i'm running out of words to describe this feeling.

Lyrics

Losing every part of me I used to try to be a person that you need
But I don't think our needs are in the same basket
I don't like the way I feel, mask it
I don't like the life I live, crash this
Stupid fucking car I'm in, actions
I regret from the past, reaching
For my fucking soul, I don't need it
Out my fucking nose, I been bleeding
All my fucking goals, lost belief in
All these fucking songs, all these fucking years
In a fucking moment, it all disappeared

a moment in time. | Produced by nxku

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

worthless.

desire.

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

spotify.

bones. | Produced by septfree

my mind lately: 

please dont leave me to rot, all the things that i thought, finally coming through

its a lot to ask, but can i come round soon and maybe speak to you?

and i got this note, full of things in my head i can go on all day,

shit where do i start? im not feeling real and my mind is grey

and as the time goes and passes, sleeping on an old mattress, blunt ash on the bed,

and im not very productive, im just anxious, destructive, use to love this shit.

i step outside i feel like throwing up, i just wanna know whats up, do you have the answers,

cray there's something you're not telling me but i dont even know myself like am i really fucked

dissociation i lose all my patience, im feeling insane,

heaven gates waiting, far away from the satan, ignited flames

agoraphobia

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

Lyrics

Finna stop doing this music shit, I do not give a shit
Everything I do, I seem to quit
My life is full of shit, world is the toilet
Losing all hope and I don't see no benefit

I'll be a bum for the rest of my life
Please do not tell me that I'll be alright
I've made my choice and I'm not gonna fight
Just cause the sun is out don't mean it's bright

They say that money ain't happiness
But everyone's sad and I bet they wish they were rich
Don't even lie cause you're scraping for change
And I know you think yourself that life is a bitch

I'm 17 and I'm already dead
Why do these thoughts always enter my head?
Fuck everyone and the words that they said
Honestly, I would be better off dead

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

Depressive habits, the happiness absent
A negative balance I'm fucking invalid
This is my reason, my heart's always freezing
My friend's keep depleting but I'll keep on breathing

Sometimes I feel like I won't though
I have to remind myself that I won't go
Happiness rare like the lotto, fuck it, my motto
My death will be grand, you'll think it's theft auto

unknxwn. - I don't know what that is

i don't know what that is. (2017)

Lyrics

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

You never told me how you really feel
Silence took over and it broke our deal
My heart gets broken and it never heals
I want to forget so I resort to pills

You played along like you actually cared
You couldn't leave me cause you were too scared
All of my problems you just couldn't bare
You used to be here but now you are where?

These words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Words won't explain all the pain that I'm in
Your name only comes up in past tense like back then
It would've been better if we were just friends
I don't wanna go on in a life you're not in

Why did you have to go leave me alone?
When you were with me it felt like a home
Now I'm just here, all in my tears
I'll never find one like you, that's my fear

unknxwn. - dead

dead memories. (2017)

Lyrics

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

I don't ever get why people leave, man I'm such a mess
Honestly, I don't want you to leave but I think it's best
Say you're not the samе, I don't believe, you'rе just like the rest
God, take away the pain please, I don't wanna stress

I don't wanna feel all this fucking pain
I don't wanna deal with what I have inside my brain
I don't think I'm normal, I just think that I'm insane
I should pull the plug, I know life is just a game

Always up too late, working on a song
Tryna get too baked, I wanna feel numb
Tik-tok-tik, feeling like a fucking bomb
Now I'm underwater, ain't no air inside my lungs

Every breathe I take, I get closer to my last one
Every girl I meet, they just left me like the past one
A lover that will last, I don't think I'll ever have one
You're the one that's telling lies, you're calling me the bad one

i think it's best. (2017)

Vol 1 That I tried

Lyrics:
Got a crutch for a worldview, i’ll budge when I learn to, enough is enough and I’m not that, i hurt you and scuffed all the dirt from my shoes in your bedroom, i never act tough, when I had the right words to, they marked the page up and i burned through resolve

I don’t say much, these days, i’m in awe of the way that they talk, to display such a raw state of mind is an order as tall as the sky, rather hide in the silence then talk unrefined

In a crisis, my mind been divided between a grown life and the light that i felt a child that died and survived at the same time smiled, a gesture defiled enough, by the pressure to hide from what’s not spreading love that you can’t even find in yourself, so the drugs will compel you, they hurt just as much as they help, but to hell with it cause, if the ending is nothing, our lives and achievements are null and our past repercussions are bound to erode to destruction

Fuck could the point be then

Light another joint, leaves scattered on the ashtray, said i’d never fall deep in like i have days pass ‘fore i wake out of bed, and i rise to black of the sky and a river stained red by the things i aint tried

Need love

Found some, but it aint how i thought just

Need something i could say to depart from the stains on your heart that i made, and i maimed you, i’m sorry

I don’t want sex but i wish I knew somethin, to do to connect with you besides fucking

Often times i misconstrue where my trust is, i though i gave it all to you, you had nothing

I could say i’m guilty now, if that’s something though, i just lost control, I’m disgusted, gross grub i rushed the stovetop combustion, keep the heat high and try to feel something close, does crush the soul to see what the meal i made comes to be, it’s charred, dry and broken

*the rest was not written and im too lazy to type it in*

Puer aeternus

Released on August 16, 2025
Nathan Pizano - vocals, guitar, bass, synths, artwork, producer
Label: True Thorns 
Catalog #: TRUETHORNS017

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Searching For Silence

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

i think it's best. (2017)

Archive: unknxwn.

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