This was the song that made me a huge supporter of you anton!!!😭🖤🙏🏼

HK51

Reaper w/Red Dot (Prod. Pulse)

all again ft. seejayxo + steadysuffer *jolst*

All A Game (Prod Polaroid)

VIOLIN BY @SORRYSINES
CHEESY & CORNY BARS BY @TAGSHAI

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Athletic Apparel (prod. SorrySines)

I was in a dark place
If u saw me back then u would say I glowed up
Something in my soda
Ive been smoking Yoda
When I see you hit that shit I know you aint a smoker
Diamonds look like rose
Dimes up on the sofa
They want the cocaine
White girl got her nose done
“Girl, I liked your old face”
Im sayin
You know I just smoke and stargaze
Im sayin

I was in a dark place
We were playing games havent seen you at the arcade
Do you believe in heartbreak?
When you introduce me to your friends I feel like scarface 
Wanna make em shark bait
They cant do the car chase
Dwayne Johnson, 
They gon be between some rocks and hard places
Im patient,
I hate it when you say my heart racing
Im faded,
You know I just smoke and stargaze
Im sayin
Im crazy

IM SAYIN (fern)

This song was made to reach out to those struggling with self-harm, depression, suicide, and to spread a message of hope and love. 
If you're experiencing any of these, please seek help right now. twloha.com/find-help/local-resources/ 

Credits: 
Photo Credit: Fulgee vsco.co/fulgee 
Beat produced by Kamikaze www.youtube.com/channel/UCy2k2icln9Qk8EAg6GrSiBg 
Piano Sample Credit: Suzuo - Heavenly soundcloud.com/impintheforest

Lyrics: 
I can finally buy a car just with a beat 
Sell exclusive and a couple hundred lease 
I been stacking cash just like I got them cheats, shit be just like GTA with a Ferrari in the streets 

I been grinding hard 
I been on my guard 
I'm climbing to the top with nothing but my bars 
You never seen them but I got a couple scars 
They on my heart and I got plenty on my arm 

I'm not ashamed to explain where I come from 
Yeah, I just wanna be a better man 
I'm not afraid just to say where my mind was 
Yeah I'm lucky I'm still here I got a plan 

Yeah I had a couple friends that I lost bro 
Yeah they meant the world to me I guess they'll never know 
Bet I wanted to go join them but I can't go 
I just gotta stay strong yeah I gotta grow 


All the money in the world it don't mean nothing 
All the fame in the world it don't mean nothing 
You just gotta find yourself and be something 
Yeah before you know it you be up and coming 


Yeah my corny ass is tryna speak some wisdom to these teens 
I just wanna let em know that life has purpose and a dream 
You can overcome this shit if you stay close to all your team 
Just know that you are important it'll help your self esteem 

I just wanna make it clear 
That you have nothing to fear 
Keep your friends and family near 
Gotta hold on to what's dear 

Yeah I know that feeling of loneliness it just tears you up 
Yeah the darkness and the stressing you feeling it's just too much 
But remember that your life is important so don't give up 
You just gotta make it through but then you be coming clutch 

Listen to me please you are not a burden 
You are needed and I love you as a person 
Hope is real and your story is important 
I'm here to listen to your words that paint a portrait 

I wanna stay 
I wanna breath 
I wanna swim 
Instead of sink

stay (Prod. Kamikaze)

Did an acoustic cover of a cover. 
Saosin - Penelope (cover of Pinback - Penelope)
Photo Credit: https://vsco.co/simrans0

Penelope

HUGE THANKS TO @suburbanwhitey FOR RECORDING THE GUITAR SAMPLE Support this guy <3
https://twitter.com/SuburbanWhitey | https://traktrain.com/suburbanwhitey | https://www.youtube.com/c/SuburbanWhitey
Piano Sample Credit: @instupendo - play palette
My group vocal melody at the end was inspired by Algernon Cadwallader - Horror (https://youtu.be/ARSl5-SXT6A?t=3m26s)

Lyrics:
I feel the cold breeze in my hair yah
Think of all the times I wasn't there yah
In your bed these thoughts I just can't bear yah
You went somewhere but I don't know where yah

I focus on my music just so I don't think of you
You got me thinking why you do the things you do
Do you still care after all we've been through
Through the better and the worse and just to name a few

You do you like nobody can yah
I'm not fine it's just who I am
You once were my biggest fan yah
Now I gotta find a way to cope with change of plans yah

Now I'm spending days driving solo
When you left yah it got me so low
Running through my mind like where the fuck you go
Feel so broken hearted like you'd never know
Now I'm spending days driving solo
Riding through the city I feel so alone
Feel that cold breeze through my hair don't take it slow I pull out in the bimmer where the fuck you go

Everybody wanna collab, yah
Everybody want these bands, yah
Everybody lookin at me thinkin Ima quit and buying everything I wanted but I can't, yah
This motivation is making me feel alive again
I wonder how many times I've said I'd rather be dead

And now I'm not afraid to live
It's been hard since I was a kid
You know you hurt me with everything that you did
But I will keep going I'm not afraid to live

Now I'm spending days driving solo
I'm learning to be better when you don't show
I clean myself up I wear a polo
I'm making hits like I'm a virtuoso
Now I'm spending days driving solo
The only way to go is up when you been so low
I'm in the coupe I take a couple photos
Touring in a whip like it's a roadshow

solo

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

Photo Credit: https://vsco.co/trynidada
I did a cover of Bloc Part - Like Eating Glass

Like Eating Glass

Lyrics:
late night at the park
late night after dark
hop over the gate
stars spell out our names
staring at the moon
should I make my move
maybe I’ll just wait
maybe it's too late

just me and u now
sitting by the swings
the stars & the moon's out
we be staying out all night
just me and u now
sitting by the swings
the stars & the moon's out
we be staying out all night

late night at the park
late night after dark
hop over the gate
stars spell out our names
staring at the moon
should I make my move
maybe I’ll just wait
maybe it's too late

yeah we roam yeah we roam 
yeah we roam got no home
yeah we roam yeah we roam 
yeah we roam got no home

just me and u now
sitting by the swings
the stars & the moon's out
we be staying out all night
just me and u now
sitting by the swings
the stars & the moon's out
we be staying out all night

yeah we roam yeah we roam 
yeah we roam got no home
yeah we roam yeah we roam 
yeah we roam got no home

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Sleepless Nights

This is my new single (Spent A Check) hope you all like and ill be back with a new song next week!!! :)

Spent A Check

[+] a list of my tendencies. 
* prod by @sketchmyname *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro:]
i could really tell by how you walk
see it in your face every time that you talk, ouu
i don't wanna lock
all the fucking thoughts in my head
but i don't know what to do if i stop
i do this a lot

[verse: 1]
i do this a lot
smoking on that kush
i think my brain startin to rot, uh
fuck it, oh my god
i do this a lot yeah
baby i'm alone up in my room
can i get top?
please get out my face
i don't mean to blame
but you always talk a lot
and i just wanna get some space
uh fuck it i'm a lame
put that on my name shorty
i don't wanna see you
when i pull up with my gang ya
she think i'm insane

[bridge:]
i'll show you crazy
just look in the mirror lil baby
i know you hate me
gold all in my lip
she think i'm a dick
i'ma take yo bitch
i just tell it how it is

[hook:]
i do this a lot (8x)

[verse: 2]
pulled up in a benz
i don't need no friends
fuck it
you can come and see me
if you really want amense
i don't think so
you biting on my lingo
i'ma spark this blunt right here
for you outside my window
like i do this a lot

Sleepless Nights

Anton Golden

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