@prodsunsetlover
i've been taking my time with releases lately
i just, want to start making things that mean a lot more to me than they usually would, and to do that takes a bit more time than I usually would give myself to make a song.
so i hope you guys enjoy this 1. be safe
get well for those of you who need it <3

~~~lyrics~~~
(2x)
when will we learn 
it’s making me hurt
yeah i ain’t complacent 
yet i ain’t been changing

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i can't reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

i can’t go out
i’ll get overstimulated
guess i’m home bound 
how the hell am i gonna make it?
leaves they fall down 
i can sense the aberration 
ever since i found a little solace 
during isolation

no more dreams when i wake
i’m covered in sweat 
many things that i see in all of them
they fill my heart with pure regret 
just when will i get over it? 

conscious is biting my brain
(conscious is biting my)
(biting my, biting my brain)
but it don’t matter 
i swear that i’ll find a way
(swear that i’ll find it)
(i swear that i’ll find a way)

i won’t think out loud 
(i won’t think out)
(i won’t think out loud)
lying on the ground
(yeah, yeah, fuck)
i cant reach when i cut off my hands 
(my hands)
what’s the meaning in being
in being who i am

threads of hair hang low
the angel you once knew 
turnt her back on the helping help 
that gave her thy wings 
simply in danger
let go
this is just a fever
(this is just a fever...)

thy wings [prod. sunsetlover]

THE SONG OF THE SUMMER
WITH @ejcarrmusic
EP SOON

lyrics:

up three, down one 
soak in the fun 
couldn't catch it too fast 
something hidden in the grass 
thought i left it in the past 
but don't think that i can shake it 
use me for entertainment 
think i'm falling down the hill 
started fading out the thrill 
needing patience when i'm still

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

no shot you're taking this away

i lost enough, can i get another one?
i think im trying to hard to be the one
you know its hard when i always wanna run
i think i’ve finally had enough
of all the shit i take
my conscience can’t be
under all the weight
of half the people
in my day to day
i try to keep the
things you said
behind a lock and key, ‘cause

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

its all the time i wonder
is all of this a blunder?
before the lightning; thunder
you strike me over and over

there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(its all the time i wonder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(is all of this a blunder?)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(before the lightning; thunder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(you strike me over and over)

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

no shot w/ evan carr [immortal x perish]

spotify & apple!

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

times up lemme talk to em
they all want a spot but they ain that locked in
if the money all you care about you fkn up again
never thought that this would end so quickly
girl you got me fucked up can't listen to you anymore
they brag bout this, and brag bout that until they bored
if your ego take a hit you gon be sore
that shit gon hurt you to your core
say that you hate me, say that you can't love.

redlight, i stopped and listened then you looked into these dead eyes
these times don't come too fkn often, i won't let it go
let it go
not ready to lyk, lyk

red light (prod.branwen)

@fleshgolem // @jolst
art by me
single 4
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lyrics:
i remember catching up in december
iridescence in the snow on your face
being healthy is a lot to remember
even worse when someone new’s in your place
i could tell you how i’ve been bout whenever
but who i am isn’t a gracious parade
i know i should’ve written this in a letter, nah
its better written so it loops in your brain

its all silence, it fucks with me, merely
oxygen, saving me, nearly
posthumous, i’m given what fears me
and with the life i’m given, i’m steering
off of a, cliff hoping it kills me
honesty won’t change how i’m feeling
talk to me, cold shoulder, no meaning
so with the life i’m given, i’m healing

it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time

i remember how it felt when you kissed me
time froze when you looked my way
on your neck a keepsake if you missed me
still i feel my heart sink when i think about

it snapping, you fucked with me, dearly
oxygen, saving me, nearly
posthumous, i’m given what fears me
and with the life i’m given, i’m steering
off of a, cliff hoping it kills me
honesty won’t change how i’m feeling
talk to me, cold shoulder, no meaning
so with the life i’m given, i’m healing

it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time
it’ll all make sense in time

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twist the knife

spotify & apple

twist the knife [flesh x jolst]

happy birthday

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 

Take those yellow pills till I’m morphing 
I drink too much till I throw up in the morning 
I just told that bitch that I’m too busy recording 
I will strike you down for my family just like thorfinn
Your bitch , my bitch 
Cause ur never really on shit 
I don’t even really want it if I’m being honest 
Loudest
Cries will always be the loudest 
Crowded 
Why my eyes always drowning?

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me 
But she gave me..

Smackdown! (Prod.Bøjet)

prod. heyzbee & acey
feat. @yungcray

i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

this my last song that i’ll ever write about you
it’s nothing personal, i just finally have withdrew
a lot has happened recently, i actually got a tattoo
i’m finally done with my past i even changed my shampoo
like a lonely dove
i’m actually out of love
it took me all these months
now i’m finally done
flying away, i’m not same
sometimes i wish that i didn’t know your name
low-key miss when you used to call me lame 
but it’s  too late now i know actually have to change 

i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

pull me down 
straight to the ground
you can hear me scream 
as my heart starts to pound
i never thought 
my heart would rot 
now i just think 
will this ever stop 

yungcray:
girl ur presence really kept me alive, it’s been 2 months and I just feel fine, never thought I’d let go of this life, I’ve gripped on  so hard it’s time I dropped the knife, it’s time I healed my wounds, cuz its passing, passing by, and I can’t even move but I think is cuz I’m high, I looked up in the sky no the stars did not align, it was never meant to be simply  a chapter passing by, 

now my life’s so changed I’m going full throttle they not even catching up, all my life in this pain, I open a bottle I know this gon pick me up, I wish I had new ways to drown out the feelings, but I’m just so fucking stuck, i will find a way I will find a way

(2x)
i fly away 
like doves in chains
you used your fangs 
and bite my wings 

flying away, i’m not same
sometimes i wish that i didn’t know your name
low-key miss when you used to call me lame 
but it’s  too late now i know actually have to change

dove (feat. yungcray)

self prod (loop by jolst)

(lyrics)
Fuck all that, id kill myself
before i asked you for your help
its hard to admit but the world seems bleak 
i struggle to find colors even in my sleep
i hardly dream smoke too much weed
hopefully im fine by this time next week
i been strugglin could really use a hand
but its my fault i lost my friends 
x2

but i wont admit it
just give me another dose
and while im at it
i knew that it was close
to nothin, what you expected of me
but somehow i still fucked up everything
but now i must go and my only hope 
is that you'll be fine living life on your own

i'll write you a song in my suicide note
walk out the house with just my clothes
its not my fault i swear i didnt know
id break my legs and have to move on

its not what it seems
baby i been losing sleep

not_there (prod. barelybreath)

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