I’d Rather Overdose

I’d Rather Overdose (feat. Z)

Named SoundCloud’s May Ascending Artist, honestav is quickly cementing his place as one of the most exciting emerging voices in music. The Ascending program, built to spotlight artists on the brink of breakthrough, shines a well-deserved light on his rising momentum.

Fresh off the release of his debut album hara-kiri, honestav came by and blessed us with a live rendition of his latest single, “Livin’ Wrong,” for “The Booth” — SoundCloud’s newest live performance series — filmed in our NYC studio. Hit play and vibe out ~

Recorded live at the SoundCloud office in NYC – April 30, 2025 
Produced by: J Kash https://www.instagram.com/jkash/ 
Recording, Mixing & Mastering: Dom Martin https://soundcloud.com/soydommartin 
Visuals: Steve Muelz https://www.instagram.com/stevemuelz/?hl=en 


HONESTAV - LIVIN’ WRONG | THE BOOTH

this is about my girlfriend at the time terminating pregnancy with out even considering me or my feelings . Had I been able to at least voice them and she made same decision id probably feel differently and been able to support her decicision regardless 

Uncontrollable pain

Man's Life was changed when drunk driver crashed them into a tree at 80 miles an hour now leaving him disabled and with resentment towards  the driver he must find peace in his existence 

Peaced

Grand master gramps

Shining Star feat 《aero》

My Kids v1-2

about when a local community's main source of economical gain is eliminated and the Damage that is done

Shadows of the Rust Belt.

Timeless Flame feat. 《Freyan》

No Handle

Alright  intrusive mothah fuckah, ima tell ya how it really is believe it or not this is how it is and that's just that.... yeah I'm alright thanks for asking now time to stop shit talking all lies about me, It's okay, don't worry, no not about me, 
Why worry when all you do is try drown me, 
It’s okay, don't worry about me I’m feeling fine,  
Don’t worry ‘bout me  you worry ‘bout your own time.  Worry about yourself and what's going on in your mind, don't take up my time with bullshit and hurtful lines 
If you ask me, I’m doing alright,  
I know I sleep better on the ice, don’t I?
I worry ‘bout shit that don’t make sense,  
You really think I'm Up to all kinds of nonsense.  When I'm just grinding honestly...  the problem starts at home,  you think I'm done think I can't do any right in your eyesight, bet if you took of your sunglasses you'd really fucking see me and how fluorescent my light is how bright I shine just by me believing in me! 
And if  you don't know fine, right  focus on the older 1 hes the one who losing he lost everything that meant anything, I'm not forcing on that cuz I've enough shit to spread me wide. 
The younger one’, well that's me... ima tell ye that he's doing alright,  
Making money for himself, putting up a fight.  
Surrounded by negativity, tryna pull him down,  
But he ain’t gonna let this pull him down.  
He’s grown up, got kids, got a car, got a family,  
Separated from the mother  sadly.  
Nothing you can do when the bridges are burned,  
Maybe for the best, lessons learned.  
i thought I understood how the world turns,  
Until I stepped outside — realised it’s the Matrix.  We're all Sims ina game but who's the mother fucker that thinks it's funny playing playing playing with our emotions and goals????? 
When you do things for yourself,  
Ain’t nobody else gonna do it,  
Only blood, sweat, tears — prove it.  
People call me crazy, people call me paranoid,  fuck I'm sorry for laughing 
But I feel it deep inside me 
So how could it be anything else but void?  
I don’t think these things for nothing,  
I don’t feel these things for nothing.  
Everybody says it’s my issue,  
I’m the problem.  
How am I the problem if I’m chasing the solution?  
I don’t like feeling this way,  
It’s just pollution.  

Like our drink water in a toxic lock, fully plugged with green blue algae,  microdose in my blood flow, drops most people 
Shit in my head tryna drown me.  
But I got my life jacket on, my boat still floats row with my oar 
Ain’t nothing you can say to get me down anymore.  



I can do things on my own,  
Bars at 11 bars at three, don't make a difference what times due, creativity 
Only thing I need now’s a roof overhead,  
A place to call my own.  

My kids adore me, I adore them,  
Nothing I wouldn’t do,  
I’d go to the world’s end.  
Protect them, save them, do anything for them,  
If they call my name  I’ll be there without hesitation.  

I know that. Everybody knows that.  
If you don’t, it don’t make a difference to me.  
You are you, I am me,  
I’m daddy.  



I’m the man that has to work,  
Hold emotions in, grind through dirt.  
Do it all on my own,  
‘Cause nobody else understands me.  

Cousins get me, outside family get me,  
But under one roof, it’s only me.  
They say I’m the issue, say I take advantage,  
But how can I take advantage  
Of something offered by a parent —  
A giver by nature?  

Mothers give, fathers provide,  
I feel out of place but I ain’t taking sides.  
They can do what they want, think what they like,  
I’ll do what I want ‘cause I know it’s right.  



I’ll do what I want for myself,  
I’ll do what I want to better my life.  
Nothing they can do or say  
Gonna drag me down in the dirt,  
Nothing they can do or say  
Gonna get me hurt.  

Only one who can let me down is me,  
And I ain’t gonna let that happen.  
I’ll keep working, grinding,  
Do something spectacular —  
Do something never done in this family.  

I’ma make history,  
For me and my girls — gladly.


intrusive mothah fuckah

I write lyrics when I feel inclined then I use AI to bring my idea to life. 
Private Message Me if you would be interested in a Collab! 💯✅🙏190k+ thank you for the mind-blowing digital formations the numbers I'm stuck on can't keep staring in to the digits wheey Nono save that for another time. . , how the plants doing how they doing, this weekend grow turned in the space of few pleasure months, woaw . well, right now,  a decision to make, very important must say. 



THANK YOU, EVERYONE, THATS EVERYONE WHO BATHED ME GAVE A ROOF OF NY HEAD WHEN OTHERS KEFT ME FOR DEAD, WAS SUPPOSED TO MENTION IT BUT I SAID IT CANT REWIND IT MAYBE THEYLWHO GAVE ME THAT TIME OF YOUR PERSONAL DAY! 🤘 APPRECIATE YOU! 


 

No Handle

(Andrew G Holden)

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