace walks in.
The hurt once heavy now feels light,
I learned to love my own good night.

Ooooh—let it go, let it shine!
I ain’t broken, I’m refined,
Every scar a song of mine.
I don’t need your alibi,
No more tears to testify.

Back when love was mine… (oh love was mine)
I was chasing dreams that weren’t divine.
Now I walk free, sun in my spine,
And my blues, they sound like joy this time.

Mmm… back when love was mine…
I’m stronger now, and that’s just fine.
(Oh, back when love was mine…)

🎷 (Extended saxophone solo)

© 2025 Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. All rights reserved.  
Lyrics and concept by Martin Oliver Beinersdorf. Do not reproduce, distribute, or adapt without explicit permission.

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