Show Me Your Love (prod by Thersx)

Mictainn

dont want me W/scvmbxg

lyrics - 
dead girl i can make yo face come back
mad world alice in the rabbit hole trapped
wait girl i just brought the bank girl 
running all this way catch a bottle fulla dank 
smoke fat

your wings are clearly frightning 
the mass wont see your soul

so tell me where do we go x2

down with the system 
sayin i dont need no lessons baby 
i dont need no blessing
i dont need yo reverend
come on

alice (prod. nvr frvr)

Oxygen

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How am I supposed to heal
I’ve forgotten how to feel
Broken promises left out the door
I'm broken hearted to the core

Sometimes when I’m awake
I think about you and I start to hate
To hate the feeling 
And I suffocate
My heart from feeling
Takes my breath away

And sometimes when I’m alone
I fight my urges to pick up the phone
And call your number like I used to do
I was so used to you

And now you’re with her
I hate her
Cause she’s all about you
The same way that I was
I was a fool for you

You played me
You’ll play her
I already know the truth
But she won’t
No she don’t
She don’t know about you

Caught me by surprise
The web of your lies
You told me you wouldn’t leave
you’d never leave my side
 
You lied
And I believed
You made a fool out of me
Everyone warned me
But I couldn’t see

Blinded by your charm
You caused the most harm
You never did say you were sorry
That don’t matter but oh it haunts me

Was there two or was there more?
I was dying on the floor
You cried you called me 
I declined I couldn’t breathe

I couldn’t breathe

You’re selfish 
You’re fucked up
I wish you the worst luck

You miss me?
Well that’s nice
I don’t miss you
I miss the fights

I miss your wrongs 
when I was right
I miss you degrading me
I miss your hate for me
I really miss the jealousy

And all those times that I would cry
You don’t care
you were getting getting high
That stupid band
Your stupid songs
You always cared more about the bong

And now look at you
All fucked up and alone at two
You’ve got me on your mind
wishing you could go back in time

And all those those months I was in pain
and finding comfort in the rain
You didn’t care
You made it worse
You harassed me
I felt cursed 

You told me you didn’t love me
So I don’t get what you want from me
I changed my number
Leave a fax
Leave me alone and face the facts

You lost the girl who was always down
The only girl who didn’t want the crown
She wanted you for you
You betrayed her
The things you do
 
I hope you know you won’t find better
And She’s still burning all your letters
If by chance your hear this song
I hope you see how you did me wrong

Please Stay Away - ANTIVST (Prod.XET)

I don’t wanna live like this anymore 
take a bottle of pills & I’m out on the floor.
Too many times And I'll take the blame
So I’m fucked in the head,
Put a gun to my brain.

Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine
I’ve got thoughts of suicide on my mind 
I want it to end
There is no friend 
who gives a shit

Nobody cares until your dead
And even then they all pretend 
pretend to care,
They’re not really there
No no no

Last year in March
I was in pain
I wanted to die,
Jumped in front of a train

It was only a dream,
So when I woke up,
climbed up to the bridge
Tried to throw myself off

I cried for days,
I was in pain
I felt selfish
With No one to blame

But myself 
I’m always on my own
I’m always alone
And When I get in the zone

I close myself off,
Cut people off,
Cut em off like I do
Cause if they only knew 

What goes on in my head
I’m Better off dead
Like I’ve already said 
God I wish I was dead

Thoughts Of $uicide - ANTIVST (Prod.Raspo)

Art by Lucas David
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I remember when you used to call my phone at 3 am
Now you sit there alone 
Hitting up my phone but can’t remember when

I wrote my songs for you 
You listened and you laughed
But I guess good for you
Cause I left your sorry ass

I don’t feel love
I don’t want pain
You broke me once
I’ll burst like a vain 

Just leave alone
Don’t pick up the phone
Just leave me alone

I wrote my songs for you 
You listened and you laughed
But I guess good for you
Cause I left your sorry ass

I’m not your girlfriend
Not your best friend 
This is the end 
To your lies

If you miss me
Well I’m sorry
I’ve moved on
To finer guys

And you used to be mine 
Yeah you used to mine
You ran out of time
Cause you were wasting mine
Yeah you were wasting mine

You never never cared
You never cared cared anyway

All of the times
All of your lies
They went up in the flames 
And oh how I fell for your games

I was never the same
No I was never the same

I wrote those songs for you 
Oh what a waste of time
But now you’re her problem
And I’m glad you’re not mine

Save It For Your Girlfriend - ANTIVST (PROD. XET)

Crying Slow

short cover of small hands(ft my moms heroin)

These days I haven’t been sleeping
It’s been a lot of day drinking
All cause I can’t forget your name
I think I’m boarderline insane

I run away from my problems
I know when I’ve hit rock bottom 
And when the bottle calls my name
I give in so I feel no pain

Feel pain? just hide just hide behind the cigarette
Tough love it messes with your mindset
As all our memories replay
Do you think we could be the same

Do you you feel me?
I’m lost 
Can you hear me?
I know I know you all too well
Would you hold my hand all through hell 

Oh no
Not again 
I thought 
We could be friends
But babe there’s something you should know
If you love someone you don’t go
You don’t get to walk away
Why don’t you say what you want to say

I know you’ve got way too much pride
But babe I’ve got nothin to hide

Mixed Emotions (Prod.XET)

onelastgo. [prod. nunav]

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