sittin in my room all by myself 
foolin with my glock i think i rlly need some help
smoking on this pack n now i feel like i just fell
shoot up out of bed i stand up and i fucking melt
i don’t got no friends but i really need to tell
you bout how i feel now i wanna fucking yell
i am just a bother so i’ll wish you well
i should drink some water or should i leave my cell

i been posted wit my goons 
look up at the moon if i say it they will shoot
i will fucking die for my brother before you 
if u talk down then we will see u soon 
sitting here hoping she thinks about me
i been making moves i been feeling real free
i wanna go outside i just need to breathe 
all they do is stare bruh just let me be

myself (jonny)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

Credits://
@s1ninja
@gostupidcj
@bodygaard

Notes://
its always so hard deciding on a cover art...
genuinely spent hours deciding...
maybe i just like looking at pictures...

Lyrics://
i told that hoe to not get her hopes up
you think it started but look it, you froze up
wanna be out there in Copacabana wit a lil latin bitch bend her over
i cannot deal wit a bitch who bipolar
love me a girl who a little bit older
she eat me up like i’m soba, i’ll give you the tea, her butt really looking like boba huh

like go get the stick out the box, my bro gonna up it at any who talk a lot
i told you i’m sending out shots, like why did you pull up like this shit the octagon

you really be stupid as fuck
you still be holding bananas like glocks
i’m on alert cuz i know that they watch
cop or not just know that you getting dropped

this SRT really gon hate me i’m revving this shit till it sounds like an 808
i’m taking a bird cross the country, don’t ask bout my money, just know that i pay my way
low key i’m rocking this helmut lang
phone is on DND sipping drank
buy a new fit almost everyday
won’t touch the tag like it’s dripping paint

why was he talking that shit, he the easiest lick, so we caught him out in traffic
i cannot switch up my habits, this shit automatic, i’m smoking on aromatics

me and my girl we in the back of gotham’s getting whatever we want
she got on reike nen with vivienne, her style so nonchalant

don’t wanna be acting so cold
but i need to get what i’m owed
my patience about to erode, you don’t got the time to be asking for more
and really that’s just how it is
and baby that’s just how it goes
i couldn’t make this shit up if i tried, i’m blowing her back out why’ll you sit at home

don’t play wit my bruddas, whole team got sticks gon knock your head off
lemme count my bread up, gold bills look cool but the blue ones betta
push start, no key
i’m taking off no i can’t let up
all black, sparco my seat
6th gear we hit top speed

Octagon (prod. s1ninja & CJ808)

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

@prodandrey 
lyrics:

got me pissed off now
getting rich off this shit
i cant stop right now
im at the top of the list
i cant trust this bitch
you gone talk u get hit
crush this shit then i take another hit,
i cant blow my cover
blood on my face now
blood on my shoulder
and your face is getting colder
bitch u better watch yo back
cus u know we coming back
kickin shit right in japan cus i see a second chance
bitch u dont know me like
what the fuck u mean like
pull up with a beam
we gone let that shit go GLEE
if u talking all that shit
we gone put em on a tee
i cant trust these hoes at all
cus they lower self esteem
not going back n forth with u
i cant talk to u right now
girl i tried to fuck with you
but u still dont come around

GRAVEYARDSHift [prod andrey]

freedom 🌟 feat. hugg (p. clvr)

https://soundcloud.com/erdo
https://soundcloud.com/terastic

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

i shouldn't care i wish i didn't
wanna keep my head low wanna keep myself hidden
and all of these thoughts they feel like a prison 
i only get them out over these rhythms

move a box like a piston
do this for myself don't care if they listen
its been awhile hate the distance
got some downers in my system

got what i wished for no one wants 2 talk 2 me
coping with materialism go on shopping sprees
hate what going thru and how my lifes been going
i've been rlly going thru it hope that its not showing

no matter what i do there's someone better than me
wither me down to my bones you can throw me to sea
she just lives up in my dreams i wish you'd talk 2 me
i just dropped a couple meds inside a boba tea

we intertwined so briefly 
now im on my own wishing that you kept me
i hate myself there's no one to accept me 
seeing you with other people hate how it effects me

better than me (erdo + tera) *djswagnasty33*

produced by me, beat inspired by @vampiremutual
i love you @ch2rms
art by me

[im too numb]
i cant feel a thing
i cant feel a thing at all
can you save me from myself
i just go through these withdrawals
u cant see the way i tried to fall
im screaming out that i still wanna die
i wish i didnt know what this was like
im scared but im too scared to lie
im scared but im too scared to cry

im so numb
i feel so dumb
i wanna run
but i feel so torn
cant feel inside
i dont know
how to go
bring me home
bring me home
bring me home
bring me home

empty ft ch2rms

having fun with music again, expect some more soon. :)

game in the cover art is "a short hike" .. really good i recommend it highly!

words; ;

yea i just ran it up there with my bros
n u know we ontop thats forsure
how much did i just spend? shit, alot idk
idk where to turn to, look to, idk where to go
ooo
all my brothers on go
shootin when i say so
gotta escort the payload
we just ran it up forsure
now they tryna book me for a showw
they wanna know where i go
but im tryna keep it on the low

gotta keep my head up thats for certain
and its so fucked up what u did so u know im hurtin
all of this pain u put me thru tell me, was it worth it?
yea but i won now everything good yea everything perfect
my hearts stuck dunno where to go 
everythin cold, everything froze
just tryna make it thru this life yea this shits not what i chose
i worship the ground that u walk on like its covered in gold
its a tale of times man this shits gettin old

yea i just ran it up there with my bros
n u know we ontop thats forsure
how much did i just spend? shit, alot idk
idk where to turn to, look to, idk where to go
ooo
all my brothers on go
shootin when i say so
gotta escort the payload
we just ran it up forsure
now they tryna book me for a showw
they wanna know where i go
but im tryna keep it on the low

spotify!!! ^-^

we did it (southdrug)

shoutout my bro @k1zetsu
mixed by @diegointhedark

pop a xan
it goes straight to my belly
everybody hates me
couldn’t even tell me why
i’ll forever try
just to make things right
i’ve spent every year in shade
you could be my light

i just wanna talk
i don’t wanna throw words
screaming in the mirror
until i feel my throat hurt
really wanna end it all
since this world is absurd

i know your heart is empty
and love is not tht fun
but can you show me sympathy
cuz girl my spirits crushed
i try & try again
n fail every time
all the meds they didn’t take me
can’t even end my life
i try and try again

try again (Prod. Kizetsu)

@kyoakyo

https://open.spotify.com/track/7v3xjcYrxfeyP2dYWmVPLD?si=4b722afdc3f14f60

mixed by me and @han2k15

can we jus talk about this bs later
were falling out and ik we need a savior
ur playing hard ur playing like a stranger
ur all alone and heart its in danger
dont put this blame on me
i know it saddens you to see x2
that there wont ever be a you and me
its over x3
no i dont think we can go back over
ill hold my chest and pull you closer
oh ill pull you closer

ill pull you closer with every single breath you take
and when ur down jus call ill be wide awake
idc what it takes ill be there x2
dont go to far
did you forget where we are
and even after all our scars are faded
ill still be here for you
and it dont matter what we go through
it only matters that im by you
and idc idc idc at all as long as im by you

dont put this blame on me
i know it saddens you to see x2
that there wont ever be a you and me
its over x3
no i dont think we can go back over
ill hold my chest and pull you closer
oh ill pull you closer

myself (jonny)

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