hopefully a step in the right direction

(everything by me)

lyrics:

choking back my vomit 
staring at your bedroom wall

thinking to myself
"how did i get here?"
"how'd it all go wrong?"

and you've been begging me for hours 
to tell you that its not your fault
i didn't sleep
but in the morning
you told me not to tell no one

i wonder why
that when i said "no" four times 
you couldn't accept that right

and i know now
that every day 
i shouldn't have to relive that night

August bedroom wall

All The Way ++ sxulz (Frostd x glokmane x streo)

in my head ft. austyn with a y

funk rock

words:
i've had enough
of the ppl who wanna act up
why u only fun
when theres sex drugs n alcohol
shit its a sad look
but maybe im the only one
the 'best place to go'
but the worst place to talk around

fuck
i just wanna see the real you
everytime its a coverup
jumping over these obstacles
brush over ur problems like ur life is a joke
wish i could do that
every time i talk im boutta choke
x2

i know we made it weird
now I don't wanna talk to you
feel like shit, im in denial
how could i be such a fool
so serene
back when it was just the two of us
bittersweet
back then now the two of us is done

spent these days
tryna turn a fucking leaf
all the funny stupid shit we'd do
man they all feel like a dream
playing mind games w myself
tryna find out what went wrong
anything to stop myself from falling
down this rabbithole
of madness

is it to do w me
afflicted w a bad curse
shoulda told myself to shut up
im better silent
trusted you admired you
now i dont know what to feel
why did we even happen
dont even know what's real

fuck
i just wanna see the real you
everytime its a coverup
jumping over these obstacles
brush over ur problems like ur life is a joke
wish i could do that
every time i talk im boutta choke
x2

choke

Final song from the Forgetting saga for now

Lyrics -

I don't know if you cared from the start
But I no longer see a point in just believing you
It's your fault that you tore us both apart
I don't understand why I believed in you
3 years of my life gone down the drain
so many opportunities that I had to waste
cause I was too dumb to notice this was the case
But I don't give a fuck anymore
I  don't know if you cared from the start
But I no longer see a point in just believing you
It's your fault that you tore us both apart
I don't understand why I believed in you
Don't you ever come back when you fall down
You would never listen so I won't listen to you
Bury all these problems in the damn ground
Glad I won't have to overthink of you now

Cause I don't think I'll take it anymore
You been rotting me down to the center of my core
I thought it was something that it wasn't, on the floor
Now it's time for me to open a new door

(repeat chorus 💀)

Closure (02ashes)

everything by us: @saiwai n @kanaima

hook (@saiwai)
bitch uh, i wanna go faster
bitch uhuh she want me to @ her
bitch uh, i think that i passed her
bitch uhuh i hope that shit matter to u cuz im like

go
im done
i lost her
im on
i just think that i won
u lost bitch
ur none

verse (@kanaima)
bah, i go insane bitch
uh, pull up on him in the rari, im finna lane switch
and i rly ride with my brother cant fuck wit no lame bitch
and im finna change my swag, but u on the same shit

all of my diamonds they wet, uhuh
i put vvs on my neck, uhuh
i hold it down i be ridin around you aint hearin no sound from the tec, uhuh

i heard that boy he be tryna act tuff
talk of the town and that boy know wassup
used to be broke i stayed down now we up
shawty a groupie but now she want fuck

hook (@saiwai)
bitch uh, i wanna go faster
bitch uhuh she want me to @ her
bitch uh, i think that i passed her
bitch uhuh i hope that shit matter to u cuz im like

go
im done
i lost her
im on
i just think that i won
u lost bitch
ur none

verse 2 (@kanaima)
imma pull up, stop
40 on me i been sippin that wock
shorty on me and she down from the block
thats yo ho but now that boy on the rocks

used to be broke but now i got the racks
u a lil joke imma keep it a stack
talkin that shit, that boy he be wack
i got yo bitch, im breakin her back

i just be steppin in burberry denim i ride in the tonka all black just like venom
countin my blessings lil shawty caressing me but i cant dip if it aint with the weapon

i be outside when i ride with my five
if he from the six, we givin him seven
i got a blick, and im with the felons
bah bah bah, we gon send him to heaven

hook (@saiwai)
bitch uh, i wanna go faster
bitch uhuh she want me to @ her
bitch uh, i think that i passed her
bitch uhuh i hope that shit matter to u cuz im like

go
im done
i lost her
im on
i just think that i won
u lost bitch
ur none

go

uhuh p. sai

produced by nora evelyne 
mixing and mastering by nora evelyne & shia
written & preformed by nora evelyne & shia
part of background vocals by vil

how could i know that?
how could i know?
how could i know?
how could i know that?
i know
i know
how could i know that?
how could i know?
how could i know?
how could i know that?
i know 
i know

i see no caller id
but im not wasted
i saw my father by me
and he was faceless
i got some hatred for fuckers like you
i swear to god 
ill pull the strings
just to get you out of view

and ive done so many things in my life
i cant forget
ive been struggling to find a reason
and ive been lying when you
are fleeing
i feel it 
in my bones

if i took your mask
right of your face, id
be in a room full of gas
where ill deflate and
take off your clothes
that feeling no one knows
whered you go
that feeling no one knows
you say count your blessings
im like oh
and its getting messy so
feel my wrath
let it sink in on your rash

just 
for
you

spotify

caller id ft. shia

made in 24 hours for @artbyform all nighter for the most part (I did some mixing afterwards)
everything by me
shoutout @echo_vvvv for teaching me how useful a multiband compressor is

fall in2 the atmosphere
suppress my thoughts n all my fear
its so clear that ive been coming undone

its been a year n im the same
stuck in place and nothings changed for me
I need relief
and im crawling
towards a place where im content

but its a long path thru the sand and snow
and the winters grown so cold now x2

but its a long path thru the sand and snow
and the winters grown so cold now
but im coming home x2

sand+snow

Nine Vicious - Blasian

odi; 
bad bitch wan suck me n Melvin!
tight shi , pull my dick out smell it!
on yo block like kush i spark shi 
take those timbs off thats a trash fit 

bitch wan lick me n the team
pass that liquor ion sip no lean
fuck dat bitch she dripping cream
i play hoes like this shit steam 
block that bitch she all on me
i shoot deep bitch gimmie 3
yo bitch do dick constantly
yo hoe going unfortunately 

she want paper , imma play her
imma bleed dis hoe like slay3r 
crush then dip like c u l8r 
crush that bushy shi , dont shave her 😛

yahh im wit solr BITCH 
yahh flexing - selfless - clique 
swipe these cc's , tryn get rich
nahh u cant get nun BITCH 
shut that shit up , bitch come eat (ee ee)
grinding hard , my gas on E (ee ee)
hop on tracks , straight gasoline (ee ee)
crave these shrooms , bitch im a fien 

melvn:
im ridin round with 2 guns right on my hip,
got me a white bitch aint no taylor swift,
runnin this nigga down like im in 6th,
runnin this nigga down come get yo stick, 
runnin this nigga down come get yo bitch,
 
im uppin like 5 bands for that nigga blick, 

got me a bitch she built like timmy thick, 
boy you dont want her go back to yo clique, 
back to yo clique stacking up them bricks, 
nigga i aint fallin for yo damn tricks,
got yo whole gang suckin on dick, 
got yo whole gang sucking on dick,
takin a flick with my muhfuckin ricks

ME N MELVIN FT SOLR PROD LUXKK

Scrooge McDuck prod xatthew mocoso

@overstatement <-- alt of bull
https://linktr.ee/an_understatement
#sanctum (be prepared you sobs)
i will be back...