Big W

Sad music I listen to when I want too, enjoy the music that changed my life.

Best EMO

The way I feel by DEMiN

New Vibe New Life

acoustic

Ho my life's been since I saw the one I let go

My Life's End

pretty

i’m on my couch again i think i fucked up 
i made my loved ones cry now i’m looking for drugs 
I wanna take the pills till i don’t know myself 
and if i OD then i’ll see you in hell

ima feel what my drugs want me to feel
woke up w no appetite another missed meal 

i’m alone alone 
in my room i’m i love with crying at home 
they say they care for be but i wish they were lying 
becasue when i take my drugs i’ll be dreaming of dying
and yeah i made my momma cry 
it won’t be the last time 
and My family really loves wish they didn’t cuz i’m ready to die……x2

Crying At Home

AFTERLIFE DISPATCH COVER if life was a vehicle my collision rate would be exponentially high

Life's Changing (feat. Carter Tomorrow)

Life's Changing (Feat. Carter Tomorrow) (prod. Bartes)ON ALL PLATFORMS

over again

Here where I said,
I'd meet you again,
chasing the feeling,
falling for friends,

and I love you now,
had to figure out,
if I love myself,
and who I am myself,

Never love again,
I made a promise, once then,
you don't even know,
who I wanna be, and who I ever was,
I can't say that I would be anybody else,

and call to the sun,
we all let it go,
and god cannot save us,
so might as well love one n another,

Call To Sun w/ birdbody (prod. Idly Blare)

produced by sekani

completely non profit

lyrics

i guess its time that in finally wrote a song now
i guess its time that i finally put my phone down
i feel shit i feel shit on my own now
said im better off alone well im alone now

i guess ill get this started
its time to write another anthem for the truly sharded
how u broke me n im lonely but ive been that from the start
n now im faded with some papers that i blow on all my drugs
red lights inside my room at night
ice cubes pressed to my neck as i
lose blood out of my neck in pints
dry eyes, she knows im numb inside

hit the road n whip my bike up to the cliffside
650 cc on a vulcan 
look here comes the night sky
its so bright
but whered the passion go?
music like a bitch that only ever wanna smash n go
ay
but whered my feelings go?
used to be so many now im only ever feeling cold
hey I just tore apart my soul
gimme plays now
Hey I just met u
somehow already getting brain now
woah
she call me daddy n shit
she suck me off in her whip
the sirens passin n shit
so i just pass her a spliff
i only fuck when im lit
she say im big when im stiff
i say thats cap n she pissed

bloodclots (sekani)

hey hyd

lyrics
i been feeling like this maybe aint made for me
i been kinda looking out in the distance
this world isn’t really one id be missing

feeling builds up everyday 
dark dark but a dif shade
i just wanna move outta this place 
get outta this state

weeks go by 
when it feels like a fucking moment
i don’t know why 
keep tryna change coz it’s just fucking hopeless

i catn escape this 
repeating cycle of hoping no one’ll notice

but u can see it too
“dont go” as i weep for you 

still i know in my heart this aint doing me no justice

move me out
dont want a sound
im with the fog now 
i hate this ground

woah the sea starts to collapse with the whirlwinds 
words do more damage and i am hurting

she say lets do it tnight
im still at home in my mind 
u say its not jus th substance inside of ya
i can see straight thru ur lie

u can stay here stay stagnant 
thats not what i need in my life
i been thinking too much
this ones for those wondering why

wonder y (aer projects)

Till' Death (prod. + ft. Aiden Hilton)

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

lyrics

single off new ep all prod @secre_swallowtail
thx to @tearsonmygucci for the fire ft 
mix & mastr by @fleshgolem <3

//mæsk//
aren’t i enough
nough
push me away in to dust
picked apart as i rust
out in space time is slow but ur touch gives me a rush

just let me float now
flatline with no sound
dont give me false hope 
id rather not come down

id rather not come down
theres no life
no life in this world
oh, so id rather drift to the hole
she said dont go
u had ur chance to save me now 
now rest my soul

baby 
i jus gotta ask
will u remember me
coz i wont be coming back

//tearsonmygucci//

will you remember
sleeping in next to me love in november
eyes spilling embers
i can still feel how you touched me so tender 

spliffs at the hotel
now that your gone i just can't fucking sleep well
you seemed appalled
question if this shit was worth it at all

losing my head
eyes turning red
stains on the carpet from where my heart bled
saw in your eyes
you want me dead
silence the pain with some fucking meds

one single look made me question it all
i just wander outside and i walk till i fall
and i went past your place again just out of habit
i knew we'd lose from the moment we had it

novembrrr ft tearsonmygucci (secre)

Ugly Weird Bird w/ Kyra Leaves

Eliminate the Suffering - Rob Frost Cover

WOOD$ x DIVERSE - MYTHIC KNIFE .V2

Float Above Your Head

Fish Story

prod by @wiindigoo

lyrics:
you don’t have to worry
i’ll be fine
you’ll be fine
if i’m out of your life

you don’t have to worry
i’ll be fine
you’ll be fine
if i’m out of your life

you don’t have to worry
all the time
you wouldn’t cope
if you lived my life

when i’m gone
it’ll be the same
the seasons change
as your memory fades

i’m just a face
living day to day
insignificant pain
disappear in the rain

and in a thousand years
i will be in the dirt
even if it hurts
just to think about

once you realize
there’s no reason for life
you won’t see beauty
when you look in my eyes

you will forget me
move and ditch me
human mortality
i am just nothing

human mortality (prod. wiindigoo)

I finished the rest of the bottle so you didn’t half too 
I kept my composure from drinking to boof in the bathroom

Back to my normal life
Drunk on a Tuesday night 
Singing those indie songs 
ones that we sang along 
Texting my ex again 
wake up regretting it 
Wishing you never left 
Hoping I’ll see your face again 

So cold 
Winter nights 
Keep on moving to stay alive 
and fight, and hide,  and try 
Don’t you love, Don’t you love
Nobody, Nobody

And often I miss your serenity 
I cant explain but somehow now your dead to me 
Talking like I know your different 
Distant and honestly but not so efficient 

Your running and I cannot take it 
What happened to all of that love in the making 
Like how can this be true
My hearts split it 2 nowadays 
You mess up my mood with all your condolences

December (ft. FøRD)

Lyrics \/

And I could really see you dead I could kill you 
And I could really see you dead I could kill you 
And you love when i’m not enough 
I know you love that i’m not enough 

If you listen to my voice you’ll here i’m kinda sad 
I drink a lot of liquor keep the liquor by my bed 
If you know me now, You won’t know me long 
My musics so depressed that’s what she said 

In reality it’s worse 
reality it’s worse 
my reality is worse 
reality is worse than you think 
worse than you think 
x2 

Don’t be scared to raise your voice 
Yell at me all you fucking want 
I am not a human being 
I’ll let you take control of me 

And I could really see you dead I could kill you 
And I could really see you dead I could kill you 
And you love when i’m not enough 
I know you love that i’m not enough 

If you listen to my voice you’ll here i’m kinda sad 
I drink a lot of liquor keep the liquor by my bed 
If you know me now, You won’t know me long 
My musics so depressed that’s what she said 

In reality it’s worse 
reality it’s worse 
my reality is worse 
reality is worse than you think 
worse than you think

Ugly Weird Bird w/ Kyra Leaves

<3guts