Intro 
I remember the night you said it
I never thought we’d end like this

Verse 1 
I said the next step was scary
But less scary with you
That knowing you'd be there
Was all i needed

You said I made you feel safe
Like home, like air
Now I’m standing in the silence
Wondering where we disappeared

Pre-Chorus 
I said I could live with you
Till the end of time
You believed every word
’Cause you thought I was yours

Chorus 
You said you felt alive with me
You said you felt loved
Now I’m trying to understand
How that wasn’t enough

I promised forever so easily
Like it couldn’t fade
Now you're holding onto words
I couldn’t stay

Verse 2 
You questioned how you loved me
How i stayed
You said you were grateful every day
I felt the same

I called you my prince charming
Said you were the best thing
Now your left with a fairytale
That didn’t mean a thing

Pre-Chorus (female vocal)
You said you wanted every adventure
Every goal in our sight
Now i’m chasing ghosts alone
Through empty nights

Chorus 
You said you wanted the bad
If it meant the good was real
Now you left me with the worst part
And nothing to heal

I said we’d make each other happy
Crazy in love
Now your breaking down alone
Trying to give me up

Final Chorus 
You were the best thing that happened to me
I know that part was true
I gave you every piece of me
And I’d still choose you

Love shouldn’t ever feel this fragile
If it was real all along
Now your living with the echoes
Of a future that’s gone

Outro 
I love you
Yours truly

Yours Truly

Verse 1

You said forever and always
Like it couldn’t fade
I held onto every promise
You gave away

There’s a red front door in my head
Still painted bright
A house we never made it to
But I see it every night

Pre-Chorus

I tried to be everything
You needed me to become
But no matter how hard I tried
It was still not enough

Chorus

I’m living with what could have been
A life we almost knew
Every road I walk alone
Still leads me back to you

I gave you all I had to give
Every broken part of me
I loved you like it was forever
You forgot what love should be

Verse 2

I still have the notes you wrote me
Said I made you feel alive
“To handsome, from mi amor”
Words I thought would never die

Signed at the bottom in your handwriting
Like it would always stay
“te amo, mi amor
Por siempre y para siempre”
Now those words just fade

Pre-Chorus 2

There’s a pain that lives in my chest
That never lets me sleep
Every memory I boxed away
Still cuts too deep

Chorus

I’m living with what could have been
The future we designed
Kids, a name, a life together
That still lives in my mind

I tried to make you stay with me
Tried to love you through the cracks
I would’ve done anything
Just to have you back

Bridge (quiet, breaking)

Do you ever think about me
Like I think about you?
Do you ever read those letters
Wondering if they were true?

Break (memory / echo)
You said I made you feel safe
Like home, like love
You  said forever so easily
Like it was enough

Final Chorus (big, restrained, emotional release)

I don’t hate you for leaving
I hate that I still care
I hate that loving you
Is something I still wear

You were the best thing that happened
At least that part is true
And even after everything
I’d still choose you

Outro (soft, final)

This was everything we were
Signed in love…
Yours truly

Everything We Were

Verse 1

We’ve been through nights we don’t talk about
Laughed through the pain, figured life out
You saw me at my worst days
Never once walked away

You know when I’m not alright
Even when I say I’m fine
You’ve been solid through the noise
When I didn’t have a choice

Pre-Chorus

I don’t say this enough
But I mean every word
Some people come and go
But you never did

Chorus

I don’t want to lose my best friend
Not to time, not to distance
Life keeps pulling us different ways
I just don’t want this to fade

You’re my brother, not by blood
But you showed up when it mattered most
No matter where this life takes us
Don’t let this fade

Verse 2

We’ve talked about everything
Dreams, regrets, everything in between
You know my history, all my scars
You knew who I was from the start

I know life gets heavy
Jobs, families, responsibilities
But no matter how far we go
I hope you always know

Pre-Chorus

I don’t need constant words
Or to talk every day
I just need to know
This won’t disappear

Chorus

I don’t want to lose my best friend
Not to silence or circumstance
We don’t have to stay the same
I just don’t want us erased

You’re my brother, my backbone
You’re the one who kept me whole
No matter how this world bends
Don’t let this end

Bridge (honest, stripped)

If we drift, I hope we find our way
If time pulls us apart someday
Just know I’m always right here
Same loyalty, same place

Final Chorus (strong, steady)

I don’t want to lose my best friend
You’re part of who I am
Years don’t change what we built
That’s something I’ll defend

Life may change the setting
But not the respect
No matter where we end up
Don’t let this fade

Outro (quiet, sincere)

You’re my brother
Always

Don't Let This Fade

Verse 1

There’s a price to loving you
Nobody talks about
It’s being sad in empty rooms
While the world moves out

I’m always waiting on a ghost
That won’t come home
I put my life on pause for you
And I’m paying for it alone

Pre-Chorus

I carry this weight every day
Like I deserve the pain
I don’t know how to let you go
But staying feels the same

Chorus

This is the cost of holding on
Being sad, being numb
Always waiting for a call
That never comes

I don’t think I’d be happy
Even with someone new
If I don’t let you go
I’ll never make it through

Verse 2

I smile around people
But it never feels real
I tell myself I’m healing
But I’m still depressed

I’m scared if I keep living here
In this in-between
These thoughts in my head
Start swallowing me

Pre-Chorus 2

I don’t want to disappear
I don’t want to lose control
But holding onto you this long
Is breaking my soul

Chorus

This is the cost of holding on
Always stuck in my head
Replaying every word
You ever said

I want to be happy with someone else
I know that’s true
But I can’t build a future
If I’m still holding onto you

Bridge (quiet, honest)

Sometimes the darkness scares me
I won’t lie about that
I need to find a way forward
Before I can’t come back

Final Chorus (stronger, resolved)

I don’t want to die for love
I want to live again
I want to feel something real
When I’m with someone else

If letting go is survival
Then maybe that’s the truth
The cost of holding on
Is losing myself to you

Outro (soft, hopeful but tired)

I need to move on
So I can be happy too

The Cost of Holding On

Verse 1

You made me believe it was all on me
Said I needed space, said I needed change
Told me work on myself, fix everything
Like I was the reason you felt this way

Three months of silence, biting my tongue
Thinking I was the problem all along
Now you look me dead in the face and say
You don’t know what you want — WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN

Pre-Chorus

Four fucking years you were happy with me
Now overnight you’re a stranger to me
You say you’re lost, but you’re crystal clear
You just don’t want me here

Chorus

You don’t know what you want?
Are you fucking kidding me?
You knew my heart, you knew my name
You said you couldn’t live without me

Now all of a sudden you changed your mind
And I’m the one left bleeding here
You don’t know what you want
But you knew you didn’t want me

Verse 2

You moved on so fast — just you and yourself
Smiling like you didn’t leave me with hell
I’m here alone with nothing left
And you’re fine, you’re fucking fine

I’m starting to forget your voice
And I don’t know if that’s a curse or a choice
The thought of you on someone else’s skin
Makes my chest cave in

Pre-Chorus 2

The panic hits, I can’t fucking breathe
I hate what you turned me into
I hate the thoughts you planted in my head
I hate that I still think of you

Chorus

You don’t know what you want?
Are you fucking kidding me?
You said I was your everything
Now you won’t even look at me

You left me with the pain
Left me with the fear
You don’t know what you want
But you disappeared

Bridge (half-time / breakdown-ready)

I told you when we were together
I’d write a song about the love we had
Now I’m writing one out of anger
Because of everything you did to me instead

This was supposed to be forever
Not a weapon, not an end
So tell me — how does it feel
To be the reason it sounds like this?

Final Chorus (big, furious, cathartic)

You don’t know what you want
But you destroyed me anyway
You took my trust, you took my life
Then threw it all away

Don’t say my name
Don’t call my phone
I hate that you made me feel this alone
You don’t know what you want
And now I fucking hate you for it

Outro (cold, restrained)

You don’t know what you want
But I know what you lost                                                                                           I would have gave you everything!

You Don't Know What You Want

Verse 1

I wake up tired from sleeping
Like rest never really comes
My head’s loud before the daylight
Like the war’s already won

Thoughts collide at a hundred miles
Can’t slow down, can’t focus in
My mind won’t shut the fuck up
And it’s only 6 a.m.

Pre-Chorus (build)

I’m not broken enough to scream
Not strong enough to feel okay
Overloaded, overwhelmed
Frozen by the smallest thing

Chorus (big, aggressive clean)

Depression doesn’t scream my name
It whispers and it stays
Anxiety lives in my chest
And it never goes away

I don’t want to disappear
I just want my head to slow
I’m fighting wars inside my mind
That nobody else will know

Verse 2 (tighter, heavier)

My ADHD won’t let me rest
I start ten things, finish none
I hate myself for falling behind
Like I already lost the run

I lose my words mid-sentence
Forget what I was trying to say
They call it lazy, call it wasted
But they don’t see the fight I face

Pre-Chorus 2 (short, tense)

My heart beats like a warning sign
Like something bad is next
I replay every moment
Until I’m buried in my head

Chorus (repeat, heavier guitars)

Depression doesn’t scream my name
It waits until I’m weak
Anxiety keeps telling me
I’m too much just to breathe

I don’t want to fade away
I just want to feel okay
I’m holding onto anything
That gets me through the day

BREAKDOWN (HALF-TIME / SCREAMED)

(This is where it SLAMS)

My brain won’t shut off
My chest won’t slow down
I’m medicated just to function
Just to stay around

Some days it helps
Some days it doesn’t
I hate that I need it
But I hate quitting more

I don’t want to die
I just want relief
I don’t want to disappear
I just want some fucking peace

Final Chorus (anthem + rage)

Depression doesn’t own my soul
Even when it feels like home
Anxiety can shake my body
But it doesn’t get control

I don’t need to be fixed tonight
I just need to stay alive
If I’m still breathing, I’m still here
And that means I still fight

Outro (spoken / screamed, drop instruments)

My mind is loud
But I’m still here

Heavy Every Morning

Verse 1 (Her Voice)

For every day, I miss you
Every hour, I need you
Every minute, I feel you
Every second, I want you

I said I wanted a lifetime
Laughing right next to you
You were the missing part of me
I always said I needed you

Pre-Chorus

If I could give you one thing in life
I knew just what I would do
I’d let you see yourself through my eyes
So you’d know how special you were to me too

Chorus

You were my person
My first and my last thought every day
You held my hand for just a moment
But I said my heart would always stay

Take my hand, take my soul
I said it was meant for you
I didn’t have to try to be happy
It just happened when I was with you

Verse 2

I loved the way we weren’t perfect
The jokes, the fights, the mess
Being mean just to laugh together
That’s when I felt safest

I said love didn’t need to be gentle
Just honest, loud, and real
But somewhere between the words I wrote
I stopped knowing what I feel

Pre-Chorus 2

Thinking of you kept me awake
Dreaming of you helped me sleep
Being with you made me feel alive
Or that’s what I promised it would be

Chorus

You were my person
The one my heart chose first
I said without you I’d be nothing
Just a body without a soul

I told you you were everything
I told you forever was true
I wrote it all like I believed it
Because I wanted to

Bridge (Quiet Confession)

I said I’d never leave your side
I said I knew what I wanted
But I changed before I told you
And I know that’s when I broke it

Every note I ever gave you
Every word you still hold onto
I meant them in the moment
I just didn’t think it through

Final Chorus (Soft, Fading)

You were my person
And that part still feels real
But love written on paper
Is easier than how you feel

I left you with the promises
I couldn’t follow through
I wish my words had been enough
To be honest with you

Outro (Final Version)

(soft, slow, almost breaking)
I meant every word when I wrote them
I just didn’t know how to stay
I said forever like it was easy
Then I walked away

(pause)
I lied
And you paid for it

Love Was Easier to Write

Verse 1 (His Voice)

I found your letters in a drawer
From when we first began
Back when your words were certain
Back when you held my hand

You wrote like love was endless
Like leaving wasn’t a choice
I hear the girl you used to be
Every time I hear your voice

Pre-Chorus

You wrote forever like it was easy
Like doubt didn’t exist
I read them now in silence
Knowing how much changed since this

Chorus

You said love was easier to write
When we were still okay
Before the fear, before the cracks
Before you walked away

I held on to every word
Like they could bring you back
But love isn’t just what you promise
It’s what you don’t take back

Verse 2

You called me home, you called me forever
Said I was where you belonged
But forever doesn’t end in silence
And homes don’t feel this wrong

I built my future on your letters
On who you were back then
You changed your mind without a warning
And left me here with them

Pre-Chorus 2

You loved me how you knew how
I believe that part was real
But love that only lives in letters
Doesn’t show you how to feel

Chorus

You said love was easier to write
Than standing face to face
Easier than saying you were lost
Easier than choosing to stay

I gave you more than just my heart
I gave you all of me
You didn’t lie in every letter
You lied when you didn’t leave honestly

Bridge (Quiet, Reflective)

I don’t hate you for changing
People do, that’s true
I hate that I’m still reading
Who you were when you loved me too

You meant it when you wrote those words
I know you did back then
But meaning it at the beginning
Didn’t mean you’d stay till the end

Final Chorus (Resolved)

Love was easier to write
When we hadn’t been tested yet
I stayed when it got uncomfortable
You left with no regret

I don’t need another letter
From a time that’s already gone
I learned love isn’t how it starts
It’s how you hold on

Outro (Final, Bare)

(low, steady)
You lied
And I paid for it

Written Before You Left

Verse 1

I moved in thinking it was temporary
Just a place to land, just passing through
Didn’t know those four little lives
Would end up meaning what they do

Three loud boys filling up the hallway
One little girl holding my hand
I didn’t plan on loving you like family
It just happened before I had a chance

Pre-Chorus

It wasn’t just a roof or walls
It started feeling like a home
And now I carry that love quietly
Even though I’m gone

Chorus

I miss you more than words can say
Every night, every day
Three boys and one little girl
Still living in my heart this way

I didn’t walk away from you
I just had to step aside
Some love stays even at a distance
Some goodbyes live quietly inside

Verse 2

I still hear laughter in the silence
Still see toys on the floor
Now the house lives only in my memory
But it meant so much more

I wonder how much you’ve all grown
What jokes make you laugh now
I hope you feel safe, loved, and proud
Even when I’m not around

Pre-Chorus 2

I never stopped caring for you
I just learned when to stay away
Sometimes loving means protecting yourself
And carrying the rest each day

Chorus

I miss you more than words can say
Every night, every day
Three boys chasing who they’ll become
One little girl lighting the way

If you ever feel alone
Or the world feels too heavy
Just know I’m cheering from afar
Always proud, always ready

Bridge (soft, honest)

I never got to say goodbye
So I hold it in my chest
Some people aren’t meant to stay forever
But the love never left

I chose silence over breaking
Distance over letting it show
That doesn’t mean you mattered less
It just means I couldn’t stay close

Final Chorus

I miss you more than you’ll ever know
But love doesn’t fade with time
Three boys, one little girl
Forever part of mine

No matter where life takes you
Or how far I may be
There’s a piece of my heart
That’s always with you
And a part of you
That’s always with me

Outro (Final)

(soft, gentle)
I love you more than you’ll ever know
More than words can say
No matter how far apart we are
That love never goes away

Always With Me

Ashes Apart is an alternative metal / post-grunge project built on real emotion, real experiences, and original lyrics. Every song begins as a personal story — heartbreak, loss, anger, and survival — written from lived moments, not fiction.

The lyrics are written entirely by Ashes Apart and then brought to life using modern AI music tools as a creative instrument. AI is used as a collaborator for sound and production, while the emotion, words, and meaning remain human and personal.

Ashes Apart exists to turn pain into something tangible — heavy when it needs to hit, quiet when it needs to hurt, and always honest.

Always With Me

Ashes Apart

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