51_666 …Devilishly Good! - released on 25 August 2023

Damn cool that you have put up with me for so long. 666 followers on Music Maker JAM. Devilishly good! #germanquality #darkwave #deephouse #guitar #pop #trance

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666 …Devilishly Good!

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of 'Last Call')

Greetings my SC friends. It’s been a strange few months, and I am excited to be back. But I have a feeling it’s not going to look like it did… at least for the near future. I’m having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. And while the musical energy is flowing better than ever, my ability to write satisfying liner notes is feeling a little clogged (this will be my 6th attempt at this write-up). 

As much as I regret it, the write-ups may need to stay on hold for a while longer. But first, I wanted to share what happened (in the form of a write-up. Lol). 

For starters, it’s important to mention I’ve been an alcoholic since I was 15 (a 40 year relationship). And although I genuinely loved what a nice beer buzz did for my noisy mind, I also knew what toxic alcoholism looked like (from many examples in my extended family). So I knew I had my work cut out for me, if I wanted to overcome my genetic dependancy. 

Granted, I also have a ‘responsibility’ vein that runs deep. I did my best to prioritize my family and responsibilities first (‘don’t drink til 5:00. Don’t drink if ya have to drive’ kinda stuff), and I considered myself a ‘functioning alcoholic’. Truthfully, I was never ashamed of my drinking. As a teenager, the ability to not give a shit that I found in a beer buzz honestly saved my life. And it allowed me to unplug from the noise for many decades after that.

But I wanted to do better than that, so I started making changes quite a while ago. Here’s a brief summary of how that unfolded:

1. Back in 2006 I concluded my negative headspace was the root of the problem (perspective is huge); so I altered my daily routines, knowing it would take years to undo the lifetime of programming that caused that thinking in the first place. I started consuming info that was positive and hopeful and loving (and avoided negative info like my life depended on it… which it did). And I did that intensively for the next 15 years.

2. But by January of 2023, I realized the beer buzz no longer quieted the noise and ugliness happening in the world (it all went too chaotic too fast). So if the crutch wasn't helpful, it needed to go. That’s when I tried Tai Chi (to give my mind something else to focus on). And it worked brilliantly.

3. Over the next 6 months, thanks to the calmer headspace created by Tai Chi, I cut my drinking tremendously (and for perspective, we’re talking 9-18 Natties daily… down to 3-6 Natties daily). The surprise outcome… the fog in my mind was clearing for the first time, and I was not prepared for sober adult Justin (man is my brain chattery when left to it’s own devices). So at the beginning of August 2023, I decided to take my Social Media break. That was more timely than I could have imagined, because…

4. On August 26th I was given the gift of Pancreatitis (the disease that lets you know ‘Wow, Dude. You drink way too much’). I went to the Emergency room with terrible intestinal pain, and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days. Long story short, I left the hospital sober, and have been that way ever since. And I’m genuinely happy about that… because thankfully, I did a great job preparing for that day.

So in a nutshell... I am back. But the writings may have to wait a while longer (at least until I figure out how my new clearer headspace works). Interestingly, I managed to produce almost an entire album of new music over my break, so I'll put those new songs up on SC over the coming weeks. 

And since I’m just a few songs short of completion, I’ll be releasing a very personal album (symbolizing my adventures with sobriety) very soon. It’s called ‘What Color Is Your Paradox?’, and I hope to have it on Bandcamp in February.

In the meantime, I’m happy to be back. And I look forward to seeing what all of you have been up to over the last few months. :)

 Big hugs from your blatantly open-book friend.
-Justin

Paradox?

Last Call

Written and produced by She's Excited!
Programming, vocals and lyrics by Anne Wichmann
Trombone by Mike Estabrook
Field recordings by Gene Chaban
Cover credits: Photo by Konstantin Onishchenko, Art by katiamess

Hello brain
It's been a while
Hello grey matter
Life never tasted any better

So many things we do
Look at this mess
Good news is:
If we did it, we can undo it
We can unscrew it
If you're up to it
We can see this through

We can love and respect and protect and connect
We can see, we can feel, we can let it be and agree
We can allow different world views
Kung Fu, Zulu, Voodoo, Urdu
We can choose not to subdue

Hello white matter
Come on, let's try this
Life never tasted any better

Moments Of Sonder

Hello Brain (feat. Mike Estabrook)

Inspiration from HEAVEN

INFINITY

Elevated State

This track i created with the korg gadget app on ipad.

cycle of life

© 2024 Pantomime Riot

Almond eyes look through the floor
Toxic vapours slip the door 
Inebriated mind entrenched 
Consciousness cannot be wrenched
Is my soul entirely mine 
Appropriated any time 
Eyes are open is it real 
Fingers numb now cannot feel 

Floating right out through the sheet 
Walking streets without my feet
Scarlet purple sleeping bruise 
Mind devoid of any clues 
Did you see my fucking trance 
Make a merry little dance 
Puncture pricks in every vein 
Never gonna feel the same 

Do those greys come when I rest 
Keep me under house arrest 
Bounce me down a silver beam 
Intoxicated in a dream 
Distant pictures in my head
Waking legs now full of lead
Penetrate and splice the gene
No one hears the vacuum scream 

Floating right out through the sheet 
Walking streets without my feet
Scarlet purple sleeping bruise 
Mind devoid of any clues 
Did you see my fucking trance 
Make a merry little dance 
Puncture pricks in every vein 
Never gonna feel the same 

Grey metallic bleeper chips 
Distant sound of water drips 
Leaving base reality 
Lost all sense of gravity  
Stretching through the layer seams
Colder textured alloy gleams 
Motor-senses all in flight  
Please return me to the night

Floating right out through the sheet 
Walking streets without my feet
Scarlet purple sleeping bruise 
Mind devoid of any clues 
Did you see my fucking trance 
Make a merry little dance 
Puncture pricks in every vein 
Never gonna feel the same

BRUISE

#acoustic

Acoustic Guitar. One of my many interpretations of Plush by Stone Temple Pilots

Plush (Ruined By SU&R)

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https://www.loudly.com/community/profiles/andronix9

…and that’s my policy:
I always try to see and appreciate the creativity of others! If it flatters the ears, so much the better!☺️
Don't please anyone and you're special.😉 That's exactly my thing, not to be mainstream and not to conform to any genre. You feel free and can do what you want. A lot of people give me tips: you're too quiet, you have to structure it like this, etc. I don't have to do anything! I make my music and not that of others!😜✊🏻

Feel free to do the same.
Peace be with you!🙏🏼
Andronix