Name: TELL ME WHY I'M WAITING (feat. Shiloh Dynasty) by Ash Hossin
Duration: 2 min 12 s
Description: This song tells a story where the singer admits that he can't move on after his girlfriend left him. The song is literally a message to the girl who had to fail him.

The original song is called Mask Off by Future which was remixed by Joyner Lucas. Decided to make a cover of this song, rap with the beat and reflect on my past, the good and the bad before I start my next chapter.

Ash- Mask off (joyner lucas)

This song tells the story about how I met my girlfriend who basically saved my life with her love and care. She taught me how to love myself, others and let go of my self hate. Enjoy.
New music next week

SUMMER LOVE

This song is about stopping racism and how one can be looked down and treated differently just because the color of his skin.
Enjoy.

BLACK'S MISERY

This song tells a story where the singer admits that he can't move on after his girlfriend left him. The song is literally a message to the girl who had to fail him.

TELL ME WHY I'M WAITING (feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

After my girl texted that she is confused if she still loves me or not, I broke down, went to my computer and made this song in an hour. Everything will be okay, just not now.  Enjoy...

Ash - LOSING INTEREST (ft. Shiloh Dynasty)

Ash - LOSING INTEREST (feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

(LYRICS BELOW)
These are the exact words I'd write in a suicide note. We all got our own battles, I don't know how you all feel and how hard it is for you all to fight every single day because our battles are different and they are equally hard in their own way. But I want you to know that you are NEVER alone.
I want you to listen closely to my words, if you're having suicidal thoughts, please understand, time heals everything. 
Keep fighting soldiers. Enjoy....

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Chorus: 

Don't know why I still try
She wonders, "why?"
I don't trust nobody
Not even her

Verse 1
i’mma start this suicide note by apologizing
mom and daddy, please forgive me for disappointing
i’ve been suicidal since i turned thirteen
i’ve been dealing with racism, discrimination and bullying 

guess I got no right to say shit, so i’m leaving
it’s been a while these feelings have been controlling

i got this illness shit called bipolar depression
ain’t nobody ever tried to understand my fucking situation 

and i’m scared to go outside uh
don’t ask of my nation uh
they finna start a rumor saying i’m doing this for attention. uh

i’m scared of myself coz uh
because i know  i might kill me uh
trying to stop me from dying so i’m cutting on my wrists . uh

only friend i got is the sharp razor blade
makes me bleed, makes me cry and help me wash the pain away
don’t call me selfish for taking the road of dying
coz in my eyes you’re selfish for forcing me to keep living

traumatized
i’m scared i’m so confused
yeah
fuck my life
ain’t scared of dying ooh
i wanted to die
found some pills in the closet
this is suicide
don't know if im going to hell or heaven
you
failed to see
that i was already dead
failed to see my fake smile
failed to see my pain inside
failed to guide to right path
failed to see who i was 
but i ain’t saying its your fault that im gone

i’m feeling hopeless
i’m feeling down under surface 
i’m drowning in the deep thoughts, it’s ocean
barely breathing 
barely keeping the head above water
next you’ll see my body float on the water 

Chorus: 

Don't know why I still try
She wonders, "why?"
I don't trust nobody
Not even her

Verse 2
i’mma end this suicide note by apologizing 
fam and friends i’m sorry for disappointing
it ain’t your fault that i am leaving
don’t blame yourself for the tragedy 
i’m just too weak and i’m done surviving.

i thought this for a long time before committing 
it’s been a while since this feelings have been controlling.
i’m surrounded by people who are brainwashed by drugs and they never understood how i really felt inside

scared to make friends uh
anxiety in the morning uh
they finna call me retarded coz im nothing like the usual uh

scared of myself uh
coz i know i’mma kill me uh
dying alone right now  ain’t nobody gonna stop me uh

get the pills and get the water no hopes for the future
later they will love me everybody will be preachers
fake niggas, ex, everybody shedding tears now uh
talking about how i was while i was still alive uh

don’t bring flowers to my grave when they bury me
‘cause when i needed love you weren’t beside of me

misery, bipolarity, anxiety and depression 
fake hoes, fake niggas got me in hard situations

only friend i got is the sharp razor blade
makes me bleed, makes me cry and help me wash the pain away
don’t call me selfish for taking the road of dying
coz in my eyes you’re selfish for forcing me to keep living


Chorus: 

Don't know why I still try
She wonders, "why?"
I don't trust nobody
Not even her

Ash - Suicide Note(ft. Shiloh Dynasty)

Written by: Ash
Produced by: IZZAMUSIC
Inspired by: Tupac: so much pain remix by Izzamusic
Mix and Master: Ash

Stay tuned for the music video on February 24th, on my YOUTUBE CHANNEL: youtube.com/ashtv
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Fake Smile

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TELL ME WHY I'M WAITING (feat. Shiloh Dynasty)

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