cry myself to sleep

Panic Attack

Taking My Time

Beat produced by: https://soundcloud.com/canna8

This Art Of Mine/Nobody

[Prod LethalNeedle]

beat https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tr925f5aAO8&ab_channel=LethalNeedle

damages demo [Prod LethalNeedle]

Every day is a blessing 

I would say that it's not 
I would say that it's not
I maintain that it's not

I always struggle cuz im not a good lyricist
I got lot up on my plate but imma finish it
I know I feel I cant relate but im not feelin it
And I dont try to stay up late but im not tired yet 

My minds too active im inactive, i cant activate it
My seratonin, dopamine, and im infatuated
With all the pain, thats in my veins, they carry generations
Intimidated, made me hate him, now the trauma stayin
These allegations, all complaining, Troy could never take me
'Illuminati on is wrist' this phrase could never make me
Yes Im the snake, I never make a break im always loyal
My blood could boil, im on the bottom, like I lived on aiken
Im sorry im macen, sorry ive taken, every step and precaution
My mind is just racing, always mistaken, everything that im talking
it happened twice, say sorry to all to my friends and family often
Because im just awful, call me AP, stands for awful person 
Everything lawful, till its gets awful, then im off my rocker
I'll flip off the cops, fuck all the odds, nothing else seems to matter
My life is just shattered, all disaster, cuz there is no after
My aftermath is all my family and friends that gather
At my viewing, or my burning, you can put me in an urn, then
Take all my earnings, give em to Adia, this was the last that I made of me
And nothing could matter, everything bad, and nothing could ever improve
Just look at the menu, everything tends to be just fake and pretend too
Oh ill have the steak, no steak is bad for you its bad for your kidney
Oh Ill have the chicken, ill keep the bones in, oh wait its full if hormones, so
I'll have the ham, its always to die for, oh wait its full of red 40
Well ill have the chives and stick to the water, 
but i wont ever survive with the 
Trace amounts of microplastic so ill stick to the classics,
Give me some eggs, they always fantastic, cept for high cholesterol
well maybe the diet coke, or pepsi, fucking shit thats messy
Confirmed carcinogen, maybe ill skip it then, I'll just have me a lil apple
But what bout the pesticide, genetic modified, 
and is it ethically sourced?
Im so fucking tired, is there an end to this fucking rediculous course?
Guess I have no option, always just settling for the best of the worst.
Best of the worst is the is the situation, call it neccessary evil (na cessory evil)
Guess i eat nothing, everything crazy, fuck it I just wont continue
But all the better me says its gets better, everything always rocks
Everything blessed, all a is blessing
and this shit never stop 

but
I would say that it's not 
I would say that it's not
I maintain that it's not
AP maintain that its not

what if a blessing in disguise is just a another reason to die

Pittsburgh
23

RIP Cokei 🕊

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