h8 today [shinjin]

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

15forevr - Love Lost, Forevr

15forevr - Control

credits:
@176s @kiryano @ogpichu
#us

lyric
look in the mirror see something i wouldnt be
its just funny cause whose standing there is me
i got lost but now im right back on my feet
can i find a better feeling guess well see

oh well, i guess i didnt again
i lost my only friend
it might be better for them
i hate myself till the end
my only goal is to blend
i lost interest again
u were my only friend (i was your only friend)

i never talked down to you
is there something left to prove
you didnt have to say that you were speaking the truth
i never talked down to you
is there something left to prove
i gotta to walk away cause i cant look at you

spotify

back on my feet (sense & kiryano)

EP soon....

@ton_bo0 @metisxx

and ain't shit changed at all
u don't care u don't wanna get involved
on my money shit i spend it at the mall
like u don't even care
but i've been doing better

this that italian leather
it just helps with the weather
and if i want her ima get her
and she don't know ima winner

if i fall again would u say that i got u
(u want me to trust but u know that i cant)
should i call u again i don't think i rly want to
(i don't think i rly want to)
these new clothes just some inspiration
i don't got time meet my expiration
u don't know what i'm on no information
ima burn it off inflammation

@1oneshot

involved (metis x tonari)

THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT BUT PLEASEEEE LISTEN TO MY OTHER MUSIC LOL <33

@1gash
@cld
@prod_pk
@ogbrayam

wrist w/ gash & cld (pk & brayam)

arid - for U (skunc + nesa) #us

@victxrw
@012207
@1wasterr

[arid]
u know im doin what i can
i know it wasnt planned
but everything's so real
u know im fallin wen u stand
spinnin round in my head
just give me time to heal

its not what i wanted
do u know the deal?
cuz im feeling haunted
ur taking me back
where we had started
i tried to reach out
but im not far yet

[victxrw]
i so feel hopeless
cuz im at my lowest...
i thought we knew this
tht im always useless
i need a distraction 
2 keep my mind at bay
when i see my vision blacken
i still say im okay :):

when im really not
nothing is enough
i need it 2 stop
im coughing up blood >_<
falling off the cliff
bones breaking brittle
ur 2 hard to love
ur just like a riddle

wanted w/ victxrw [me + baz + wasterr]

@angelicxmei
@resolve1k

[arid]
i dont want to have an equal opposite reaction
u know it happened
theres too much damage to cover the things i lost
back then
everything collapsed in
couldnt manage how everything went wrong
everything i say
u heard it all then u threw it all away
i know i let my feelings break
i do it often and its ok

[angelicxmei]
take the blame
never say that u know me well
break the boundries that ive set
i see how u play
throw words to the wind
i wont catch what u say
its all lost i wont win
same shit happens again

everything is toring me away
im insane
im wating till the sorrow go away
so i remain
meeeii
bloody stains are on my neck
nobody seem to understand

collapse w/ mei (inno)

pls stay (feat. feeluvsyou) prod. lil soda boi

Crime Scene w/ Samara (Augury)

shut down - mysticbummer + violent + sun + drew + saturn (erdo)

prod me
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@swagtastic666 <3
lyrics:
@terastic
bitch im fucked up i cant even get up outta bed
n i saw u sent my texts but i leave em on read
n im feelin so exhausted i might drop dead
dont wanna talk to u, u got me feelin upset
yea i dont wna be around u
everything u needed i was right behind u
u had problems but i didnt mind u
left me in the dust now who u gna cry to?
u regret it
yea i can see it in ur eyes
lyin to me but i see thru ur lies 
but im #over u i dont even wna cry
u a dumb hoe yea i jus had to realise
when i thought abt u it js made me wanna die
realisin how i wasted my time
really thought we were gonna be a lifetime
but now its in the past so i guess its bye bye 

@swagtastic666
aye hit me up with a call
wembanyama lemme pass it like a ball
ketamine into grain like its salt
me and tera fuck it up we in the mall

aye take the blunt to the face
everyday gotta learn how to play
everyday gotta learn whats at stake
gotta worry just in case whos in the shade

getting tired always tryna keep it silent
gotta take it for myself like im a pirate
slim the circle of the fakes just like a diet
shit get better if you lookin right behind it

aye is it over for me
look around like theyre following me
broke my heart feel it hollow in me
see the demons feel em callin to me

over you w/ swag (me)

passing by /xanocery chanbans

MUSIC VID https://youtu.be/qJ5OxDyu71I
prod me.

[lyrics]
[hook]
I been, dissociating
losin touch of realityy l8tly
pls dnt, h8 me
dnt kno what 2 say 2 u baby
x2

evryday I wake up feelin like I aint me
evryday I feel like al my frends just h8 me
wanna kms an let da reaper take me
putting guns 2 my head w/ no safety
dnt feel ok I feel depressed 
just want dis fuckin shit 2 end
I cannot lie cannot pretend
been poppin pills n losing frends

take anothr fuckin oxy
visions blurry
im not stoppng 
fallin ovr
I need more inside my body
or im droppin

evry1 around me could replace me
I just waste my time dissociating
I feel like my heart is slowly fading
the drugz make my heart race n its amazng
I think im getting bettr but mai brain still kinda hurtz
n then I realize da nxt day its jus getting worse
an den ion even kno who I am anymore 
u see
its gettin more complex than anxiety

[hook]

take anothr fuckin oxy
visions blurry
im not stoppng 
fallin ovr
I need more inside my body
or im droppin
IFeelDisoriented (luv u eric)
I cnt even speak a sentence 
xanny got me jumpin fences
molly gimme extra senses

now im 2 high
I feel so light
thnk I could fly
thnk I should try
I got truey on my jeans!
ok.
ksubi jeans!
ok?
wit the team!
NO WAY!
ice on me!!!
FROZE LOLLLLL

[hook]

love hehe

arid - for U (skunc + nesa) #us

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