Jealous (Jerk Remix)

icanseealight
#darkbeautycastle
cover art by @camdenn
produced by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/6ARX70VjykRAt2GEHoOiWx?si=a70e1602a77a4ff2


@atractixn
yea im posted up u catch me in da citadel
he tried 2 fw me I told dat boy 2 go to hell
feel like ferra and tor cuz I hit em wit my X-ray
nd yall rlly fw me cause Raynen is the next thing
nd you could nvr bother me im in my room playin skate 3
angel wings on my back yea u cld nvr escape me
its funny how u play'd me
but u cld never hate me
nd im like wtf

I cant keep waiting much longer
ik that i want her
she made stronger
yuh so I flaunt her
I see my flesh is decayin
I think im insane
she call my phone like "hey Raynen"
yuh what u sayin?
I told her quit playin
but I want her
and I want her
and I want her

I think its kinda funny gtfo of my face
swore I was losin somethin but it was jus a phase
I spent years of my life wit u just tryna be okay
now im gettin real love n Ik urs was not the same
im shootin shit like The Last of Us
u copy shit after us
n now I feel bad for yah
like bitch u just sad 4 what?
but I won't stop until im dead
I didn't hear 1 word u said
ill lay here cryin in bed
and just think 2 myself that im jus better off dead

something is different

Damn I fucked it up again
Damn I fucked it up again
I cant get you out my head 
I’d kill my self to be something
Yeah just to be something
Yeah just to be something 
I’d kill my self to be something
 I fucked somehow I fucked it 
Yeah im fading to nothin
Im fading to nothin 
You won’t remember me someday
 I fuckin hate that im loving
 I fuckin hate that im lo-
 I fuckin hate that im lo-
 I fuckin hate that im lo- 
I fuckin hate that im loving 
Kill me now kill me slow
 And Ill be dead on the floor
 Take my life, take it all 
Tonight I’m not coming home

seventeen

seventeen (mtsss)

Fuck da fame

rain rain rain rain
@raaynen:
I really thought I was someone right off the fucking rip
You really thought I could hate you but I don't give a shit (headshot)
You told me you love me I know you never did
I don't regret a thing I did 'cause I meant what I said
I'm pouring up a double cup I'm not a lucki fan (fetch me their souls)
I gotta watch the things I say cause ya'll some fuckin feds (insta kill)
I don't know when I go up but I know I fuckin can
I let emotions control me 'cause I'm a lover man

And it's like yeah I really hate you
Like did you notice?
I don't know what I'm doing wrong cause here at my-
Lois? Loiss? Lois you in the bathroom?

I really thought I was someone right off the fucking rip
You really thought I could hate you but I don't give a shit
You told me you love me I know you never did
I don't regret a thing I did 'cause I meant what I said
I'm pouring up a double cup I'm not a lucki fan 
I gotta watch the things I say cause ya'll some fuckin feds
I don't know when I go up but I know I fuckin can
I let emotions control me 'cause I'm a lover man

And shoutout r3 you put me where I am
I know exactly who I am because of all my friends
I thought I'd never find myself rapping for fuckin fans
I can't control the things I say it's all out of my hands

You'll have better luck next time, you really fucked up
Look me in my eyes so I can tell you that I love ya
So-Cali baby, that's exactly where I come from
You don't know what you're saying I suggest you shut the fuck up
I never thought I'd be someone but I'm the fucking shit
And I'm the only motherfucker that's gonna represent
You start the music shit and lose exactly who you is
But I've been wanting to do this since such a little kid

I really thought I was someone right off the fucking rip
You really thought I could hate you but I don't give a shit
You told me you love me I know you never did
I don't regret a thing I did 'cause I meant what I said
I'm pouring up a double cup I'm not a lucki fan
I gotta watch the things I say cause ya'll some fuckin feds 
I don't know when I go up but I know I fuckin can
I let emotions control me 'cause I'm a lover man

you never did

more than ever jerk slower

@elseen
@hdbn2


@raaynen:
I'm sorry but you're too late
I don't know what I'm thinking
But you we're supposed to be here yesterday
They try to tell me that I'm two faced
It's showing tails on the coin that decides your fate
Now tell me baby is it over
I picked the petals off a four leaf clover
I shut my eyes, I've been waiting for the closer
I'm hungover, looking for my closure

I feel my life is getting sadder
I don't matter
I feel like an actor
And maybe making music is a factor
I tell the people be themselves, but being Raynen's what I'm after
I hear the laughter
Feels like I'm hanging from the rafters
A knee slapper
Cause I'm a paid actor
I'm not a rapper
I'm just a cog in the machine of everything that matters

But don't tell me what I can't do
I do it better
The sky is gray and pouring rain
I hate the summer weather
I like the cold better
It reminds me of a time when I was someone better
When I was a beginner
When my eyes didn't feel fraudulent
And it was pouring at the movies in your cardigan
You wanna change the whole world?
Tell me what's your favorite part of it
If I had to guess your answer, it's exactly what you started with

Tell me am I a fool
For even believing in you
I gotta be something new
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I can't keep counting on you
I found myself how about you?

I'm sorry but you're too late
I don't know what I'm thinking
But you we're supposed to be here yesterday
They try to tell me that I'm two faced
It's showing tails on the coin that decides your fate
Now tell me baby is it over
I picked the petals off a four leaf clover
I shut my eyes, I've been waiting for the closer
I'm hungover, looking for my closure

I feel my life is getting sadder
I don't matter
I feel like an actor
And maybe making music is a factor
I tell the people be themselves, but being Raynen's what I'm after
I hear the laughter
Feels like I'm hanging from the rafters
A knee slapper
Cause I'm a paid actor
I'm not a rapper
I'm just a cog in the machine of everything that matters

But don't tell me what I can't do
I do it better
The sky is gray and pouring rain
I hate the summer weather
I like the cold better
It reminds me of a time when I was someone better
When I was a beginner
When my eyes didn't feel fraudulent
And it was pouring at the movies in your cardigan
You wanna change the whole world?
Tell me what's your favorite part of it
If I had to guess your answer, it's exactly what you started with

paid actor (elseen + takecare04)

@sanriorose

@raaynen:
stop calling me i’m just tryna make my songs
V6 in the whip you tryna catch me im gone
Look at me now with the swag i put on
And if i were to die i’d have my truey jeans on
you told me you can’t take anymore
and i watched you just walk out the door
and you left me to rot to the core
what’s wrong with me? i don’t know im so pissed off
my bros gone, telling me to move on
but i’ll stay calm while you tell me im wrong
but i know its not over
there’s not one day im sober
i want to get closer
how would approach her
how would i get closer
to show her that i love her

like can you tell me where im trying to go
you’d think that i would know that it’s not possible
im tryna give my world a vision im just tryna grow
but be careful what you do make sure you’re house is a home
sometimes you’re better alone even when there’s nowhere to go
get your life on track or you’ll be miserable
and it sounds so sad i’m looking out for yall
cause i don’t know who’d have my back if i need someone to call

you told me you can’t take anymore
and i watched you just walk out the door
i close my eyes i think i’ve been here before
and you left me to rot to the core
and i don’t think im gonna make it
i watch em roll another blunt i think they laced it
my hearts racing, im still gonna face it
they always leave it up to me so then i cave in

stop calling me i’m just tryna make my songs
V6 in the whip you tryna catch me im gone
Look at me now with the swag i put on
And if i were to die i’d have my truey jeans on
you told me you can’t take anymore
and i watched you just walk out the door
and you left me to rot to the core
what’s wrong with me? i don’t know im so pissed off
my bros gone, telling me to move on
but i’ll stay calm while you tell me im wrong
but i know its not over
there’s not one day im sober
i want to get closer
how would approach her
how would i get closer
to show her that i love her

rot to the core (d0llywood1)

@prodpitfall

https://poemuseum.org/the-tell-tale-heart/

@raaynen:
i guess you thought i wouldn’t notice you
i close my eyes and i lay next to you
you could ask a simple question i won’t tell the truth
i hear you crying baby don’t make a sound
we walking down a silent hill to my house
sneak up behind you cause i’m quite as a mouse
it’s a blood soaked floor and it came from my mouth
i’m not somebody to believe in
if you asked i wouldn’t even give a reason 
i see your body and it’s photographed
and i don’t think i was supposed to laugh
but i just knew that it would never last
i remember you would mock me in the back of class
but i can’t even take it anymore
i can hear your heart beat through the floor right after that

you said i’ll know when it’s go time
but baby i’m no one
this life shit is no fun
cock the bullets in my gun
i can’t pull it it’s so hard
to forget what you’ve done

i guess you thought i wouldn’t notice you
i close my eyes and i lay next to you
you could ask a simple question i won’t tell the truth
i hear you crying baby don’t make a sound
we walking down a silent hill to my house
sneak up behind you cause i’m quite as a mouse
it’s a blood soaked floor and it came from my mouth
i’m not somebody to believe in
if you asked i wouldn’t even give a reason 
i see your body and it’s photographed
and i don’t think i was supposed to laugh
but i just knew that it would never last
i remember you would mock me in the back of class
but i can’t even take it anymore
i can hear your heart beat through the floor right after that

doit anymore (prod. legos)

aDayo