16 years ago i used to listen this in highschool ... still in 2021 .. slapping my mercedes !!

Cold Like War

Wasted Age

Shadows Inside

This was another song I wrote during those same emotionally turbulent high school years in the mid-1980s. If "Breakin' My Heart" was about the immediate shock of betrayal, "Shattered Illusions" dug deeper into the aftermath - that hollow feeling when you realize everything you believed about someone was built on lies.

The opening line "Midnight shadows, a phone that won't ring" perfectly captured those sleepless nights, waiting for someone who was never going to call. I remember writing that verse thinking about how naive I'd been, how I'd "built castles on empty words." The metaphor felt so real to me then - all those promises and dreams just crumbling down.

What I'm proud of in this song is the pre-chorus structure. Adding that extra emotional build before hitting the chorus made the impact stronger. "Shattering my world" felt like the perfect phrase to describe how completely someone could destroy your sense of reality when you're seventeen and think you know everything about love.

The bridge represents growth - moving from victim to survivor. "I'm done with your lies, done with the pain" shows that progression from hurt to empowerment that I was learning to navigate as a teenager. The outro ties it all together with "Your love was fiction, but I'll rise from this fall" - probably the most mature line I wrote at that age.

Like my other lyrics from that time, this sat dormant for decades until AI technology gave me the opportunity to finally hear these words with music. There's something magical about bringing teenage angst full circle with today's creative tools. The song now has that dramatic, emotional sound that matches the intensity I felt when I first wrote these words.

Shattered Illusions

Isaiah 14:12–15, Ezekiel 28:12–17

Before humanity ever walked the earth, pride was born in the heart of an angel. This track paints the fall of Lucifer — the bright star cast down, rebellion exploding in heaven. Ethereal textures give way to crushing chaos, setting the stage for the cosmic conflict that frames all of history.

LYRICS

Intro

“How you are fallen from heaven,
O shining one, son of the dawn.
You said in your heart:
‘I will ascend above the stars of God…’
But you are brought down.”

Verse 

Radiant fire clothed your frame,
Perfection crowned, wisdom aflame.
Every jewel burned upon your chest,
A throne of light, the holy crest.

Pre-Chorus

But pride was born in secret flame,
The seed of ruin whispered your name.
Eyes that once beheld the throne
Turned to grasp what was not your own.

Chorus

Fall, O Morning Star!
Cast from the heights of heaven afar.
The mountain shakes, the heavens mourn,
The war before time — rebellion is born.

Verse 

You said, “I will rise, I will ascend,
I will be like the Most High’s hand.”
But fire from within devoured your crown,
Lightning struck, you were hurled down.

Pre-Chorus

Cherub anointed, throne-bearer of flame,
Your splendor turned to ashes and shame.
The host of heaven saw you fall,
Bound in chains, awaiting the call.

Chorus

Fall, O Morning Star!
Cast from the heights of heaven afar.
The mountain shakes, the heavens mourn,
The war before time — rebellion is born.

Bridge

(whisper → roar)
“I will ascend… I will be enthroned…
I will… I will… I will…”
—But the throne is not your own.

Angels clash in fire’s roar,
The heavens quake forevermore.

Chorus

Fall, O Morning Star!
Your kingdom shattered, broken, scarred.
The Highest reigns, His word is sure,
The war before time — His glory endures.

Outro

Shards of light fade into night,
Silence crowns the endless fight.
A scar across eternity’s line —
The war before time.

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