U know how it is🫡🦔

Unprivating coz its just plain disingenuous to not have this be public. This playlist is good not just because its a fire asf compilation but because it Means something.

Feeling.... Blue?

Don’t read it because she’s lying (she knows it so she shows it). Don’t think this much at home. If u got platitudes in yo head…..JUST DONT SAY EM.

Feels like a lie like my heart is going to pump out of my chest. A lie about my conventionality to people that don't matter, also a lie about my growth to people that do. A lie about my person to everyone. There is a schism of where I am and where I want to be that can only be achieved by long term investment but I just crave crave crave crave to be instantly gratified. LOL. I should not delete this stupid caption to acknowledge the shame of self-betrayal and the wound it leaves. I write this to depart from the dead skin but not dispose of it. Read and weep at All these dumb platitudes that aren't even funny. Because all these funny insincere words are just me lying to everyone like I used to. To everyone's long-term detriment but to postpone a short-term realization of shame. Because I am literally too guilty all the time to even bear a moderate average amount of shame. I want to be stronger than this but I'm trapped in the cyclical need for strength to handle the shame I feel constantly but lie about to not confront because Ultimately I lack that strength but I need the strength, I need to break the cycle. Sorry for the dumb caption originally. I want to be as funny as I can even when I'm incapable because I don't want to be alone. I need constant validation even though I am self aware of the fact I should try to be strong enough to stand alone with an internal understanding that I am valid. I want this to be temporary, so I am sorry for the time being where I am not where I want to be. I will achieve this growth by the correct and most sustainable means, however long it takes.

FebMar 23

4 Sami ⛓️

. evolutionary perpetually impermanent self

broodiest bride soup and soft body damage tolerance tribute

NOT even chill that I don't remember what else got deleted though .... YET.

Xyzzzzzzzsept 23

I have dreams where I run at incredible speeds unachievable by humans. In dreams. I run so fast, i let my heart burst like a spraycan. Too pressurized and clotted.

How life feels when you have Cox High speed internet.

Oct23

i see gyaru girls in their skirts i make them twirl
i love to puke i love to hurl
now watch me dripping with some pearls u see me walking down the streets stay in my house i’m such a neet hop back up in the two seat 

and i got my glasses on my face and nobody fkn knows me hidden from the public blood in my cup straight from a nosebleed puking out my insides out vomit all over the car seat let’s get fucked up let’s get fucked up

i see paparazzi and i see my fans surround me i see my haters in the crowd it got me steady laughing i’m off a lot of drugs and it got my vision faded i say i hate myself and ending it is so related

and now i’ll hurt myself it’s become so numb to me and i will slice my body into pieces scrapes all on my fucking knees
hurt myself now don’t need no sympathy
i just need the whole wide world i just need them to see me

gyarupop anthem **paparazzi** (sephyro)

punkinloveee - corpse makeout

nightcore - spiders on the web - cats millionaire

[credits]
@bandiicam 
@eurodancer07

blood splatters love matters is it what you fucking want
so tired so tired i just couldnt get enough
love shattered heart battered now im all a fucking lone
wanting you wanting you please pick up ur phone
x2

baby please just pick up your phone
i dont wanna be so alone
can you please pick up your phone
i dont know what to do i feel so alone
and i sit here so alone
crying my eyes out i dont feel like im home
i dont know what do to where is my home
you were the one u make me feel so alone

blood splatters love matters is it what you fucking want
so tired so tired i just couldnt get enough
love shattered heart battered now im all a fucking lone
wanting you wanting you please pick up ur phone
x2

BLOOD SPLATTERS + EURODANCER07

10:36

complain

note ; this is my worst mix LOL

produced by genshi 
mix @skypebf @1stress @gothlovee
master @1stress 

stress:
i need perfection 
its my obsession 
my girl said she wont slit my throat
shes so protective 
u luv me sm ill b ur obsession 
and u cn b mine 
ur my possession 
all the thoughts up in my mind
SO DISGUSTING!!
nvm bby i j want sum surgery 
i need perfection Ohhhh its obsession 
all these girls tryna copy on my image (yep) 

skypebf:
come n die homicide
slit my wrists like suicide
i don’t wanna c u cry
i don’t wanna say goodbye
bby look me in my eyes
omg i feel alive
omg i feel alive
omg i feel alive

murder suicide
i j wanna fucking die
right by ur side (by ur side)
all u do is lie but i love it
slit ur wrists on live
i’m so o-off it

come n die homicide
slit my wrists like suicide
i don’t wanna c u cry
i don’t wanna say goodbye
bby look me in my eyes
omg i feel alive
omg i feel alive
omg i feel alive <3

@gothlovee
they're so jealous
I feel like paris 
at tha mall 
lets js ball
im perfection
these bitches starin
im infectious 
im so goth
gothlovee gon be famous

stress x skypebf x gothlovee - perfection❤️‍🩹(genshi)

@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

RemixMe

6arelyhuman - Disgusting [Abstractgenesis Remix]

omg yh ur bitch wanna fuck
shes just on my nuts
idrgaf
im so swagged out of this fkn club
i just got mcdonalds when im recording this song
its just really fkn tasty
just like ur gfs loose ass fkn pussy
yh she wants me were gonna get crunk
i just kicked her out she stunk
ur girl is just such a fkn slut
ur gonna get cucked
like ur name is sneako
ask for sex and all she say is no
shes about to fuck ur bro

keep on dancing when im at this club
idgaf imma party til i think im done
im so awesome thats what bitches say
they all want me they start to pay
omg yh bitch im in the club
i just bought this new outfit
now im boutta stunt
sk8r hoes they all up in my phone
shes so goth now im in love

ur girl likes me more than u

Adfhsfdh

[Verse 1]
Realize
Don’t cry

[Chorus]
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies
(Yeah)

[Verse 2]
You loved me?
It was all gone into the night
You left me
It was not the best thing
Had a feeling something’s not right
Always here alone

[Chorus]
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies
Don’t you realize 
I see all the lies

Realize

ringsnot - marley♲

yung lean - kyoto x im god (mashup by ermkvk)

Doja Cat - 4 Morant

Youwerethetease FINAL MASTER

SOPHIE - BURN RUBBER

Hollywood Dream

Ayesha Erotica - Nasty

silverstien - call it karma (nightcore ++++ reverb)

prod: yandere
vocals: kerosene + crescent
lyrics written by: yandere + crescent

Stream us on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/5EyYculuuhEIKCu9IClSV7

Crystal Statues

Lose Control ft. kerosene, crescent (prod.yandere)

produced by rosesleeves & @ezekiel40

lyrics - 
i waited for days to find out that you lied
i hope you knew that for you i would give my life
but i'm guessing you wouldn't give shit for mine
but everything means nothing why did i think i'd be something

[nic: i understand why i do things, it doesn't make me any different alright? i'm attracted to craziness, and you're just embarrassed because i was like - you know - i was like this amazing thing like your special creation or something; and you don't like who i am now

david: yeah? who are you nic?

nic: this is me dad, here, THIS IS WHO I AM]

spotify

Nothing w/ Ezekiel

TESTICLE BALLS REVENGE feat. Lil Wop [speppi dabeppi based freestyle] [real]

original: https://soundcloud.com/sebseb122/bonerr

BONErr (pop punk flip)

prod @januaryyy
vocals by @odel007 and me
mix n master by me

stfu! x_x ft. odel (p. jxlyy)

girls rituals - crystal eye (nightcore)

mom - noneworld

rest in peace tae.

reupload bc it was falsely striked

@lolxanity
@oryx
@nneio
@cuteslit
@rylorie
@roshyw
@5317-2026

#ROFL w/ xaxanity, oryx, neio, cuteslit, rylorie, roshyw, & qtae

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