"people that we idolize turn into criminals"

Alligator -MXJIA ReMX

coprod @31sentinel
guitar by @billsburyjoeboi


LYRICS:

Can you show a little bit of sympathy
Or something please?
I need it
I think I lost my aim, reeling, feeling defeated
I guess I'll write another song and delete it
Because it isn't all what's meant to be 
I just feel like it ain't me, staring at a screen
Falling from the mezzanine I hope it make me bleed

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

I need a therapy release to get blessed with peace, I plead
One shot and I'm down on my knees again
Can you show a little sympathy

Exhaustion runs through my lungs 
Selfishness, it's all for fun 
All humility is gone
So I'll find a way to be fine 
Wish you'd show a little more kindness 
Cause now your animosity's blinding 
Affection doesn't always need guidance 
With two sides, you'll always be biased 
Into me, the need is flowing
Sympathy, you never show it 
It's sad enough, commitment isn't mine
It's adding up, I'm bad enough to die

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm a lie
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

Put another face on and my body in the back-seat
Hold it on my hip, so a buddy couldn't blast me 
Keep it under lid, till my sons get the best of me 
Hold my heart in a hearse like it's meant to be

And you just couldn't believe how
Couldn't believe how I got it back

And you just couldn't believe how I got it all back
I need a new life cause of overreactions, it's
All strife since the day that you left 
I said I wish I knew a way to get the cold off my breath

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

SYMPATHY

SYMPATHY (feat. Dylan Longworth)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/cope 

prod KBL
mastered by anem0s

lyrics:

Think you’re right (think you’re right)
People change, feelings fade given time
But I don’t mind
Change my name, take a break, give the wrong advice

Scrape my face on the pavement
Not playing it safe when
I feel so complacent
There just ain’t no way that
I got replaced and
My heart’s still vacant
What the fuck am I saying?

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I die
Least I tried

Guess if this was your plan then you fucked it up
Was it not enough for you to hold that shit over my head?
Ain’t no place that I’d rather be than reality
No new mentality (still wish I were dead)
Pulled you out like a cavity and I felt the gravity
That I’m just a coward that’s all that I (wish I had said)
There’s no place for neutrality, A new felt duality
When I got nobody to blame but myself

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried
Pay no mind (ain't no place that I’d rather be)
To the way that I cope (than reality, no new mentality)
When I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried

Heard you tried to say you’re sorry I
Tried to ignore you
Like something that’s not important
So maybe I’m holding onto a grudge
That I shouldn’t but I will
I couldn’t swallow your pill
There’s no assurance in hell
So if you tell me you’re down for the count let it all go
No missing out, running ‘round in a circle
Can’t hold me down, run your mouth, jump a hurdle
Get out of town, headed south, because it was
Always you

cope (kbl)

lyrics :

baby i don't do too well with myself
cause we always want something
more than life that we choose to go
i'm not here to live for ever
i'm just taking it slow
cause i can see the future
fallin down in slow-mo

i've been wasting time
i've been wasting life and
with my tears to the ground
i can't get over what i did wrong
i'm running out of sleep
and trying to believe
to get over my head

i'll out of the scene
get me out of the screen
everyone that you see
is not like what they seem

everybody is callin
but i'm the one who keeps fallin
needed somebody to help me out
i'm all alone cause

baby i don't do too well with myself
cause we always want something
more than life that we choose to go
i'm not here to live for ever
i'm just taking it slow
cause i can see the future
fallin down in slow-mo

too late to know again

should've known better than that
no way you can change that past now
and no one else to help you out
it's only you

you're not a forgotten one
but sure you are the selfish one
i'm tryna be the one to save you

cause i don't want that stain ruining all my reputation
used to idolize we forget that they were human
can't break the same cycle again and again this is an addiction
now it turned into a habit we can't escape that

all of the sudden we were so ruthless and
thought that we learn everything that was not a lesson
all that we know is our ego and our perfection
chasing for that money and fame and competition

catch a break know that everything you've earned was fake
where was real love you asking for
but you always wanted something more

the chance in living in this earth is fucking difficult
the people that we idolized turn into criminal
they get away with many things that is a sin to know
cause all of us just need that green paper for our

lives i don't wanna be the same old person i used to be

i'm tryna be the one to save you from myself

too late to know
too late

i'm tryna be the one to save you from myself

walk away i'm trying to find new lives
for you to see the truth oh
it's not the end it's just a path to find your soul
you had enough you always wanted something more
creating enemies that you used to adore

cause i don't want that stain ruining all my reputation
used to idolize we forget that they were human
can't break the same cycle again and again this is an addiction
now it turned into a habit we can't escape that

all of the sudden we were so ruthless and
thought that we learn everything that was not a lesson
all that we know is our ego and our perfection
chasing for that money and fame and competition

i just wanted you to choose your way to me
in a moment you'll be facing my reality
in a second you'll be losing your sanity

take me out of this place

again

produced and written by me :)
mastered by @wubz
you can just calle me when you want 
i'll say exactly what you need to hear 
so baby don't put up a front 
i promise it won't make it easier 



she said
come over 
this isn't over
lock my eyes
and there's plenty i can show ya
 time flies 
you can blink and then it's over 
you should get to knowin me



prechorus

and every time i close my eyes
feel like i closed the distance
ain't slept the whole damn night 
i feel like something's missin
know you feel it to
won't believe it tho
so please just know that 

chorus

you can just calle me when you want 
i'll say exactly what you need to hear 
so baby don't put up a front 
i promise it won't make it easier 


i know i can't turn th clock back 
so i'll tic away the seconds with you babe
i never would've thought that 
this was something that i even had to mention to you baby 
 
me and you we got involved 
off the bat we had it all
didn't know what i was supposed to do
fucked it up it was my fault but 

 you stood by me through it all and 
i'll make it up baby you know that 
got my back up off the wall and 
it's makin a difference i'll show you that so

next time when you come over 
i'll let you know all the 
things i miss about you 


next time when you come over 
i'll let you know all the 
things i love about you

callmewhenyouwant

no one!

mix and master by anem0s and patrick o’neill
with vocals from oldcollin and wishlane

We don’t like to talk much 
You just know me so well 
Get high in the cold months 
ur so beautiful 
And we confide in no one 
It’s just our little thing
You know you can’t trust no one 
We could be alone for the next few months I think 

And you to me 
It’s personal 
We got along for a while
Come around
And it’s clinical 
Like I don’t wanna miss at all
Gotchu lighting up my room full time 

Then I miss your call
Then you piss me off 
Don’t worry bout it 
I’m tryna talk
You tryna talk 
We both get silent 

——
[gibberish in the form of a chorus]
—-
Oh I doubt it
We blowing up 
Ain’t no way around it 
You’re so in love, drunk
Think about it 
I don’t want nobody 
no 
You did me wrong last time
I let it slide, just to let you know 

Big Lie
Cut y’a role 
Fuck whatchu kno
sleeping all inside of my clothes
You can keep for the road 
I think about you all the time
I never let you know
you tryna tell me shit is fine 
you must think you cold

no one (prod.kbl)

unfortunately this will be the last thing i will ever release anywhere. this demo has been sitting in my files and i wanted to just put it out there, especially after my music has been deleted from all platforms. to anybody and everybody who has supported me and my passion, thank you so much and i wish you all the best! 
- ilytwelve/blank

prod. blank

lyrics:
it felt so wrong
until now
mind at peace
through sound
it's been so long 
since i've seen your smile
watch the weeds 
grow all wild
and oh i adored your face 
that never changed 
the river banks 
had our names on them
so here i am waiting 
for darkness to fade 
silence to say
to let go.

yellow ( demo )

prod. @prodbykori

https://open.spotify.com/track/5UvJ3VRgEuHgXzsj9USQru?si=025b84ea23f04a1c

prayforme (xkori)

growing up (feat. jay kim & L A C E)

prod me

lyrics:

All my friends 
They said I’m wasting my life
I’ve had this dream since I was 12
Man I’ll never be right
That’s the way things go
And for all I know
Just waiting for my
Time to reap what I sow (man)
Cash out and relocate to LA
Put my shit in the rear view Im on my way (man)
I know its an upset, I won’t forget

i could put it all down for you if you want
running out of lifelines baby you’re too far gone for me
i see you everywhere lurking inside the streets of the cities im visiting for the first time

I told you we’d make it out
We both know there’s more to life than this
This was never the plot line
And you know that
But would you believe me till the end?
x2

I hope you believe me
At least a little longer
Been pushing these CDs
And I’m only getting stronger
I’m not tryna sell a dream
But I’m tryna build it up
And it’s gonna take a team
We’ve been working more than it seems we should

She got me on the edge of my seat just watch
She’ll get up at any time and just leave mid plot
You don’t trust the way that you trusted before
And I’m just hoping that with time it will show

i could put it all down for you if you want
running out of lifelines baby you’re too far gone for me
i see you everywhere lurking inside the streets of the cities im visiting for the first time

I told you we’d make it out
We both know there’s more to life than this
This was never the plot line
And you know that
But would you believe me till the end?
x2

running myself off the plot line
self sabotage is a hell of a drug
cant get addicted when im already done
but I'm too scared to die
all my friends were just a waste of love
but I kept pushing them away for what
and now I'm scared of growing up

I told you we’d make it out
We both know there’s more to life than this
This was never the plot line
And you know that
But would you believe me till the end?

growing up

growing up (feat. Jay Kim)

stream *+*+

this one is super special for me, thank u guys for everything
produced by me and cricket of 31sentinel
lyrics: 
fucked around and told u all the things that i loved 
don't u know me better than the person i was 
won't u go around and tell ur friends that i suck
 trying to write it over but u know me better 
and i called, u showed no effort 
swear to god u were in my bedroom
 that night must've been a mirage
 a movie in my head that i stumbled on

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

around me, baby put it around me
 i could be a billionaire just put up a bounty
 trip to the midwest and california surroundings
 don't want all that shit that come with being a crowned king
 i left all my family and my feelings at home 
staring at a screen pretending i'm in control 
told all of my friends i'm back to being alone 
showing off my endgame it don't got any holes in it

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart  
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart
 there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

been down, i been a little bit down 
 i eat all my feelings so they don't hit the ground 
picture this i'm working on a energy cloud 
shield myself from everything that ur putting out 
all the other kids they don't look just like me 
rounding up my efforts, set it up times three
 counting down the minutes every time i breathe 
wishfully hoping, i don't wanna think about it now

i know that i could do it all better
 i'm burning up a hole in my sweater 
i'm growing up and i been so anxious
 cus what if i can't keep it to(gether)

but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around
 but i don't wanna think about it now 
somebody take my brain and cut it out 
cus honestly if we just stayed apart 
there'd be a little more of me and less of u around

again

arys vance

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