*lyrics*

I know that you're never coming back home
I know that you see me from the crossroad

Tell me baby does our love even have hope
Do I leave you all alone stop blowing up your phone every weekend
Girl i've been thinking bout getting you alone in my seat and ima lay you down
Get your skin on my skin, 
Ima lay you down make your little head spin
When you undress all i do is stare those little green eyes i dont ever want to share

Come back to bed i promise no ones cares grabbin on your ass while i pull your hair

Stars in the night open up so clearly i can through your eyes
Dont you know that i want you do i have to remind you that your always on my lonely mind

Quit looking at me that way tell me to go or i might stay
Here for a while
Spend the night 
Im getting drunk
Gas you up
Tell me keep it on the low til you've had enough

I've been feeling in the way swappin spit i dont know what to say
Tell your friends im into you that i'll curve every hoe just to get at you
Check your @'s did I even mention you without you what would I do.

lil green eyes

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

prod. @notmorgn

its been a minute
still no closure
she in my bed no clothes
but im colder
remember 2010
now im much older
remember feeling fine
those days are way over

20 degrees 
30 mph breeze
freezin up my chest
everytime im tryna breathe
why the east so cold like this?
im dead by the way 
don’t need condolences 

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live
chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i want the push start
i want the bag gotta be goyard
everybody gonna notice 
that i go hard
she got a G string
i ain’t talkin mozart
top off
i ain’t talkin go karts
gotta up my prices
ain’t nobody like this
spent the whole day sleepin
and i dont work a night shift
fuck a 9 to 5 
i don’t fit in that box bitch
song take a couple hours 
but it come out timeless

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i was really struggling 
to save my own life
til’ i started typing words 
spent a check on a mic
i really could’ve 
stayed that night
but my perspective all changed 
since all we did was fight

(slowed)

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

chipped black nails

@prodreaper
@guccihighwaters

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
kiss me in the rain or leave me at the front door
tell me you despise me tell me that you need more
tell me i'm a freak, tell me i'm insecure, mi amor mi amor

if i wanna dance with the devil i can ask
why you lock your phone baby tell me what is that
if you got an issue then you know i got your back
if he wants to meet you can say just, that

it won't come to floracion
i know that you kissed him i know that he put you down
he can find, someone else, he can throw, around

[chorus]
ash out on some cardboard
sour lips, wide hips, fall in love with your contour
mi amor, mi amor

[verse]
indecisive leaning on the vices i don't like advice, i just flip the light switch
sleep it off, overslept got missed calls, 
do not disturb on my phone got sick thoughts,

 mi amor, i wanna love you till my hearts sore, 
i was drowning in emotions, when i met you i really stopped choking
 but you deserve the world, i really mean that
i don't have it all, i know that you can see that,
 allot of things to explore, but i just want you behind this closed door

mi amor w/ guccihighwaters (prod.reaper)

featuring wicca phase springs eternal
produced and engineered by døves
album image by nickie

looks ft. wicca phase springs eternal

spotify

scraped my knee on the drywall w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0rSUgkAOas
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0rSUgkAOas

mixed by atl smook

cry now (prod. satorigold) VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

im good at being lonely cant u tell

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

Engineered/Mixed/Mastered by Jake Clarke
Artwork by Peter Maria

Cassettes and zines now available at darkmedicine.limitedrun.com

River of Blood (prod. foxwedding)

Produced by @williamvanzandt 
Additional Production by Blake Slatkin

//

#SCFirst

Love Me // Leave Me

Leave Me

Produced by Nedarb
Mixed by Nick Colletti
Art by Casey Valentine

@jon_simmons
@fantasycamp
@lilzubin
@nedarbnagrom
@_caseyvalentine

Jon Simmons, Fantasy Camp, Zubin - Obsession (prod. nedarb)

Produced by wtchcrft.
Mixed and mastered by Jake Clarke.

@fantasycamp
@wiccaphasespringseternal
@wtchcrft2

housewarming party w/ wicca phase springs eternal (wtchcrft)

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

featuring @d1vv
produced by @discent & @hxrxkiller

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her

[Verse: d1v]
You ask me all these questions
Why you stressing?
When you broke my heart I learned my lesson
I be on some new shit the drugs help me up
You said it was your friend I don't really think it was
You said it was your friend I don't really think it was
I just wanna go I don't wanna feel this fucked
Look at my face I don't know what to say
Killing myself if I saw you today
All of these times when you fucked up my brain
All of these times when you said you afraid
Now I'm by my own
And I say leave me alone
I don't think you noticed it
But I don't wanna know
Cause I don't wanna know who you with
Cause I don't wanna know who he is

[Hook: heroine diaries]
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her
Heartbreaker
She a faker
I forgot her name yeah she a traitor
On my own now
I think it’s safer
Left my heart broken now I hate her

it's hard to see when all i do is cry (feat. d1v) (prod. discent & hxrxkiller)

Knife (prod. foxwedding)

(LYRICS)   ft @hammy     prod. @droozzzy
ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling
laying on the floor and the walls r moving closer

writing these songs just to get it out
i can see my own life and its fading now

      
I can see my own life and it's fading
I can see my own life and it's

life keeps fading 
mind is always racing
out in public 
hide my face 
like im Jason 
got the razor on me
if you hating
got my team around me
we just hanging

we just posted 
smoking potent
my hands are shaking 
I hope she doesn't notice 
I hate my mindset
it's hard to focus
when everything fucking seems so hopeless 

I don't want friends
I just want the end
I just wanna rest 
spend the day in bed 
I'll lay here till I'm dead
can't get out my head 
It's cause I'm trapped inside
It's such a lonely night

I live a lonely life
half the fucking time 
I don't feel alive
I know it's not alright
but I don't have the drive
to do anything
motivation inside 
keeps withering


ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling

SPOTIFY

used to it +hamilton (prod. droozy)

https://darkmedicine.com/collections/misery-club

mixed/mastered/engineered by Jacob Clarke

art by Andy Norton

Breakthrough (prod. Foxwedding)

ft. @ihateshinigami & @youngburial
guitars: @93feetofsmoke & @youngburial
prod & mix @93feetofsmoke
master @youngburial

- shini - 
Jollyranchers in my mouth
now she fell in love with me
give me sugar baby
you're so sweet 
i want you here with me
kiss me on the cheek
so I know you're coming home with me
blunts in the cadillac, imma get that money back
feel like FM fuck everybody run it back
wait wait wait wait run it back
casting magic on the track
you don't understand 
you don't get it
you not with the shits
smoke a backwood then i dip
datasquad we run this shit

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

- 93 -
I been taking so much acid
I don’t fit in 
Hit my juul so much
I never really feel it
Every pods
Another labyrinth
I’ve been locked in 
Soul in gauntlet 
Imma run this every season 

Nevermind 
I’m way too high 
To even link up 
Fuck my life
Air Force muddy
Needa clean them 
Watch your mouth 
Tell my teeth 
Before I brush them 
From the south
But I’m burned out
On the lean ya 

I see fiends 
Nah
I don’t fuck with your team
Bruh 
FUKK IM CLEAN ur a stain
And blood is bleach 
Yup
Marble counters
I’ve been working 
OCD
Huh
cut off quick
So it’s less painful to bleed out 

I got digiracks encrypted in my 6s
wonder why I’m so stressed
Giving skin and gaining pavement
Losing patience 
3am I’m faded
guess I’m chasing 
Sunlight from the basement 

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked

Sic

amandashernam