a couple of weeks ago, my friend Stefan aka Pogopushl passed away. 

the day he died many of us, his friends (both new and old friends) joined a discord video call to find out more information, but slowly the call turned into a mourning process. music was played and candles were lit, and the call lasted for one week. during that time we cried, laughed, cooked, and tried to sleep on camera, processing the loss together. 

 i'm so grateful to each person that created that beautiful, supportive, loving and healing space.  i didn't really know you could make friends online... but now i feel like i made family. this song is about that special time and for all you special people. <3 

all my love to the mindblowing Himmelskinder community <3 thank you for welcoming me <3

lyrics 

Don't dont don't worry
I'll be there for you 
Like a safety net 
In the internet 

So so so happy 
That I met you here 
Yes we lost a friend 
No it's not the end

Faces lit by computer screens
Everybody cries, everybody screams
All the pain is there for everyone to see 
It's an open party for the broken hearted
Close our eyes when it's time to sleep 
Keep camera rolling while we try to dream
We wake up in the morning start the same routine
Me and my friends live inside a live stream

We're streaming 
Our sadness 
We're streaming 
Our sadness 

Safe safe safe haven 
In a video call 
Any time of day
Your familiar face

Colors
Every shade of grey 
Every shade of blue 
Every shade of you 
 
Faces lit by computer screens
Everybody cries, everybody screams
All the pain is there for everyone to see 
It's an open party for the broken hearted
Close our eyes when it's time to sleep 
Keep camera rolling while we try to dream
We wake up in the morning start the same routine
Me and my friends live inside a live stream

We're streaming 
Our sadness 
We're streaming 
Our sadness 

Tears tears tears running 
Covering my face
Tell me it's ok 
Send a hug my way 

Please please please know that
I appreciate you 
Virtual but true 
All that we've been through

streaming our sadness

Angel Rider