performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

@kiryano
@jjaholics @pray4solo

[blx]
every time we talk she's just tearing my heart out
oh you love me well.. show me you love me then
i start every morning just puking my guts out
shouldn't have thought of you i shouldn't breathe again

oh you love me well,, tell me you love me then
oh you'd cry for me,, go ahead start crying then
why do you mess with me mess with my heart again
and my heart is saying i don't want love again

love again ft. kiryano (jj x solo)

writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3

a song 4 my lovely girlfriend, miki ^_^
love her so much Oh yeahhghh

OKAY ENJOY THX


how i feel about you;;;;
writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3
missing everything about you love the touch i love the feeling
didnt know how i was livin gave my life a brand new meanin
and im cravin all of you, for your love you know im feenin
and you never do me wrong and i know that you'll never mean it
tell me anything you need i promise i can keep a secret
give me everything you can cos u know that i need it
and if you fall i'll pick u up and ill learn how to treat it

give you everything i can please tell me what you want
and i know that you need it so i promise i wont stop
and you're always in my head you're consumin every thought
wouldn't want it every different im in love with what i got
and im lookin at the time, never lookin wasted
give my all because ur mine, till the end i know we'll make it
if you ever needed time i promise id be waiting
every day by my side, yeah it feels amazin

i let you in on how i feel i let my guard down
i lay with you under the sky look at the stars now
and we can get what we want, the world is ours now
and i can tell just what you want and what you like so now im

writing in your diary and i know that you're gna read it <3
missing everything about you love the touch i love the feeling
didnt know how i was livin gave my life a brand new meanin
and im cravin all of you, for your love you know im feenin
and you never do me wrong and i know that you'll never mean it
tell me anything you need i promise i can keep a secret
give me everything you can cos u know that i need it
and if you fall i'll pick u up and ill learn how to treat it

spotify

love letter

@jkjmetasco
@violetxx9

My confessions ,

feel my sorrow 
can u feel my heartbeat 
teenage poetry
u deserve it all from me
cuz girl u feel so worth it
n tonight feels so perfect
ur kiss just like the gems on my skin
lifts my curses

for her im bulletproof 
ill do anything if it’s for u (only if its for u)
i’ll be right there
hope it’s not in my head
i hope it’s not in my head

i think my heart belongs in the palm of ur hand
tonight is the night
girl it just feels so right
staring at ur green eyes
ur my drug im so high
love when ur kisses Burn my skin off
ur my sunlight 
girl idk where to begin 
i just want to hold on so tight to u
(feel ur heart)

qu’est-ce que tu penses de moi quand tu me regarde ? 
goûtes de sang sur mes bras
toute les nuits ouais je me sens mal
j’espère que tu saches que je t’es besoin
tout ton cœur pour moi 
j’espère ne jamais dire au revoir

feel my heartbeat (jkj & violet)

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

Spotify

cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

https://open.spotify.com/album/2g7JsDPZZqEFC8teUw0cb8?si=EhVkH8k4RtuMlFe4WxZnIg

#LP
#DPK

@mental
@blxty
@h4zrd

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 /╲/\╭[☉﹏☉]╮/\╱\

mental blxty h4zrd ღ listen to ur <3 (mental)

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

can i tell you a lie?
or some sh*t that i can't hide anymore
i told her i was fine
i kept it all inside of my core
you send shivers down my spine
howd i make it out alive? i don't know
act like you don't see me cry
things can't be the way they were before

if i could turn back time
id tell another lie

"we never loved eachother"
so why'd you pull me closer?
i made it through the summer
remember last october?
told me we'd be forever
but that won't give me closure
i had to crop you out the picture
i know that it's over
so why can't you accept it?
i told you that i get it
i don't know your intentions
so bring me to my senses
you knew that once it ended
you couldn't have my friendship
its just part of acceptance
i thought that you would get it

i should've known love is expensive
i'm tired of all the f*cking screaming i get it i know
and i think i'll leave a message
man everything that she says it just hits hard at home
told you that i am sorry
I am not, girl my heart's just rot
so my head's just thoughts of you and i cant think
i cant breath i cant sleep

another lie feat blxty

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine is where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to


maybe they got me thinking way too strong
ive been gone too long
causing thunderstorms head to the concrete
how can i save her when i can't save myself
its funny when u start saying no
they start acting different
im a egoist i just act this way
i do this all the same
tell me all these drugs the same
i dont want nobody, nobody
its all the samee

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine its where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to

egoist (prod. augury + sunrisess)

@ccenote

imm jug paxx
   imma jugg emm all alone 
   bby come back 
   u dnt evn hit my phone
   blocked me on snap
   said she wna hav my ghost 
  lil bitch i pop flats 
  till i feel it nn my skull 

  left my side 
  r u missing me 
  this is how i feel 
  wht uurr lov do 2 me 
  think of all the things 
   i knoo we cldnt  bb
   uree my ecstasyy
   ure my everythng 

   going out sad 
 go out sad 2
   i got scars on my arm  get it tattooed 
   taking pills for the pain 
   bitch i had222
  i cn see ur face in the rain 
  r u sad too?? ?

   i was on the beach 
  whn i wrote 2015
  head over the sink 
  as i wonder how u bleed
  she say “deep breaths”
  i dnt evn wna breathe 
   i dnt evn wna leave 
  u r all i wanna see

tell me whyy

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