just overall

stuck in a bad dream - juli <3

no one cares anymore - josiah maccartney feat. julia alexa

i just wanna run away

wanna b urs <3

too many problems (original demo)

(available on spotify)
dont really do covers anymore but

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GODSPLAN

(available on spotify)
drank too much
got the sickness
pray to god and his son for forgiveness
same crew but
another mistress
every day every night getting wasted
but i miss you
what did i do
fuck it up, laugh it off and i lost you
if i pull through
is it too soon
turn it up, close my eyes, and im with you

yo marvin
stop calling
sad iverson is ballin
in the corner of a room by himself
you are nothing but an empty shell
every night he going down to hell
fake love in a shit hotel
can’t believe how far he fell
you weak on the floor so you call her cell
“how you been”
“how you doing”
u been good
i been drinking
way too much
you think that id be
over u over u over u (8 calls, all you)
but i think about it everyday
yeah i never missed her anyways
yeah i never missed her anyways

call me up
stay over and we’ll
call it love
don’t matter if it
fucks me up 
the alcohol is not enough

fuck pride
and the other guy
i cried
i don’t remember why
tonight
ima try to hide
no slide
get frostbite
8 calls, all you
8 ball, all you
yeah i never missed her anyways
yeah i never missed her anyways

2 soon

(available on spotify)
mirror on the wall
can you tell me who i am
i think that i forgot
so remind me once again

maybe i was going too fast
babe i’d give it all to go back 

baby i’m better
i promise
know that i’ve never
been honest
maybe i never forgot it

daily reminder
tattoos of tigers
cigarette lighters
laughter and cider

i don’t deserve this
all in your arms
all your forgiveness
i don’t belong
i swear
i’ll never leave again

so this is love
just hold me close
i’ll never leave
i won’t let go

i swear i’l never leave again

i swear i'll never leave again

(available on spotify)
(baby i call in the dead of night
but you don’t need me like i need you
pray that i won’t be alone)

layin on the bed
waitin for your text (be alone)
babe there’s nothin left
faded im a wreck (be alone)

afraid what’s coming next
wished we never met (be alone)
laying us to rest but
baby i beg you (be alone)

2 soon (like i need you)
with the drunk call (pray that i won’t be alone)
in the middle of the night you
took it, my fault (be alone)
didn’t really mean to interrupt (be alone)
but if u change ur mind then hit me up (be alone)

pain, that’s an option
no time for nonsense
can’t ask you nothing
drank, feeling nausous
too many toxins
not even conscious
say nothin more, say nothin more baby

we’re better on our own
tonight im getting throwed (you don’t need me)
she never coming home 
stay with me (pray that i wont be alone)
say you’ll leave (you don’t need me)
(be alone)

(baby girl is saying that we just friends, that we just friends
if we fuckin are we just friends, are we just friends)

like i need u

(available on spotify)
i’m fallin
in deeper
she’s callin
my keeper
i want it
the reaper
will end it
just let me go, no
but something brings me back to you

she wouldn’t tell me why
it’s time to say goodbye
what did you do, what did you do
baby just tell me lies

we running out of time
say that she can’t decide
it’s up to you, it’s up to you
we gonna live or die?
lay me to rest in peace
don’t want your honesty
i wanna see you when you’re lying right here next to me

she don’t want me but i burn inside
she don’t wanna keep this heart of mine
she don’t wanna leave, just one time
but when i fall asleep, gimme cyanide

love me, let me know
stay or should i go
know that she was never mine to hold
reaping what i sow
taking what i owe
when she come to take another soul

the reaper

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des·​i·​de·​ri·​um: 
an ardent desire or longing
especially : a feeling of loss or grief for something lost
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Art by Kirbs/Emzi @zpiltmilk
(https://twitter.com/zpiltmilk)
She is a fantastic beautiful bean who provided the song art, make sure you go check out her work and ask her about pricing <3

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I put an insane amount of effort into this, and i'm actually very proud of it! It would mean a lot to me if you gave it a listen, love you <3 

THIS IS NOW OUT ON SPOTIFY!! <3 <3 Thank you all for the support, I love you all so much!

Lyrics:
i fade
you take my heart
and make it bleed

i love you

you take my-
bleed
bleed
you take my-

too many problems (original demo)

Annar