Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

spotify.

XXI.

Produced by septfree x maestrowons

Lyrics

I'm hurt but I don't wanna heal
When I wanted you, all you wanted was him
I'm fucked, I'm stuck on her still
Wish you would say that you wanted me still

I'm hurt, won't heal
Want you but you want him
I'm fucked, I'm still
Stuck on you, what the fuck do I do?

I'm over it, nothing matters at all
I got my back to the wall
How fucking heavy this boulder get? Tired of holdin it
I think I'm ready to fall

Not in love again, I wont do that again
No not in love again, I wont do that
Cause last time I did left a knife in my back
She was the shit, I got treated like crap

I was in bed on my phone tryna call you
But I didn't know you were sittin on laps
I should of known from the way that I found you
That you were a mess and we never could last

I go to sleep kinda pissed
Knowing I'll wake up still stuck in a cycle
Acting like I give a shit
So nobody know I don't care at all about how life go
How fucking worse could it get?
I was broken before, I'll be broken again
I'm fucking stuck in a pit
But you'll never know cause I never vent at all

I never talk and I never will
Cause all of this talk don't make me heal
I wanna stop, I don't wanna live
Ain't nothing in life worth what I feel

Wish I ain't exist
I wish I was never conceived
If wishes were real at all
Then I woulda died when I turned 18

shit song about shit feelings.

Produced by sh1t_happens

Lyrics

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

You'll never call me yours
I'll never see you again
No one will ever mean more to me
Than what you meant to me way back then

I know I'm fucking pathetic
Cause I ain't even know your name
I never held your hand
And I never saw your face

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong

I know that I fucking suck, I know that I'm fucking pitiful
I know I only exist just so that they can have someone to ridicule
All that I wanted was love but that don't exist for me, I'm fucking miserable
Happiness always been minuscule, I should of been dead in middle school

I know what I wanna say but a cat's holding on my tongue
Can you tell me why you went away? I don't know what I did wrong
I ain't even have to write this down cause my boy lux said "speak up"
Late night when I feel so down, I just wish that you'd pick up

Why the fuck would you tell me you care?
Why the fuck would you lead me on?
Why the fuck did you leave me here?
I know you knew you were all that I want

I guess I don't matter
I guess that I never did
You were just playing a game
You were the reason I lived

the mask i stapled on my face just to convince myself it was real.

Produced by NewWhiteBoy, zestymain, mollyred
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

This is the end, all I do is fuck up, I'll make sure I don't again
I don't give a fuck about you, I don't wanna be your friend
No one gave a fuck about me, all I wanted was a friend

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

I can't heal the void inside my soul
You ain't gotta check on me cause I'm already gone
Give me one more night, I don't want you to go
I got something in my mind, I don't wanna let you know

It gets to a point and I don't see it anymore
Sometime real soon you won't see me anymore
Got a soul parasite, I won't feed it anymore
What's the point in tryna fight if I won't be here anymore?

Don't feel bad when something happens
I should of never even made it this far, it was all an accident
Speeding down the highway, hope I have an accident
There too much on my plate and I can't stomach half of it

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

Produced by YOUNG MADZ

Lyrics

I miss a girl that doesn't exist, I don't ever think she did
Don't try to decipher the shit I say, ain't no need cause I'm telling you it
I ain't tryna be abstract, I ain't even tryna be real
I don't even wanna numb my pain no more cause the pain all that I feel

I could build up a whole damn house and I still couldn't call it home
God, it's okay if you send me to Hell cause I went when I was 14 years old
And I don't think that I left, I just decorated my room
I fell for a girl not there, how the fuck she leave me too?

Settled for someone close but close ain't what we are
But we can't leave now, did too much and we come too far
With the way I can say these words, I paint a picture clear like Kodak
It's like every song I'm on, I be calling my spirts and they call back

I ain't scared but I think that you should be
Cause the place I bring you to puts you in a space that you can't leave
You can run off if you want but what's that gonna do?
If what you're running from is already living inside of you?

You should end it, go ahead grab that gun
Go ahead, pull that slide, go ahead let off one
They'll be okay without you, you'll better without them
They don't care about you, don't make this all about them

This where it ends, this is what it all led to
Every path you take goes back here
There ain't no where left to go anymore
But you don't have to worry anymore

You don't have to worry anymore
You don't have to worry anymore
You don't have to worry anymore
Anymore, anymore

WHAT IF IT DOESN'T GET BETTER? WHAT IF I DO THIS WRONG?
WHAT IF I HIT THE WRONG RECEPTOR AND I CAN'T BECOME GONE?
WHAT IF I WRITHE IN PAIN AND SOMEBODY FINDS ME ALIVE?
AND I CAN'T SAVE MY SOUL BUT THEY STILL SAVE MY LIFE?

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

What I feel I don't know why
Feel like I been killed but I won't die
All I feel is pain but I won't cry
Told me that you'll change but it's all lies

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

You don't wanna know the real me
You won't ever understand, you don't feel me
I ain't dead right now but I will be
You should give up now, I ain't healing

You don't need me, you should leave me alone
Fuck how I feel, I don't need you to know
If I don't exist then I can't feel alone
Don't say that you cared when I'm long gone

They think I'm off cause it's all on
What they think is right I think all wrong
The shit that I know I can't talk on
Cause I'm in a place you can't walk on

*auditory agony*

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

agonys allegory.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Said every word that I possibly can
Guess that I won't ever heal and I tried to be good but I really don't think that I can

"ken, i fucking hate you"

I don't care about shit, they don't care about ken
She told me she got a man but I'm still in her pants, like bitch I don't care about him

Honestly I don't even care about her
Made up my mind but I'm still not sure
My only opp myself, might off myself
Fuck around put myself on a shirt

Can't get better but I can get worse
I done tried everything, still ain't work
I ain't even hurting no more, just god damn numb
I don't know what I've become

I don't what I am, I don't know what I should do
It don't matter which way I go, I'ma be wrong with whatever I choose
I guess somebody's gotta fail and I guess that it's gonna be me
I never even felt real, I don't really care if I leave

You ain't gotta act like you care about me, I ain't gone act like I care about you
This ain't an act, I don't care about streams
This where I go when I don't know what to do
Not a performer, I do not care what you think about me cause I am what I am

I watched a movie and tattooed "detmer, garrett" on my arm

There ain't shit you could say that could cause me harm
I made a halo out of my horns
Already told you it's darker than black
I ain't stuck in the rain, bitch I'm stuck in a storm

Every line, no lie
I'm not alive, I'm just waiting to die
Death is the ticket I'm waiting to buy
Don't even ask, I ain't telling you why

Heartbroken harmony, why she ain't calling me?
My love life kinda like the economy, I need a lot but I ain't got enough
Tried to move on but I think I'm stuck
You is not her, I don't want your love
Told me you cared but I called your bluff
I wasn't worth it, I'm not enough

Clock keep spinnin' but I'm stuck in place
Wish I could vanish and leave no trace
Hurting inside but a smile on my face
No one knows what I hold inside
I don't like my head, want a hole in mine
I need a hand, can you hold mine?
You been the problem the whole time

heartbroken harmony.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I know I'm alone but I learn how to cope with it
I won't ever know how it feels to be close with them
I know what I am and I know that they won't like it
I know I won't go but it'd be cool to be invited

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

I know I'm alone, I learn how to cope though
I know you won't call, I'm still staring at my phone though
Standing in my yard, wanna smash my phone on the rocks I'm standing on
Fuck this cliff I'm standing on

*auditory agony*

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

cheerless composer.

Produced by vertigo x centrlx

Lyrics

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

All I feel is anguish, feel like I'm corroding
Nothing could extinguish all the flames when I'm exploding
I'm on a new level, I think you're still loading
Im not saying that I'm better, I'm already where you're going

I can't let you stop me, I cannot let you delay me
Please don't waste yo time, I'm out my mind & you can't change me
Girl, I appreciate the fact you tried but you can't save me
I never wanted to leave june in july but now you hate me

Know what I should do, know right from wrong but I can't do it though
You still got my number, you could call but you won't do it though
I hold on so tight, I should let go but I won't do it though
They think I'm a villain but I'm not, I'm like magneto

I guess I was wrong cause girl I thought you were my only
I'm so fucking cold, I know you know but you won't hold me
Fuck opening up, that shit's a joke cause you don't know me
You don't speak my language, you don't know my coding

bitter ballad.

Produced by vertigo

Lyrics

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

Thought you were an angel, you ain't nothing but a whore
Fuck you bitch, I don't care if you leave me, I'll walk you to that door
Ran out of drink, I'm drunk as fuck, I need some more
So many voices inside of my mind, my whole life been a war

Think I'm playing? Did you forget what I said?
Where the fuck you think you going?
Bitch, you can't leave me till you dead
Wanna leave my ass on read? I'ma leave yo body red with blood because you fucked me up

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

I miss where I was but I can't go back anymore
You were all I had but you don't love me anymore
One of these days somebody gone find me on the floor
I tried for so long but I don't want to anymore

resentful refrain.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

I wanna cry but my tears all gone
I'm alone, I ain't got no one
Don't say that you cared when I'm dead and long gone
I give in man, this shit ain't fun

I give in man, this shit ain't it
Know I don't need it but I want a sip
I seen it coming, I ain't even gone trip
I just wanna go back but I can't even flip

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

white walls.

Produced by kinderyessir & viannoo

Lyrics

*auditory agony*

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't know where I'm at, I don't know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas and I'm over an ocean, don't know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
I ain't got nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

Don't say you care when you can't tell me
Know I'm fucked but you can't help me
Don't waste yo time, you might as well leave
I ain't been fine since you ain't been with me

Already know how this go
So you just might as well go
You ain't gotta waste my time
And I don't really need to waste yours

Say that I don't but I need her
She say she love me but I don't believe her
I'm not a man, I'm a creature
I wear your skin but you shouldn't look deeper

You might see something you shouldn't
Gave it my all and I'm done
I don't make music for fun
And I don't make music for funds 

Please come back, can you hold my hand?
I don't really know where I am
I'm on a plane that's all out of gas
I don't really even know where to land
I wanna change, I don't know if I can
Nothing left, you were all that I had
I'm out of breath, gave it all I had
Wish I could care but I know I can't

I'm in a body but I'm not alive, I'm just tryna survive, I don't even know how to breathe
She don't care about me so don't even try
Even if you did, it wouldn't mean shit to me
Don't try to bring me back, I don't wanna
I'm fine where I'm at, I don't wanna go farther
I don't wanna get better, don't bother
I be telling myself don't call her

When I open my eyes, no color
You were supposed to be mine, no other
I got stuck in a loop, can’t recover
Heart full of scars that I never can cover

*auditory agony*

i stopped pretending this was music.

Produced by Yami's Sin

Lyrics

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

Tears filling up and they falling, I keep myself from calling you
I need to change but I'm stalling, everything that I did, it was all for you
I'm still in pain no consoleance, I went insane, can't control it
My heart was beautiful but now it's molded, all that I wanted from you was to hold it

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

I love you more than you ever could know, I'm alone, I got nowhere to go
It's my fault, I'm not blaming you, no, I don't know why I can't let you go
I don't know why I do this to myself over and over again, need help
I'll be okay when I kill my...I'll be okay when I kill myself

Already told you in cold, all of this music a note
I'll leave it all before I go and I don't think I'm gonna make no more
I give up, I can't take no more, I don't wanna feel this hate no more
Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn., I don't even know my face no more

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

i give up, i'm sorry.

Produced by reactance

Lyrics

Please don't talk to me, don't want you in my mind
I don't wanna do this, wanna end my life
You're not even real, don't fucking waste my time
detmer talked to garrett and they both said "fine"

What's the fucking point? I still don't see that shit
Nothing that I do won't undo what I did
I hope you don't see all of the things I hid
I knew I would be here ever since I was a kid

I wake up and I'm already over it
I don't like how I feel when I'm sober
I used to think "I'll be good when I'm older"
I don't think I'll get much older

Next year I won't be here, please don't cry when I'm gone
I'm already long gone
I'm just living, I'm not alive
Death ain't as bad as going on with no heart

Going on with no soul
I don't really know what this all for
I said I'm okay but I'm not though
I said I'm okay but I'm not, no

what i built now crawls with everything i tried to escape.

Lyrics

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

I say inside of my chest cause I don't have a heart, that girl took it apart
Won't ever be put together again, won't be better again, to be hurt is my part
Space I'm wasting, I can't take this, fuck this life, I wake up and I hate it
Say I don't care but you know that I'm faking, know it's been years but your love I'm still chasing

If your love was a liquor, wouldn't chase it, your love is bitter, I still wanna taste it
Keeping these thoughts in the basement so I don't have to go down there and face it
If I face it I'd have to go end it and I just wanna keep on pretending
Cause that's all I have and that's all I will if you never come back

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go
Even if I don't let you see
Everything that you did to me
Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go

XXV. adorer.

maybe you were right.

Lyrics

Baby, tell me what you need, I'll do anything for you
Hope you know I'll never leave cause we're one heart that's split in two
Said it once in twin flame, I miss your face, can't say your name
It makes me break, I lost my mind when you said bye, bitch who's that guy?

Please don't tell another lie
Already know what you did
Do you remember the night you said you were gonna pick me up but you let me down?
Baby, please pick up, girl, I need you now

You're my twin flame
I miss your face
Can't say your name
It makes me break

I'm a lost and lonely soul, I don't know where I should go
Everything I felt for you, I won't feel for another soul
"Hey, unknxwn. all of these songs about this girl are getting old
And all the songs that you post now don't sound like what you made before"

I guess it's good that I don't care, I never did and never will
I can only take advice from someone that knows how I feel...
And I'm the only one that knows how I feel
Don't say you feel me cause you don't cause you ain't here

Baby, tell me what you need, I'll do anything for you
Hope you know I'll never leave cause we're one heart that's split in two
Said it once in twin flame, I miss your face, can't say your name
It makes me break, I lost my mind when you said bye, bitch who's that guy?

Please don't tell another lie
Already know what you did
Do you remember the night you said you were gonna pick me up but you let me down?
Baby, please pick up, girl, I need you now

1 heart split in 2.

my heart used to be beautiful now theres mold inside.

Produced by Yami's Sin

Lyrics

I know you don't miss me and I know you hate me, baby can you hit my line though?
Remember what you said to me? Remember what you told me? That you'd always have my spinal
You're all that I think about, even if I killed you I could not get you out of my mind though
Every night at sundown, demons they possess me, they been telling me I'm suicidal

I think they're right about that, every night before I sleep, pray to God that I pass
Cant appreciate all that I have cause I'm stuck on the thought that I lost what I had
I want it back I do, I don't know what I should do, baby girl I miss you, fuck all this shit, I'm through

I know you don't miss me and I know you hate me, baby can you hit my line though?
Remember what you said to me? Remember what you told me? That you'd always have my spinal
You're all that I think about, even if I killed you I could not get you out of my mind though
Every night at sundown, demons they possess me, they been telling me I'm suicidal

I think they're right about that, every night before I sleep, pray to God that I pass
Cant appreciate all that I have cause I'm stuck on the thought that I lost what I had
I want it back I do, I don't know what I should do, baby girl I miss you, fuck all this shit, I'm through

I know you don't miss me and I know you hate me, baby can you hit my line though?
Remember what you said to me? Remember what you told me? That you'd always have my spinal
You're all that I think about, even if I killed you I could not get you out of my mind though
Every night at sundown, demons they possess me, they been telling me I'm suicidal

spinal.

Produced by mant1shaperr & grum1k

Lyrics

Can you hold me please? I'm cold
Can you show me love? I don't know what that's like
Every time I tried, it was always lies
And I always cried, why I always cry?

I don't know, why you always lie?
As if I don't know, as if I don't see everything you keep from me
I don't know what else you need from me

To believe in me, I'm here for you
Why you hurt me, baby? I'd kill for you
When you hurt me baby, I'm still for you
If you broke me, baby, I'd bend for you

For you, I'll always do the impossible
'Cause to me loving you isn't optional
We could be on different planets, we could be in different timelines
That shit would not be an obstacle

I'd still find a way to find you anyway
I'm so far past obsession, I crave for your complexion

You don't know how much I need you
You don't know how much I see you
In my head, when I close my eyes
Every night when I'm in bed
I dream of you all goddamn night

syzygy.

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

I put myself on display out of pain
But it won't change the fact you don't know me at all
Said that I would but I still haven't changed
I'ma say that I will but I won't not at all

The person I was and the person I am and person I will be all understand
Nothing we do will have any effect, I was meant to be broken, it's part of the plan

I'm still a sad kid inside of an adult
Say that you care but you show that you don't
Say you'll be there but I know that you won't
Always knew that I'd somehow just end up alone

It's okay though, I've learned to accept it
I'm just a person that can't be accepted
I'm just a person that won't learn the lesson
Soon I won't see it when you send me a message

This isn't a song, it's the only thing right when I feel like I'm wrong
This mic is the only one that I can talk to when I'm out of place and I feel so alone
I don't really care if nobody hears, it never was for any ears
The shit that I'm saying is not what I'm saying
Most of you won't understand what I'm saying

I still kinda wish you were here
Part of me doesn't believe that you're gone
Part of me partially loves you whole heartedly
Pardon me if I don't make sense at all

Never made sense to begin with
Only right, won't make sense when I end it
I keep typing out texts and don't send it
I just wanted someone to be friends with

it's only right, right? | Produced by raspo

Produced by septfree & sockedbeatz

Lyrics

Guess I'm not as useful
As I used to be
It don't matter where you go
I'ma find you so easily

You don't know how much I need you
You don't know how much you really mean to me
I don't need to see if I can't see you
There's a 100 million girls but they can't be you

I don't care about this world if it ain't me and you
I really don't wanna let you go but I need to
I don't understand why you let go cause you ain't need to
If I hurt you, baby I ain't mean to

Can you come back? I just wanna hold you
When you don't text back, regret what I told you
Cause I don't ever open up but I did
I gave you my heart and you don't even give a shit

"Why can't you let go Ken?"
You could turn into a ghost
I'll follow you till the end
Find you where ever you go

Want what I know I don't need
Need what I know that I don't
Empty cause I'm full of greed
I had enough but I still want more

I guess I'm not as useful
As what I used to be
You have no need for me
I guess I'll rest in peace

I guess I'm dead to you
But you're not dead to me
And you could never be
You're all I'll ever need

the wolf who cried boy.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Thought I'd let you know that I'm a sinner
The thin line between love and hate is getting thinner
Won't ever be first place, I'm not a winner
Don't wanna be here in the first place if I ain't with her

When I ain't with her, I don't wanna be here
They say that love is blind, too bad I can see clear
Just wanna be yours, too bad I can't be him
How it was before, I wish it could be again

Girl of my dreams but I won't ever see you again
Living in a nightmare, I wish that I could sleep again
See you in my dreams, I don't ever wanna sleep again
Cause when I wake up, I'll know that it was all pretend

Roses are red, violets are blue
Every word that I said, it was all about you
I still don't understand...what did I do?
You could tell me a lie if you don't wanna tell me the truth

I'll accept anything if it's from you
Let go of everything just to hold you
You're my everything girl, I told you
You're all I need and more

Said that you'd always be here
What would you leave me for
I don't think I'll ever leave here
I'm just a breathing corpse

Thought I'd let you know that I'm a sinner
I just wanna be with her

Thought I'd let you know that I'm a sinner
The thin line between love and hate is getting thinner
Won't ever be first place, I'm not a winner
Don't wanna be here in the first place if I ain't with her

When I ain't with her, I don't wanna be here
They say that love is blind, too bad I can see clear
Just wanna be yours, too bad I can't be him
How it was before, I wish it could be again

*auditory agony*

love is blind & i see clearly.

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Baby I don't know why we keep letting this go on
I'm running on fumes and I don't wanna keep on going
All I want is you but you don't want me anymore
What the fuck I'm living for? I don't wanna anymore

Drink until I'm drunk until I stumble on the floor
Smoke until I choke until I can't breathe anymore
Cry until my eyes dry, sleep all day and stay up all night
Pour my heart out on these songs but I don't open up at all

I'm already drunk but I'ma pour me up some more
I just wanna talk but you don't hit me up no more
I just need a friend, can we please just make amends?
Why'd it ever have to end? I'ma love you till the end

I know that I should but I can't let you go
I know how I feel but I can't let you know
I burned every bridge, I lost every friend
I miss who I was but I can't be that man again

I can't, I won't, everybody I met back then wanna treat me wrong
I got a spirit inside my soul tryna make me go, it won't leave me alone
I never lied every time that I told you I love you but I guess you don't need me though
Oh you think you gone leave me hoe? Why the fuck you think I'ma let you go?

Why the fuck you think I'ma let you live? I can't escape all that you did
Karma is a bitch, I ain't waiting on that, I'ma take these matters into my hands
I ain't even have to write this down, I just spoke up, bitch I don't need no pen
On the day you go 6 feet in that ground, I might figure out how to forgive

Baby I don't know why we keep letting this go on
I'm running on fumes and I don't wanna keep on going
All I want is you but you don't want me anymore
What the fuck I'm living for? I don't wanna anymore

Drink until I'm drunk until I stumble on the floor
Smoke until I choke until I can't breathe anymore
Cry until my eyes dry, sleep all day and stay up all night
Pour my heart out on these songs but I don't open up at all

oblivion.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

A lot of times I don't feel I got no one to talk to
And all the drugs I take I promise that I try and not to
But people just avoid me so I smoke and pour a shot too
I'm walking to my grave cause tryna live is what I not do

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I'm not that guy I used to be
People are of no use to me
Seems like everyone got used to me
I'm falling back to what I used to be

I'm not alive, I'd rather die
Than to keep up hating my life
Girl goodbye, you're not mine
I'm not yours leave me alone (x2)

I'll fade away with the wind
Everyday's a day I hate being in
Or maybe I just hate my own skin
Is it really even that more different?

Cause the world is bitch that's why I say fuck it
Every morning is shit but I don't think nothing of it
Cause it's always been that way for me
God why'd you give so much hate to me?

I can't take it
How'd I make it?
This far I don't know
Cause I keep losing my hope (x2)

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning

i lost her.

Lyrics

Am I real? Am I fake?
Every path that I take always sends me right back to the start of the maze
Lost in a haze of the shit that was broken, I can't really say if I'm happy or hopeless
Fuck it, you think it matters it doesn't, what does? I can say for sure that not love
Every connection I had it was all lust, look at 'em now, they're so beautiful, all dust

Ashes of passion, could never imagine that what really has would have ever have happened
From crying to laughing, from peace to me spazzin', I used to have drive but I fucked up and crashed it
I'm still alive but I wish I could die, told me the truth when I wish you would lie
Cause sometimes the fantasy's all that I need, real isn't something I'm ready to be

Valentine in december
You say you love me but you don't remember
I named, you caused me pain
All girls are the same in the end

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me suppress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time at least

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

december. | Produced by capsctrl

Lyrics

Fucking bitch, yeah I swear to god I hate you
You do all the shit that you told me that you won't do
I might fucking switch, don't you trip out when I do though
Hold up you ain't shit, what I'm tripping out bout you for?

Confused my lust for love, just wanna fuck her
That don't mean I like her, that don't mean I really want her
I might just get what I want and then I'll bump her
Swear I tried to care but she was stagnant so I dump her

I'ma ghost that bitch, I'll haunt her
She gone shake it like a red nose, not thumper
Ass fat, I'm gone hear it clap like thunder
All we do is fuck until we lose it, Oh Wonder

You can hold my hand but you can't save me
Every bitch I loved a sham, they hate me
If you don't wanna give me a chance, don't date me
I can't put my heart in your hands, you'll break me

Fucking bitch, yeah I swear to god I hate you
You do all the shit that you told me that you won't do
I might fucking switch, don't you trip out when I do though
Hold up you ain't shit, what I'm tripping out bout you for? (x2)

senseless! | Produced by Fantom

Happy birthday to me.

Lyrics

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
Fuck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, I'ma be gone

20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like shit

19, wanted her to find me
Last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know
I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope

2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like tracy, toss that bitch I littered

I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died

Fuck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my shit
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me

I know that I'm a mess
So cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less
Getting close to my last breath

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

XX! | Produced by boyfifty

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

I don't mean to be but I been pissed off
Seems like everyone except me just hits off
If you don't accept me then get lost
I don't get life, it's a dumb cause (x2)

Jealous of everyone doing better than I am, cause I can't keep up
Helpless, I don't think this fun, I feel so alone, I don't got no one

It's so dark in my mind
Now the light just makes me blind
I wish I knew love, I don't know what it's like
Cause if it really was, you'd be here with me tonight

But you're not, you're out there
Fucking on some niggah while he's pullin on your hair
I hope that he breaks your fucking heart
How did I get bad? I don't know where to start

Was it when you cut me off?      
We could start a home but you're sleeping in his car
You ain't knew I know so it hurts more hard
That you lied to my face when you didn't need to start

Moonlit rose I fucking hate you
You're just a hoe, I fucking hate you
Where did you go? I fucking hate you
Fucking hate you, fucking hate you

I don't mean to be but I been pissed off
Seems like everyone except me just hits off
If you don't accept me then get lost
I don't get life, it's a dumb cause

Why in the fuck would you hit me up just to block my ass when I show I give a fuck?
I should of let you wreck that car that night you called me off 6 bars
Take note, this is what a hoe does, you'll be better off leaving them to rot and rust
Don't you ever fall for a bitch that need saving, she left my heart so broken and tainted

Don't you call me when you're falling
I can't care anymore
I'm walking off
I'm out of the door

unknxwn.

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