I’m still in love with you. 

We haven’t exchanged thoughts in…a while. Feels like days have escalated into years it seems. Even though you probably won’t see or hear this…how are you? Are you well? Have you met someone who’s soul matches yours?

I just woke up from one of those “real” dreams just now. Y’know the ones that almost feel like they happened in real life? The ones so vivid, your brain confuses it as a memory of some sort. Yeah, one of those dreams. It was one of those dreams you wake up from and think “Damn…but it felt so real!” …I hate those dreams. But I can’t help but love them too. 

Also, I… don’t think I’ve ever seen myself that happy before….it was actually quite the awkward experience. Then again, maybe it was just weird seeing us together.  Waking up, my heart has never felt so fragile and strong at the same time… it was interesting to dwell upon so I made this song to remember the feeling.

I remember reading that you can only know how much you truly love someone until they’re gone. It makes more and more sense now that I think about it. 

To me, falling in love is a lot like falling into a crack in the earth. As soon as you fall, you freak out but… at the same time you accept it. Before you know it, you’ve reached the bottom. It felt like you were gonna die but, surprisingly you survived. 

When you look up, theres a fine line of light representing who you used to be. Do you choose to stay? Or attempt at climbing back up?

Choosing the latter never felt so bittersweet. 
I hope your doing well, in my dreams we may meet. 
…maybe please. 

Goodnight.


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I’m still in love with you

"Can we stay like this forever?"

It was the last thing you said before I woke up, in tears. I hate when that happens. I wasn't sad at all, just a little irked. I dunno the correct word to explain it, but it's that "Fuck, are you kidding me right now?" feeling. Of all nights, you chose to appear tonight... I guess it's good to have a taste of feels every so now and then. 

I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about you. It happens occasionally, mostly when I take naps. Sometimes you show up, sometimes you don't. But the times you do appear in my dreams, we're always just...chilling. Like at a coffee shop or on public transit. In this dream, we were on the last train home and no one was there except us. Your head was on my shoulder and that's when you said it.... then I woke up, had a cigarette and recorded this song. 

You'll never hear this song. At least, I hope you don't. Hmm...maybe I'm lying to myself though... maybe I want you to hear it.... but it's not like I want things to be the way they were or something. It's just...part of me feels like holding on to that little piece of memory I have of us...that's all. I guess my heart wanted to open up again for some reason. I'm thankful for that at least. You always said to do what feels right even if you're nervous. 

Wherever you may be...I hope you're well and you're doing what you love. I hope you're with someone who takes care of you and loves you unconditionally. I hope your dreams come true and that you're waking up every morning with a smile.

For now, I'll keep dreaming.
It's a lot better than waking up.


Can we stay like this forever?

May I have this dance?

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Never Far Away

an ethereal dance of celebration, Ambient World is music for movement and meditation. Feel the pulse of the earth, feel the pulse of your heartbeat and let the energy of the music bring them together in harmony.

credits

debbie danbrook - shakuhachi flute & voice

brian hughes - guitars, oud & bouzouki

tim landers - fretless bass

neal wilkinson - drums & percussion

steve raiman - darbuka programming

celina carroll - percussion
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All my music is spontaneously composed and live registered.
No edits, No refinements, No mastering! .... Just the joy of playing the Piano! 

Enjoy and please don't forget to write down your feedback! ;)

Shining Star

Andrei V.

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