Name: addict. by Archive: unknxwn.
Duration: 1 min 56 s
Description: finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

Lyrics

I fucked up again, that's on me
I feel lost can't find nobody
That could understand my thoughts
I hate my mind, can't turn it off

I don't wanna run but I don't know if I can take this
I am not the one, I got lost in the matrix
Inside not okay but on the outside I can fake it
See my silver cord, I don't want it, I'ma break it

Fly away, I can feel my wings now
Why does every body only want me when I leave out?
I can now be seen by all the things that I can see now
Faces are grotesque, auras of darkness

Where do I go when I'm trapped in the open
By souls that are broken and only are hopeless?
I can't take the weight of my spiritual makeup
I've called God since 2014 and I still feel like he ain't fucking heard me

Where do I go?

Where do I go? I don't fucking know, never really did
When I'm a ghost, I won't fucking know, I won't even exist
I can't even tell now if I really am alive
I been thinking shit like this since I was in grade 5

L O S E & R, I'm a loser
D E P R E & double S, I O N user
My connection with this fucking world is getting looser
My progression in this life is not a thing I'm too sure (x2)

2014.

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

addict.

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Lyrics

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

I got all these feeling I don't talk about
Every time I did lead to someone else just walking out
I'm so fucking scared of what I feel because if I tell the truth
You might see what I see in myself and hate me too

And I don't wanna do that again
I don't ever wanna feel like I did back then
I would rather be numb to it all
That feeling something good just to lose it all

Life ain't what I thought it'd be
Like I thought when I was 16
Felt like I would be so free
That was shallow, now I'm deep

I wanna get lost and never be found
Honestly I'm sick of just being around
One day I'll wake up inside of a bed
But the same day I'll go to sleep in the ground

And on some days I feel like that day could be now
And on some days I feel like I figure it out
But on all days I'm really just keeping it down
So does it even fucking matter if I'm happy?

Cause when I am, I'm not
And everytime I am, I know what I really got going on
Inside my head, some stupid fucking voice telling me I should be dead

shallow. | Produced by greaf

Produced by IOF

@cuts

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Spent so long runnin'
Where am I going?
Don't think I'll find out
Cause I think that I'm foldin'

Spent so long wishing
That things were different
So much time wasted
On things I'm never changing

God I been callin'
But you ain't answer
So if and when I fall in
Don't say there was an answer

To all my agonizing pain
Don't think that I'm the one to blame
Is my sole purpose feeling shame?
Cause my souls worthless, I can't change

| cuts |

No I can't change and I can't breathe
I tried my best, you'd dig your teeth
I was above, you stay beneath
But that's the one you won't believe

You ain't worth the agony
You did it so happily
Fuck me up like I'm to blame
But you are losing your own game

I've been fucked up way before you
Never knew me, didn't try to
Tried to make it work, I did
Try? for u, “may god forbid”

Don't know what that's about
But not everything works out

| cuts & unknxwn. |

Spent so long runnin'
Where am I going?
Don't think I'll find out
Cause I think that I'm foldin'

Spent so long wishing
That things were different
So much time wasted
On things I'm never changing

God I been callin'
But you ain't answer
So if and when I fall in
Don't say there was an answer

cuts & unknxwn. - not everything works out.

Lyrics

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

Wanna hold her, need a shoulder
You were supposed to bring me up, you pushed me lower
It's okay though, I forgive you, and I always will cause I miss you
And I hope for the day that you come back
Don't wanna start over again, I want your love back
Staring at my phone, I'm waiting for you to call back
I lost who I was, I know I won't get it all back

Don't know where I belong anymore
Where do I go from here now?
I ain't got nobody to give me a hand now
I need someone to tell me that it'll be all okay
But nobody wanna talk to me
Did it to myself when I ain't want them talking to me
Gave her all my love, she ain't want it
Thought I was but I guess I'm not important
It'd be smart to move on but I'm a dumbass
Don't care about my future, I just wanna go back

it'd be smart to move on but i'm a dumbass.

Lyrics

I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would allow myself to drown

sometimes. (2019)

Produced by fowni

Lyrics

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the kind of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

Girl I'm nothing without you, every song is about you
I tried living without you but I can't live without you
All I wanted was love, you just wanted to fuck
You fucked more than my body, I'ma need a lobotomy if I wanna let go of you

You need him, I need you, what the fuck did I do?
Can you tell me the truth?
If you do then I swear I will leave you alone
I can't leave you alone, say I will but I won't

Said I did but I didn't
Say I don't but I miss it
I'm alone, where'd you go?
I just wish you would listen

Please can you just hear me out?
Cause your love, girl I can't live without it

You're letting go, I'm holding on
I wanna go to wherever you are
When you tell me you hate me, I hear that I love you
Cause how could you hate me if you never loved too?

Nowhere to run to, baby I'll haunt you
You don't understand, girl I need you, not want you
Alice in a wonderland the type of lengths I would go to
Peter Pan in neverland, girl I'm a lost boy without you

i'm gonna need a lobotomy to let go of you.

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

Don't call me if I'm just your scapegoat
To ignore the pain that you hate most
I know that you're lonely cause so am I
But don't come around me with that damn disguise

Acting like you really might want me
I'm not a toy, don't try me, don't taunt me
Cause I've got impulses that haunt me
Do you really wanna end up as a trunk piece?

That's Detmer talking to Qayin
I'm Ken, I really don't like them
Don't hurt me, that's what excites them
Then it gets really hard for me to try and hide them

They been tryna get out, make something happen
Holes they wanna dig out, fill 'em with some tragic
They don't like to talk, they just really be on action
Once ounce of pain, all it take for them to tap in

Bitch stay away cause I promise you don't want this
You might let 'em in if you even choose to bump this
Burning embers, you can't even stomp it
My light getting thinner, turning into something

Ken stfu, we don't wanna hear you
They making yo blood rush, we gone make 'em feel you
If they wanna touch us, we gone make 'em fear you
Let 'em know they fucked up, then show them the real you

Tryna pull some fuck shit, we gone fuck 'em up now
Throw that body in a ditch, we ain't had enough now
Tellin' us they last wish but they out of luck now
Who left on that damn list? Let's see if they tough now

spotify.

last wish.

lyrics:

Disappointing disappointment death I need an appointment
Life is pointless scream into to the mic until I go voiceless
Overthinking situations till I start to hear voices
My music is a medicine I make from the poison

That intoxicates every single part of me
They said it was a phase but it seems like its a part of me
Only way that I escape, is the drugs that take a part of me
Away from me, the sadness goes away but it takes away the heart of me

So its hard for me, to give back all the love that you would offer me
If it didn't hurt my mom, I would off me
Put myself into a coffin where I oughta be
Yeah thats where I rather be

I'm too weak, life is too much, all this fuck stuff
In two weeks, I'll be heldback, school is rough bruh
I'm amounting to the things that they said I'd be
If you asked them to describe me they'd say "dead to me"

I'm dead to me too, so they're right next to me
Fallin' through a void and there aint nobody catching me

unknxwn. - escitalopram

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

addict.

Archive: unknxwn.

Related tracks