Name: desire. by Archive: unknxwn.
Duration: 1 min 50 s
Description: finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

the lie we live.

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

desire.

Produced by wowthissouzi x jxzxxd

Lyrics

I try to talk but it never comes out right
Don't like the thoughts that I got inside my mind
I wanna call but you won't pick up the line
I swear I try to treat you right but you just always wanna fight

Baby I don't like that
Hit you up but you ain't wanna type back
I ain't ever think that you was like that
What I gave you I will never give that to anyone again

"Why don't you make songs to spread love?" I ain't got none
"If you made a song that sounds like this then you would blow up"
Shut the fuck up, fuck y'all, you can really fuck off
Fuck that, don't wanna go viral for no dumb track

Cause I don't need that
All I need is her and she won't be back
Ever again, won't be better again
Gave her all that I had, ain't got shit left to give

I try to talk but it never comes out right
Don't like the thoughts that I got inside my mind
I wanna call but you won't pick up the line
I swear I try to treat you right but you just always wanna fight

Baby I don't like that
Hit you up but you ain't wanna type back
I ain't ever think that you was like that
What I gave you I will never give that to anyone again

IDLT!

Lyrics

Oh, my life is so, don't even know, it's getting old
All these songs bout the same old shit
Guess I'm still hung on the same old bitch
Switch

If I love another girl, I won't let her know
When I fall in love again, imma let her go
She said she would always stay, tell another joke
Look at me and lie again, imma fucking blow up on you

Like bombs do, I swear I don't want you, but I can't get you out my head
All I really want is you in my bed
I know I'm a mess, you know you could care less
I know you think I'm worthless, I wish that I could forget

But I can't, so I smoke till I blackout
No drugs, I'm awake till I pass out
Still awake, ain't no telling when I'll crash out
Suicidal thoughts in the whip, wanna crash now
This ain't a damn phase, I been stuck like this
Wasn't always but 2014 hit, then I lost my shit, and I still ain't came back
If that was God's wish, how could I praise that?

Life is a disaster, I wanna be Casper
Death is on it's way but I think I can do it faster
I won't regret it, I won't be able
I'm dead inside, I'm becoming more unstable

Wake up everyday and wonder why I wanna die
When you ask me how my day, I'm more inclined to tell a lie
I could never tell the truth, I don't want you to see me
I'll push you away just so that you could never leave me
'Cause in my head, I can already see the end
I'm still not dead, God, why you keep playing pretend?
Why'd I stop meds? Should've known that I could never win
You wanna know me? Listen close cause I won't tell you shit

I'm just a human going through it, ain't nothing special
I'm through it, all the bullshit, I've got a head full
And why you asking me what's wrong? I know you don't care
I'm not the one to cry to cause honestly I don't care

Why can't I quit breathing? Why's my heart still beating?
My life line's receding, life's a bitch, I'm cheating

blackout! (2019)

Polyester Gazoline ⛧ (feat. HENSENTATION ⛧)

"Original Track Date: 6/4/2023"

Prod. by Luxstari

Lyrics:
Sittin by myself, I miss you 
Wonder if i'd be remiss to
think that you were anything, but
thoughts inside my lonely brain,
(Instrumental)
Unpleasant thoughts inside my head,
somethings are better left unsaid, i'm
living on a wire's edge, 
alone but I will soon forget...
(instrumental)

School Daze (Prod. by Luxstari) [No Lead]

Produced by rizi

Lyrics

Why couldn't I hold on?
Now I'm left alone with no one
I pulled it oh so far
Then it snapped and our love is gone

You saved me and in return
I sent you to Hell with a slow burn
Don't hate me, please don't turn
Into the people I've known for far too long

I think my hearts gone bad with the hate I've trapped
Don't remind of myself baby, I know that
I know you deserve what's better
I'll say I let you go but just know that I'll never

The door is always open for you
Until I die I'll be waiting for you to come through
I never lied and I guess that's just why I hurt you
You're not by my side and I just wish that I could hold you

I'll try to move on but I know that I won't
I'll find a new one and try to heal what I broke
Could we have worked out? I guess that I'll never know
Not what I set out but another heart that broke

Another innocent soul that I just taught to not trust
We built up a lot, I missed a screw now it's all dust
Sorry about that, I never thought that
If I stopped for a minute you'd be gone when I come back

spotify.

slow burn.

Just wanna go back to the days when I wasnt depressed and my life wasnt shit
Cause now all I do is just cry in my bed cause I think about shit that I need to forget
When I wake up I reach straight for the shovel I'm diggin' myself deeper into the pit
Life is a puzzle but the way that we live our life puts you in a place that you dont fit

I'm seeing shit that I wish that I couldent
And I'm doing things that I wish that I wouldent
My feelings are fucked idk how to put it
I keep giving up and I know that I shouldn't
But as of recently I have no care
Don't waste my time I aint got none to spare
Said that you'd be there but now I'm like where
I dont play by the rules because life isnt fair
Used to want friends
Now I just want it to end
No longer wanna pretend
Thought I was making my way out the void
But the whole time I been falling back in
This shit is fucked
Why am I never enough
I can never call the bluff
Summer was straight 
My depression was left
But school came right
And now I feel stuck

Always inside of my bed
Sleeping on positive thoughts that are inside my head
Fighting with feelings that tear me apart that are deep inside my heart insted
You feel alive while throwing out lies but I speak the truth and I feel like I'm dead
I'll say my goodbyes and cut off my ties then open the bottle OD on the meds

Why open up? I don't see why I should
Why try to be happy when I never could
I rather fake my smile and say that I'm good
Than sayin' I'm fuckin' depressed
Sick of the shit I been givin' 
I bouta give up because
Honestly I'm fuckin' pressed
I'm gonna snap if you treat me the same as everyone else
And leave just like the rest
Warning you now not to fuck with the last of my feelings
Cause I'll do some shit I'll regret
Tell me you care whenever you can
Because if don't I'll just sit and forget
The way that I'm livin' my life
I'd honestly be better off playing russian roulette
I dont feel like I should try
I'm down in the dumps and I'm fucking upset

desire.

Archive: unknxwn.

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