just like the title said, it'll be okay. time will help u overcome it :)

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作詞 . 作曲: 秋田ひろむ (from Amazarashi)
Original performed by Nakashima Mika
cover art: Natz (though I can't draw LOL)
I own nothing save my euheuh-voice and pathetic mixing ;;w;;
m(/////)m
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at first I listened to this, I couldn't think anything else beside NakaMika's voice... it's so 'new' to me >////<;)~ I love it though~ <3
but the second time Ilistened to this, I learned that the lyrics is asdfghjkl!! ;;w;; aaaaaa~ //eh
after that, I listened to Amazarashi's songs and asfghjkl!!! AMG!!
....sorry for rambling ;;w;;
sorry for everything, again, and always
and I dedicated this song for..... my family, my friends,
people who knows me //eh
and people who gave me inspirations ;;w;;
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kanji & translation?

僕が死のうと思ったのは
ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから
波の随意に浮かんで消える
過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because sea mews cried at the dock
Even the past that is floating and disappearing on waves’ voluntary
Pick up and fly away

僕が死のうと思ったのは
誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから
その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら
虫の死骸と土になれるかな
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
was because the apricot flowers bloomed on my birth day
If I took a nap in the sunlight filtering through trees
Would I become dirt together with insect’s corpses?

薄荷飴　漁港の灯台
錆びたアーチ橋　捨てた自転車
木造の駅のストーブの前で
どこにも旅立てない心
今日はまるで昨日みたいだ
明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ
分かってる　分かってる　けれど
Pepperment candy, lighthouse of fishing port
Rusty bridge arch, discarded bicycle
In front of the stove of the wooden station
The heart that can’t wander anywhere
Today is like yesterday
If I want to change tomorrow, I have to change this day
I understand it, I understand it, but—

僕が死のうと思ったのは
心が空っぽになったから
満たされないと泣いているのは
きっと満たされたいと願うから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my heart has became empty
The reason why I’m crying “I can’t get enough”
Must be because I hope of getting fulfilled

僕が死のうと思ったのは
靴紐が解けたから
結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ
人との繋がりもまた然り
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because my shoelaces were loosened
I’m weak at re-tying it
That’s why I take care of the bond with people

僕が死のうと思ったのは
少年が僕を見つめていたから
ベッドの上で土下座してるよ
あの日の僕にごめんなさいと
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because a boy looking at me
I’m kneeling down on the bed
Saying to me of that day, “I’m sorry”

パソコンの薄明かり
上階の部屋の生活音
インターフォンのチャイムの音
耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年
見えない敵と戦ってる
六畳一間のドンキホーテ
ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ
Pale light of PC
Sound of life from the room upstairs
Sound of intercom’s chime
The boy in the cage, is blocking his ears
Fighting with invisible enemy
Don Quixote between the six tatami room
His goal is an ugly thing, anyway

僕が死のうと思ったのは
冷たい人と言われたから
愛されたいと泣いているのは
人の温もりを知ってしまったから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I was told “a cold person”
The reason why I’m crying “I want to be loved”
Was because I have already known of people’s warmth 

僕が死のうと思ったのは
あなたが綺麗に笑うから
死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは
きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because you’re smiling beautifully
The reason why I tend to wonder only about dying
Must be because I’m too serious about living

僕が死のうと思ったのは
まだあなたに出会ってなかったから
あなたのような人が生まれた
世界を少し好きになったよ
The reason why I thought of wanting to die
Was because I hadn’t met you yet
This world where a person like you was born
I became to like it a little

あなたのような人が生きてる
世界に少し期待するよ
This world where a person like you is living in
I’m expecting at it a little

credit kanji: http://kanpekimusic.wordpress.com/2013/08/30/mika-nakashima-boku-ga-shinou-to-omotta-kashi-pv/
translation: by (lame) natz

[Natz] 僕が死のうと思ったのは .The Reason Why I Thought of Wanting to Die. (Vocal Cover; #pitchchanged)

Death Parade Original Soundtrack — 10. Moonlit Night

Anime: デス・パレード
"Death Parade"

Artist: Hayashi Yuki
Genre: Instrumental

Death Parade OST #4: Jin Wa Ikiru Mono

Death Parade OST #5: Memento Mori

Last Theater

"Feeling of Peace" is a deeply introspective and serene instrumental piece, perfect for meditation and concentration. The song is a masterful blend of traditional Andean instruments and a tranquil, natural soundscape, creating a feeling of profound peace and timelessness. It's a sonic journey that feels both intimate and expansive, like a solitary meditation amidst the vast, ancient peaks.

The production is a masterclass in building a vast and immersive soundscape. It opens with the gentle melody of a solo quena, which acts as the main melodic voice, immediately setting a peaceful tone. The rhythm is slow and steady, created by a soft bass drum and a cajón that provide a gentle pulse without being distracting. The charango plays subtle, melancholic chords in the background, adding a layer of depth and emotion. In moments of quiet, minimalist zampoñas join the quena, creating an atmosphere of deep introspection and serenity. A touch of natural reverberation gives the sensation of being in a massive, open valley, adding to the immersive and meditative quality of the track.

Feeling of Peace

i'd like to take you here but i can't

experimental, incomplete

3/22/19 
damn, it's been over a year since i made this track and it's really racked some attention
i thought this was something i just wanted to scrap together and felt bad for ruining a joe hisaishi piece. --
thank you all for the kind support and for cheering me on albeit lowkey or not <3

its summer

original song: there is no original song because i composed this :')
art: http://ainsdrawings.tumblr.com/post/137922650474/sherlock-stop-walking-in-the-rain-youre-going support ain's art by liking the post/following on deviantart/whatever else there is!!

it'll be okay

i've been staring at the same old walls
scared of walking through distant halls
hey it's your birthday 
but he left you anyway
stomach's been feeling sick
the past few weeks

hazy mornings i just want to rot
daydreams of all the things that have gone
how do you forget of ghosts
when all they ever do is linger in your thoughts

days have passed
and all i ever did was lie to myself
goosebumps on my skin
it makes me think that you are here
this week has just been so rough
wish that i could just sleep it off

hazy mornings i just want to rot
daydreams of all the things that have gone
how do you forget of ghosts
when all they ever do is linger in your thoughts
when all they ever do is linger in your thoughts

hazy mornings

Artist : https://soundcloud.com/jinsangbeats

Jinsang - Journey

None of the rights go to me, I just wanted the song to be on soundcloud!!
Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5SDJFvG2dKk

let's talk till the sun comes up - sad boy with a laptop

fall

Shout out to everyone involved!
You all did a great job

Thanks @dreamhopp for making this project possible and @jazzhopcafe and @cheekyjazzhop for featuring my song in their mixes!

Special thanks to kurishoe as well for the lovely art!
Art: https://www.instagram.com/kurishoe/
Visuals: 
https://youtu.be/uNQRKno8pyg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oi3fVOxWK4c

Spotify

Cozy christmas

Surprise!

We are very proud to present to you our first compilation: 'Lift Off'.

Vinyl/streaming: collegemusic.co.uk/lift-off/

https://soundcloud.com/idealismus

'Lift Off' is a charitable double LP compilation featuring original beats from a small handful of our favourite artists and beat makers.
Each of the four vinyl sides is home to a distinct theme, each representing a different time of day: morning, afternoon, evening and night. We've carefully curated the music to fit with each different time of day.

We're donating 100% of profits from the vinyl to 'Samaritans', a mental health charity offering 24/7 support for anyone who needs someone. We are fully committed to doing what we can to raise awareness on issues relating to mental health, and direct our listeners to help as and when they need it. Through buying this vinyl, you will help people get the support they need when they need it most, so thank you in advance. And remember: it's okay to talk.

www.samaritans.org/

The release of 'Lift Off' coincides with the College Music YouTube page reaching 1,000,000 subscribers. Thank you to everyone who has supported us so far on our mission to spread good vibes... next stop: the moon.

CM x

College Music Presents: Lift Off

Watch Over

Charity Vinyl + Stream

D7: Idealism - Watch Over

I produced this Ep with some amazing artists from Dreamhop Music. This was a blast to make and I'm glad it's finally out. 

I hope you'll enjoy it too <3

Dreamhop Music's profile: https://soundcloud.com/dreamhopp

WYS: https://soundcloud.com/wyslofi

C4C: https://soundcloud.com/c4cmusic

Stuffed Tomato: https://soundcloud.com/stuffed-tomato

Unknown Places  Ft. C4C

https://soundcloud.com/alter-ego-316627754
☺ composer & producer https://soundcloud.com/dreameasycollective
inquiries: aqualina310@gmail.com

**older tracks: original sample used in the description

it'll be okay

aqualina

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