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Blaming Me For Us

cry me a river (prod. w00ds & Roiael)

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

what am i hoping for
maybe an open door
a sign
an answer or something
i’m always fine and then i’m not
i never know when it’s coming
i’m out of touch with my senses
i got mistakes that replay in my mind
filled with anxiety built around time it don’t matter the tenses
it don’t matter the tenses
whether it’s past present or future i see it ending
i feel stupid
talk to my therapist you never cared n shit
i was the one that was there n shit
i never thought i could talk because pointing out flaws always felt like a heresy

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

when i blow up
when this shit done
imma be myself
not for anyone
but that old me
that you knew way back
well he not the same
now he bout this cash
imma bring it back
only for my fam
if you used to know me
then you just a fan
i don’t give a fuck
this ain’t no luck
i put in the work to get out the mud
i don’t give a fuck what you think
i can’t put my mind to it if i ain’t making bands with it
not too long fore i look at my wrist and diamonds dance with it
i been way too modest now i’m just being honest
pay attention to the profit
and now my new girl a goddess

my new girl a goddess
i feel like i'm dying
i feel like i'm dying

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion

apologies (prod. jabarionthebeat x shah x jelly x alek)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

@akumuh - bounce (prod. necu)

love u @seem_bng
Mixed, Mastered & Produced by: @areyoumatthias
Vocals Mixed by: @kayostarri

lyrics:

im starting to think im worthless
cause my lifes a fucking mess
im just going through these curses
please know im trying my best

you're saying its not as bad as it seems
but i know you'll learn to regret me
i wanna learn to love myself
but im just so fucking ugly, yeah

dropping out, disappointing everyone
try my best to make it up to my mom
do my best, that's what you use to always say
now im falling apart on the brightest day

now im bitchin' 'bout how life ain't fair
got me doubled-down, on my knees, tearing out my hair
got one big, happy family, but im never there
cause no one ever gave a shit, no one ever cared

x2

i want to love myself, but im sO F*CKING UGLY DUDE

this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

Warning Signs

not official, just a remix, i really loved this song that rxse made and 
i really wanted to make som to it

official song https://soundcloud.com/feelingmysorrow/two-way-street

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Sorrow - two way street (prod. underwood)

guess its time to just let it all flow again

Here I Sit (Prod. Bonjr & TheJan)

written and performed by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
mix and mastered by: @futoh and @lxstboymusic
produced by: lean teen
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first single of my collab album with my good friend Lxst Boy, hope yall enjoy<3
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lyrics soon.....

Warning Signs

Giovanni

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