blxty + emotionals - on god (waifu yugen)

crazy +blackwinterwells, grandee & blxty

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

@kiryano
@jjaholics @pray4solo

[blx]
every time we talk she's just tearing my heart out
oh you love me well.. show me you love me then
i start every morning just puking my guts out
shouldn't have thought of you i shouldn't breathe again

oh you love me well,, tell me you love me then
oh you'd cry for me,, go ahead start crying then
why do you mess with me mess with my heart again
and my heart is saying i don't want love again

love again ft. kiryano (jj x solo)

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

can i tell you a lie?
or some sh*t that i can't hide anymore
i told her i was fine
i kept it all inside of my core
you send shivers down my spine
howd i make it out alive? i don't know
act like you don't see me cry
things can't be the way they were before

if i could turn back time
id tell another lie

"we never loved eachother"
so why'd you pull me closer?
i made it through the summer
remember last october?
told me we'd be forever
but that won't give me closure
i had to crop you out the picture
i know that it's over
so why can't you accept it?
i told you that i get it
i don't know your intentions
so bring me to my senses
you knew that once it ended
you couldn't have my friendship
its just part of acceptance
i thought that you would get it

i should've known love is expensive
i'm tired of all the f*cking screaming i get it i know
and i think i'll leave a message
man everything that she says it just hits hard at home
told you that i am sorry
I am not, girl my heart's just rot
so my head's just thoughts of you and i cant think
i cant breath i cant sleep

another lie feat blxty

performed, written, and produced by me @mental

i dont know what ima dream about 2nite
i dont rly wanna leave without a fight
and i rly cant believe that thats my life
every single time i breathe im boutta die
i cant ever even see the reason why
ur even in love with me, but thats alright
ill just hold onto belief until i die
and then i cry and say goodbye

know u wanna leave me
stay up cuz im bleeding
it dont matter what im feeling
but its nothing, im eating

Love me, hate me, wannakill me

I h8 me so badd wanna end it

im so mad @ me im so mad @ me

im mad @ me

You lookin real stupid

hit you in your heart
Yea well that’s just how we do it

fw us, elevate we going shooting

youre a bitch and we all already knew it 

make myself bleed thinkin I might die
cause ion rlly give a fuck about my life

off a pill you can see it in my eyes
Blood shot, fucked up til the sunrise

you cant hang with us so keep it down
like fuck that bitch thinkin bout it make me frown

everybody know my name like im the baddest bitch around
you my kids, yeah nobody wanna learn so just sit down

you got me feelin suicidal 
say youre the new wave but bitch you aint no tidal  🌊 😔

Heart (negative.creeper & eczotic)

Credits://
@bodygaard
@tekea

Notes://
i don't have much to say its late...
just finished watching Dune 2...
great movie...

Lyrics://
yeah you found me
i get uh too rowdy
too uhh
too loudly
how far i’ve come ohhh

i’ll take you out
whatchu wanna do now
afraid, tune out
i wish i only knew how

been weeks you ain’t come around
when i empty out my house
meet me where we’d go hideout
please don’t leave me upside down

i miss come right now
please don’t leave me upside down

if only i picked up my phone
told me i skipped us like stones
hold me i tripped up i know
slowly i ripped up my wrong

everyday
you’ll still be my everything
you’ll still be my everything
i’d buy you bout anything a wedding ring oh

so even if i cannot weep
will you still be right for me?

she wanna be item
drew a heart round my name when she writing

Upside★Down (prod. tekea)

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine is where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to


maybe they got me thinking way too strong
ive been gone too long
causing thunderstorms head to the concrete
how can i save her when i can't save myself
its funny when u start saying no
they start acting different
im a egoist i just act this way
i do this all the same
tell me all these drugs the same
i dont want nobody, nobody
its all the samee

it took too long i need my drugs
wear my jeans down up to my waist 
ifsixwasnine its where i hide my drugs
creeping up crawling out like a bug
i had enough just show me love
it went away where do i turn to
medicate all the same
what i meant to