depressed as ive EVER been prod by irby & jolst

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

instagram.com/xsrvnge

lyrics:

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Face in the mirror, can’t recognize
Eyes too dark, got a heart that lies
You said forever, but forever died
Now I write songs just to stay alive
Cold veins, warm hands, no faith
Still pray I don’t fade away
If the pain gon’ come, let it stay
It’s the only thing that feels the same

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Rain hits the glass, feels like peace
Hate this world but it won’t hate me
Drugs in the dark, no melody
Heart in my hands, no remedy
You said “don’t go,” but I already did
Half of my soul stuck where you live
Heaven don’t call, hell won’t text
So I talk to the moon when I need to confess

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

ghosts in my head (prod. yxngxs)

the lesser of two evils (hollowprpl)

i love u deadwood

[wraith]
Friend
I’m seeing red
You took the words right out my head
And yet again
I make a mess of what is left
The way I tend
Take the punch out of my breath
My heart out of my chest

Darling you just wanna tempt me
Okay
Why’d we have to bet it all on today
I just wish that you would mean the words that you say
Praying that we let what’s meant to be fade

You
left me strangling on words
So I’m left coughing up the verses
What is it worth?
What is it worth?
What is it-

I guess you’re the enemy
I try to see what’s happening next
Y-y-you mangle intentions
With your hands on my neck
E-Easy prey to deception
And I’m caught in the trap
Yeah I keep falling like that

[vampy]
you said trust the pain it'll pass
but i've been counting ghosts in the glass
half empty bottles 
late night calls 
scrolling through my fucking downfall

and i hate how you still smile that way
when i told you that i might not stay 
know your ego is death
rip my heart out my chest
swear your love is a curse
vampy, blood on your neck

i tried
i lied
gave up
two times
saw you
go by
your eyes
like knives

soul numb
i died
can’t run
can’t hide
the truth
won’t slide
it cuts
inside

Friend, I see the fire in your eyes
Burning bridges while we live in lies
Every word you spit, it cuts like a knife
I’m just trying to hold on, survive the night

if you read this when i'm gone don't cry
really i'm just tired of being alive
deadwood forest gave up
kicked the chair and said goodbye

red w/ vampy (cxrter x ryan kelly)

just noise..that’s it(secre x irby)

.bleeding.

Thank you.
Love you.

credits to:
@iamaneerdowell
@babieyummo

---LYRICS---

ghost in the snow, I been faded too long
hands on my soul, but my body feels wrong
left me in the dark where the daylight’s gone
can’t feel nothin’, I can’t feel none

cold veins, frostbite, bleed through my chain
she love pain, guess we one in the same
drip black tears, fallin’ down in the rain
say my name, but it don’t sound the same

ice in my lungs, got a heart full of smoke
lost my youth when I made that oath
sold my soul, I ain’t ever been woke
angel wings turn ash when I choke

lost, in my head too long
every night, I replay that song
snow fall down where my heart went wrong
you said love, but it feel like gone

don’t call back, I been ghostin’ phones
sleep in the day, leave blood on my bones
you ain’t real, you just flesh and chrome
I’m just numb, I’m just numb alone

sippin’ venom out the cup, it’s a ritual
swore its forever but, that sound fictional
burnt wings, yeah, I fell from the pinnacle
scars still bleed, but they look kinda beautiful

venom. (NE'ERDOWELL x babieyummo)

u promised

prod me and unit33 my glorious king
@unit33-976697144

lyrics

i dont know

ripple under static taste
and how long will it take?
and how long before i can escape?
i dont even know why i am here
all i know is that im scared
and im crippled with fear
relate to me
put urself in my shoes
but i think thats hard for u
cuz u have got nothin to lose

I DONT KNOW WHY THEY CHOSE
me out of everybody else

OH I COULDNT TELL U WHY
WHY THEY WANNA TAKE MY LIFE
oh thats not the thing i look towards
when they try to hate on me
but im gonna move forward
desperation fills my eyes as fast as the damn speed of light

wonder if they'll even try
and if i grow some guts i might

I DONT KNOW WHY THEY CHOSE
oh thats not the thing i look towards
when they try to hate on me
but im gonna move forward

desperation


deep inside, i feel it
all throughout, im peelin off my skin
i tear it off again
now im feelin
all too much
i cant fight off this rush
i feel it all throughout
i think im bleeding out
i hope i feel it

i hope you know i wont be back
brain's a prison til i head the toward casket, baby, i just hate me lately
i cant

(come back)
im gonna dissipate
push the liquor down my throat til i see my fate
til i see what could have caused all this malaise
(and then ill burn the path)
i think you coulda been better
but you hated me
i think i found better
but i still hated me

i burned my own soul 
i crushed my last hope
i lost all control
i fell in too low

i cant climb back out
its become my house
i just love this hole
i cant let it go

deep inside
im peelin off my skin
i tear it off again
now im feelin
all too much
i cant fight off this rush
i feel it all throughout
i think im bleeding out
i hope i feel it
deep inside, i feel it
all throughout, im peelin off my skin
i tear it off again


the lesser of two evils (hollowprpl)

ashtodust