I would love to be in and abusive relationship right now

Lyrics finally make sense after i just got out of an abusive relationship, shit hits hard

prod. beingbroke (@beingbroke)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:

[citrate]
how many tries does it take till i’m fine
how many tries till i break and i die
feel so confined bitch i wanna live life
mental declines getting worse all the time
how many tries does it take till i’m fine
how many tries till i break and i die
feel so confined bitch i wanna live life
mental declines getting worse all the time

doing tons of stupid shit so i don’t go insane
feeling like i’m losing it why am i so afraid
doing tons of stupid shit so i don’t go insane
feeling like i’m losing it why am i so afraid

said he want beef with me
bro you’re pleasing me with all your envy
yeah bruh you're relieving me so keep on teasing me
yeah your life is ending

homie got laid out he was defending
and he got played now that boy is friendly
body contortions and there are plenty
do you got organs that you can lend me

fuck it i held on way too fucking long
fuck it i might as well go break more laws
she saying fuck you we don’t get along
she scream i love you when i fuck her raw

make a decision bitch am i the one
hit with precision she shake like she stunned
switching positions i’m making her cum
losing my vision yeah she going dumb

he tried to front but i pulled out my glock now he yelling and running away
empty my gun and i unfold the stock there’s no telling what i’m gonna spray
i’m having fun just by letting off shots they’re propelling right into his legs
he cannot run cuz he got fucking popped now i’m dwelling about all the pain

how many tries does it take till i’m fine
how many tries till i break and i die
feel so confined bitch i wanna live life
mental declines getting worse all the time
how many tries does it take till i’m fine
how many tries till i break and i die
feel so confined bitch i wanna live life
mental declines getting worse all the time

doing tons of stupid shit so i don’t go insane
feeling like i’m losing it why am i so afraid 
doing tons of stupid shit so i don’t go insane
feeling like i’m losing it why am i so afraid

decline [prod. beingbroke]

prod. fendi444 (@fendi444)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:

[citrate]
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me

cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit
cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit

act like it’s a problem i have female friends why
all you do is talk to all my friends and it’s alright
for my own sake this has to end bye
if we take a break bet you'll fuck my friend no surprise

doesn’t make sense now does it
making me anxious suspense now what if’s
then you tell me that it’s fine so fuck it
did it then you started crying you’re dumb bitch
doesn’t make sense now does it
making me anxious suspense now what if’s
then you tell me that it’s fine so fuck it
did it then you started crying you’re dumb bitch

why are you changing my outlook on love
constantly talking bout guys that you fucked
leaving me hanging here i’ve had enough
losing my friends cuz they’re girls bitch it’s rough

you never go days without taking offense
i never do nothing it doesn’t make sense
you truly control me you cannot defend
you truly control me you shouldn’t pretend

and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not
and my friends aren’t real no they’re not

why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me
why do you control me

cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit
cuz i’m getting sick of always feeling like shit
yeah i am so fucking sick of always feeling like shit

control [prod. fendi444]

amv visual video for it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORfFABBNerI
@mch6
@areizaga
@sanperseus
@srfak

yea right... ⚰️⬅️ w/ citrate & MCH6 [prod. sanperseus & $ANFAK]

prod. fendi444
mixed by LXXIV

i've struggled many long years with ocd. i've dealt with every subtype from harm ocd to existential ocd. i am better now but this song was made while panicking at 3am a year ago. i hope you find comfort in this song if you suffer from ocd.

lyrics:
i don’t know what to do 
tortured by ocd 
these thoughts are flowing right through 
my mind cant disagree
and i’m so worried i’m screwed irrationality
i try to cope but ensue
i tried out therapy

nothing changes nothing’s right
should i face it should i hide
nothing changes nothing’s right
should i face it should i hide

scared i might kill myself why’s this happening
and i’m obsessed bout crazy shit like reverse gravity
and yeah it feels like hell it’s so saddening
feel like i’m not in control i feel crazy stop attacking me

i got scary thoughts based around eternity
and i try to stop but my mind is hurting me
and i’m up at night panicking bout certainty
so i try to fight through my day while burdening

thoughts coming in they inside of my head bitch
stop coming in i don’t wanna be dead bitch
don’t wanna kill wish i could get some leverage
don’t gimme pills hanging on by a thread bitch

thoughts coming in they inside of my head bitch
stop coming in i don’t wanna be dead bitch
don’t wanna kill wish i could get some leverage
don’t gimme pills hanging on by a thread bitch

i don’t know what to do 
tortured by ocd 
these thoughts are flowing right through 
my mind cant disagree
and i’m so worried i’m screwed irrationality
i try to cope but ensue
i tried out therapy

nothing changes nothing’s right
should i face it should i hide
nothing changes nothing’s right
should i face it should i hide

OCD [prod. fendi444]

prod. $TRANDED (@strandead)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:

just took my prozac i don’t think i’m alright
overdosing for the fun i think it’s fine
catch me dead in my room and don’t be surprised
slice my neck with every single fucking knife

all this hate no relief
always take never leave
bitch i got so many issues put my blade to my sleeve x2

done with the bullshit i always deal with i just wanna hang myself and end this fucking pain

try to feel okay but people steal it i can’t wait to off you f4gg0ts you’re the ones to blame

take my knife and write symbols on my fucking face
and i love it when my cuts are fucking vertical

take your lives i can’t wait to go inside this place
im about to shoot this bitch up like it’s terminal

stabbed in the back to get rid of me
i just always laugh at the fact that you pity me
even though we had what we had you got rid of me
i just wanna stab fucking stab it’d be pretty neat

just took my prozac i don’t think i’m alright
overdosing for the fun i think it’s fine
catch me dead in my room and don’t be surprised
slice my neck with every single fucking knife

all this hate no relief
always take never leave
bitch i got so many issues put my blade to my sleeve x2

prozac [prod. $TRANDED]

featuring LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)
prod. fendi444 (@fendi444)
mixed by LXXIV (@adam-vanscoyk)

lyrics:
[citrate]
i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

everybody hates me why don’t you
everybody hates me you should too
and i don’t know what to do yah

so i cut myself with all my fucking knives
i wanna trust myself but i just hate my life
i wanna love myself you know i’ve fucking tried
but all these sluts from hell are gonna take my life

fucking leave me alone why you wanna know
what the hell i’ve been up to with all these other fucking hoes 
you made me this way it wasn’t something that i chose
that i chose

lately i’ve been having thoughts of killing you and every single one of your stupid ass friends
hopefully i get my chance i’m willing to stab you until your pathetic life ends

i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

[LXXIV]
if god got me where i am then where does he go late at night
mind is racing devil on my back but he's no where in sight
befriend all the demons at my door ready to fight  fight
dead man walking off the pills, no i'm not living right

pain killers causing my pain, they keep controlling me
doc said i've gone insane, they grab ahold of me
put the poison into my veins, till i can never see
follow me into the dark, where i feel vacancy

vacant minds tend to think alike, lets go fantasize
you decide, if we’ll take our life, see the sunrise
I need help, imma turn the tide, at least I’ll try
yeah, I’ve been in my mind

I need help, I need help, I need help
I need someone that can save me from myself x2

[citrate]
i know that my life goes one way
downhill life is always leading me astray
i know that my life goes one way
downhill there’s nothing else i can say

i’m not scared i just have nobody i just need some help
i’m aware that you’re hella slutty put my mind through hell
please don’t stare you’re not fucking funny you should off yourself
i’m compared to your ex you’re scummy but you’re hot as hell

help [feat. LXXIV] (prod. fendi444)

citrate (@areizaga)
shisui (@shisuiwuzhere)
LYRICS:

shisui:
sendin shots we watch your body sesperate from your soul
cannot walk outside the house unless i’m grippin on this pole
yeah you say you finna stab me but your blade is lookin dull
yeah i sold your gang some perks that are laced with fentanyl 
(hook)
yeah i know i’m in your head
no you cannot talk to me cuz you’re a fed(2x)
(verse)
we slidin on your block we leave your crew dead
weird as fuck bringing up shit i said
you talking on the net we filling you with lead
like we gon run up and snatch that chain on your neck
(hook)
yeah i know i’m in your head
no you cannot talk to me cuz you’re a fed(2x)

citrate:
load my sawed off two bullets for us
please don’t leave now or else i will cut
and i fought off all my urges once
bitch you’ll bleed now cuz you are a cunt
running round in circles all up in your fuckin head
i just wanna know why all you pussies get so pressed
been like 7 days since i’ve taken my fuckin meds
why you bitches always be fakin that you depressed
stop talking to me i don’t wanna hear it all you bitches dumb and your best friend  is a weird bitch
stop talking to me i don’t wanna hear it all you bitches dumb and your best friend  is a weird bitch
putting my blade in my fucking neck bitch
all these fucking bitches tryna fuck my setlist
gripping on her throat i ripped off her necklace
i don’t give a fuck bitch you always get pissed
making me feel like im not alive
stab you in the heart until you die

IN YOUR HEAD (ft. citrate & shisui)

prod. fendi (@fendi444) & raccoonz (@prodraccoonz)
mixed by shisui (@shisuiwuzhere)

lyrics:
bitch i’d take your fucking life but you don’t have one you’re confused bitch
stay typing all on twitter but you’re never gonna do shit
you pussies always talking hella hard but always losin
and if you had a life i’d stab your heart and make you lose it

bitch i’m crazy can you tell
i’m not ever doing well
got your corpse and it’ll sell
to the demons down in hell x2

i got 5 faggots hanging from their necks x4

leave your room you fucking cunt and go outside you fucking bitch
bet if your ass got locked up you’d fucking try out sucking dick
don’t say that you got any bitches cuz you’re a fucking trick
you’ll need more than just gauze and some stitches to get fucking fixed

look at me cunt i will seize you got this rope tied in a knot
all of your bullshit is see through bitch i hope you know you’re caught
yeah bro i would hate to be you and i’m glad i’m fucking 
not
cut you up and then i eat you bitch there is no fucking god

bitch i’m crazy can you tell
i’m not ever doing well
got your corpse and it’ll sell
to the demons down in hell x2

i got 5 faggots hanging from their necks x4

faggot [prod. fendi444 & raccoonz]

prod. mutru
mixed by me

lyrics:
first thing’s first you’re a cunt
always make the worst things you’re a cunt x4

what the fuck do i do, should i end my fucking life
you’re a cunt and i’m through bitch i’ll stab you with a knife
should i run should i hide should i fuck myself or something
all the love i gave to you i know that it meant nothing

hang out with your friends like all the fucking time as if i did not just fuck them
look at em and say my name into their fucking eyes i bet you can tell i fucked them

first thing’s first you’re a cunt
always make the worst things you’re a cunt x4

control [prod. fendi444]

citrate

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