Lyrics

This might be the fall of all
I feel it in my head tonight
Girl why don't you ever call?
You make me feel so dead inside

All those things I never saw
You said that you were not the type
See your face inside the wall
I guess that's why there's blood on mine

Blood on mine, I see no sign
You don't understand so never mind
I'm not okay, I'm not alright
But you won't understand so never mind

I let you in, that was the wrong move
You did me wrong but I was wrong too
Why should I stay if I don't want to?
Know I shouldn't but I want you

Fell so fast, fell so hard
We got so close, how'd we get so far
Apart from each other? 
You lit my flame then left me smothered
I don't wanna change, I don't wanna find another
She's so fake, how could I trust her?

I don't like it when you lie, how could I?
When I saw you wasn't looking through my good eye
Cause you had so many red flags, left my heart black
I won't get back

All the love I put into your black hole of a heart
You ain't change, not a chance, was a hoe from the start
When I'm paid counting bands, don't you step from the dark
I'ma leave yo fucked up ass where you are

This might be the fall of all
I feel it in my head tonight
Girl why don't you ever call?
You make me feel so dead inside

All those things I never saw
You said that you were not the type
See your face inside the wall
I guess that's why there's blood on mine

the fall. (prod. kubsy)

Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
I don't think that I'm important

You could never hurt me because I'm my biggest enemy
Everyone deserts me and you don't know what that did to me
You don't wanna know about the shit that I got hid in me
They're dark and they're bad, put my body in a bag

Demons all around, it don't matter where I go
I find solace in the sound and I feel hopeless when I don't
Got fans all over the world but I'm stuck in this fucking room
I can't stop feeling this pain and I don't know what else to do

Am I stuck? Am I fucked? Am I shit out of luck?
Will I burn when I die? Have I lost my fucking mind?
I'ma waste, I'ma burden, I won't ever stop this hurtin'
I can't take what I been holdin', I'm so sick of feelin' hopeless

I can't stop this fucking bullshit
My life is some fucking bullshit
My past was some fucking bullshit
My future some fucking bullshit

My songs are so fucking morbid
Breathing I am fucking bored with
My life might be fucking shortened
Don't think that I'm important

enemy.

Lyrics

Drunk, stuck, don't give a fuck
I still ain't had me enough
Why so shook? Knew what was up
I never lied about none

I told you I wasn't what
You were still searching to find
You hurt you
I was just taking advantage and passing the time

I'm not even what's close to divine
I lost hope and I never will find
It again, I'm in the shit again, I'm never fitting in, God I know that I'm not getting in
Your heaven, I'm hellbent on my only purpose

You think I'm at the top
But I feel like I'm losing
Life's hard wanna stop
Something in me keep choosing

To fight off these thoughts
That tell me let it off
That tell me that I'm not
Worth everything that I got

That bitch ain't care
Why the fuck should I?
There's some in the air
That makes me wanna die

So why do I fight?
When I think I'm lost?
Maybe because I
Can only fight when lost

Stuck in a cycle, that's how my life go
Honestly think that I'm psycho
Midnight, can't keep my eyes closed
I might need Nyquil, I never like it when I feel

Like I can't sleep cause you'll be in my dreams
Even when you don't care you're the one that I see
In my life for the rest of eternity
Why this love in my chest keep on burning me?

Why the girl that I love keep on hurting me?
Don't know what's wrong with me, everyone always deserting me
God why the fuck did you burden me? Death is an urgency
All my emotions are murkin' me

mercury.

Lyrics

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

Another mind gone to waste at a job
Another dream down the drain for a cause
That isn't original, only typical
Make you believe what you want only fictional

Feel like I'm violet, invisible
Don't ask how I been, I feel miserable
Happiness only been miniscule
I got a void growing in my skull

*auditory agony*

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

violet. | Produced by p4ra

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

i'll be okay.

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

wired.

i do.

stfu.

Lyrics

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

Hold me don't hurt me, talk to me, don't call me
I'll keep forgiving, if you kiss me softly
I need you as much as I need you to leave
Cause I'm tired of us but without you ain't no me

You're all I had when I was only nothing
I'll take you back so I can feel like something
I know I'm no one, that's why I need someone
A shoulder to lean on, when I don't wanna cling on

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

beautiful bullshit. | Produced by elvien

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

ISSOFU.

curse.

slumber.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I don't wanna go through
Life if I won't ever hold you
I been tryna show you
I was true with what I told you

But you don't care to know me
And you won't ever show me
That you feel what I feel
Guess I won't ever heal

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

ICLWY!

Lyrics

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

I don't care how you feel about the shit that I say
I can say I don't care till this song damn end
I don't care about no promo, I don't care about no label, I don't care about no co sign, I don't care about no friend
Care where I'm going, I don't care where I been
Care what I'm doing, I don't care what I did
I don't care what you show me, I care what you hid
You can say that you love me in front of my face but behind all the scenes all that hate could be big

I don't care, holding my breath, think it's love in the air
I was alone, it wasn't nobody there
Did this shit on my own so it kind of confuses me when I see you asking for help
Don't get in your feelings, I don't care how you feel
When I was all in my feelings they ain't ask how I felt

Okay? Bitch, I still don't care, fuck did you think that this was?
It may seem that I do but I don't, never did & I swear
At one point I did but that girl was a bitch, I loved her to the core, I won't do that again
Say that I'm done but I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again and I'll do it again

I been stuck in a loop, I been stuck in my head, I don't know what to do
Stuck in a maze, I don't know which way is gonna lead me to hell or lead me to be saved
Used to write I ain't know what to say, I said fuck that, now I'ma let my nuts hang
I don't care about a stream, I don't care about a band, I don't care about a bitch, I don't care about a chain

That girl the reason I don't care, I gave her all of my love, in return I got hurt
I know that life isn't fair but what in the fuck did I do to deserve that hurt
Fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Don't try to hide, I'ma find you bitch
Every wall that you build, I'ma burn that shit
Everything that I felt, you gonna feel that shit

you're gonna feel everything that i felt.

Lyrics

And when I'm gone, don't act like that you care cause no one ever did
And there was never no one ever there for me
But now I see that I don't need nobody else so
Thank you all for hurting me and thank you for deserting me
Hate what I've become, please don't pull back on those curtains please
Angel in these songs but in real life, please don't gеt close to me
That girl ain't close to mе so I'm not who I'm supposed to be
Thought by now I'd be better but I'm still not better
And it still got her scent, no, I'm not washing that sweater
If it meant we could be closer again through the pain
Then I probably would let her

please don't pull back on those curtains.

Lyrics

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of these songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

It's okay, don't carе, I just want you here
I just need you back, pleasе don't disappear
Baby, please don't let me go, you're all that I know
If I was Superman and you were Kryptonite, I still would hold you close
You're all that I love, I don't care what you become
You don't wanna come back but I don't wanna run

To no surprise when I woke up you weren't beside me
Wish you'd say I love you even if you do not like me
Girl that's all I need, your validation is all I crave for
Left me with a void but it's okay because without it, wouldn't make more
Of songs I'm made for, you're my missing puzzle piece
But you don't see that angle
Why you wanna leave girl? I'm sorry but you can't go
I act like I'm better but I'll never fucking change though
FR87, baby, I know I'm unstable
Told her that I love her, what she said back was a fable

if i was superman and you were kryptonite, i still would hold you close.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

Getting sick of holding on, that girl's all I need
Nothing else that I could want
Some girl hit my line, I told that bitch to go kick rocks
Your name isn’t hers, I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna talk
I don’t wanna open up, I don't wanna do this anymore, I'm giving up
You divided us, man this shit ain't adding up
You think what I say is crazy, you just ain't been sad enough
You don't understand my pain, you just ain't been hurt bad enough
Ain't no tears inside my body, I done cried too fucking much
’Bout the same damn shit, bout the same damn pain
’Bout the same damn bitch, bout the same damn thing
I can't get out my brain, I’m so sick, I'm so lame

And I'm stuck, I can't change
It’s been so many years and the spot I'm in the same

Getting sick of letting go, I don't need that bitch
I don't want you anymore
I got bitches in my phone I know I should leavе alone
I know you ain't her, I'll pretеnd you are
You can open up but baby I don't need to talk
Tell me your desires, tell me all your flaws
Baby, take me higher, give me what I want
I won't ever find her, I'll always be lost

i could move a thousand miles away and still be in the same place.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

I don't ever get why people leave, man I'm such a mess
Honestly, I don't want you to leave but I think it's best
Say you're not the samе, I don't believe, you'rе just like the rest
God, take away the pain please, I don't wanna stress

I don't wanna feel all this fucking pain
I don't wanna deal with what I have inside my brain
I don't think I'm normal, I just think that I'm insane
I should pull the plug, I know life is just a game

Always up too late, working on a song
Tryna get too baked, I wanna feel numb
Tik-tok-tik, feeling like a fucking bomb
Now I'm underwater, ain't no air inside my lungs

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

i think it's best. (2017)

Lyrics

I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would allow myself to drown

sometimes. (2019)

Lyrics

I been making progress from the old me
But sometimes I wish someone would just hold me
Sometimes all the weight gets me to folding, gotta let go of what I'm holdin
Is it just the drugs or something more I feel?
At this point, I really do not know what's real
I've seen a lot and hurt some more than time can heal
If I slip back in, I'm saying fuck those pills

daemon. (2019)

Lyrics

I act like I don't but girl I miss you
Every thought of you cost me another tissue
I don't wanna make another similar issue
So I won't another get as close as I let you
Come back, please, come back, I'm so sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you, I know the cost now
But if you somehow hear my heart out
I'm sorry that I put our loves flame spark out
If you feel like it's not you I'm talking about know I miss Oats too
I miss all the times we would say some weird shit
When we spent all our nights watching shit on Netflix
I want back all I let go, I fucking hate it, I don't wanna feel love no more

LRG. (2019)

Lyrics

I swear that I'm sick and tired of lies, I'm struggling just to get by
Yeah, I can slide on a hard ass beat but that don't change the fact that I just wanna cry
I swear ain't a day that go by where I do not think "I'd be better off if I died"
I tried let all this shit out but it ain't enough words to speak on the shit that's inside

I gotta spit on that 808 just so people can hear what I say cause when I do sad shit, they be like "Damn you rap pretty good but I just can't relate,"
What in the fuck does it take to show me you care? Don't act like you did when I break
The day that I die don't fall for the liе that people werе there cause I swear that they ain't

What do you get when you mix a life that's hard and give it some shit hand cards
And tell it it's gotta go on to live in a world where all he sees is just dark
You get a bomb with a short ass fuse and all that it needs is a spark
So just stay away, cause the day that I do, I swear imma tear all this bullshit apart

I lost my life when you lost yours, and that's not a play on words
I don't wanna change, I like being sad, not really but tryna be happy's absurd
I try to stay home, I don't wanna drive, sometimes I wanna head straight for the curb
This life is a lie, you say that I'm blessed but it don't feel like it ain't shit but a curse

Wish I could drown in all my tears but I'm numb, ain't able to cry
I wish I could face on all my fears and kill them, but honestly, why even try?
Why this girl calling my phone at 2am? Like bitch, you not even mine
Telling me all of your problems, I cannot solve them, don't you know I'm just a guy?

spark! (2019)

Lyrics

Oh, my life is so, don't even know, it's getting old
All these songs bout the same old shit
Guess I'm still hung on the same old bitch
Switch

If I love another girl, I won't let her know
When I fall in love again, imma let her go
She said she would always stay, tell another joke
Look at me and lie again, imma fucking blow up on you

Like bombs do, I swear I don't want you, but I can't get you out my head
All I really want is you in my bed
I know I'm a mess, you know you could care less
I know you think I'm worthless, I wish that I could forget

But I can't, so I smoke till I blackout
No drugs, I'm awake till I pass out
Still awake, ain't no telling when I'll crash out
Suicidal thoughts in the whip, wanna crash now
This ain't a damn phase, I been stuck like this
Wasn't always but 2014 hit, then I lost my shit, and I still ain't came back
If that was God's wish, how could I praise that?

Life is a disaster, I wanna be Casper
Death is on it's way but I think I can do it faster
I won't regret it, I won't be able
I'm dead inside, I'm becoming more unstable

Wake up everyday and wonder why I wanna die
When you ask me how my day, I'm more inclined to tell a lie
I could never tell the truth, I don't want you to see me
I'll push you away just so that you could never leave me
'Cause in my head, I can already see the end
I'm still not dead, God, why you keep playing pretend?
Why'd I stop meds? Should've known that I could never win
You wanna know me? Listen close cause I won't tell you shit

I'm just a human going through it, ain't nothing special
I'm through it, all the bullshit, I've got a head full
And why you asking me what's wrong? I know you don't care
I'm not the one to cry to cause honestly I don't care

Why can't I quit breathing? Why's my heart still beating?
My life line's receding, life's a bitch, I'm cheating

blackout! (2019)

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

sins. (2019)

Lyrics

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers
What's love? I forgot
Numb in every spot, alright I am not, I can't make it stop
Writing the same songs, I need a new pain
Felt this for too long, maybe I can't change
Stuck in the same cage, why can't I escape?
Death's all I got left, life, I need a break
Leave me alone I don't care anymore at all
I fucking suck, I know
Let me go, let me fall

I found a buyer, soul in the fire
You're such a liar, stab me like Meyers

I'm a piece of shit, I know that
Where's my soul? I sold that
Her heart's gone, I broke that
Hands on her neck, I choke that
I'm not an angel, I'm a monster
Head full of trash, I'm a dumpster
Smoke up the pack till my lungs hurt
Typing up tracks till my thumbs hurt
Heart's not beating, I'm dead
Want me to care? I can't
Red flag, you don't notice
Don't be surprised when I unload it

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