crash test dummy - kevin atwater

my mirror pouts
shes in the bathroom 
wishing you bad news
hear she wants out
god it moves

i am impressed 
with how your atoms
arranged and compounded
perfect attempt
living proof

on your rooftop
day the earth stops
hoping the heat waves
would drown us

my Freudian slips
knows what she wants since
shes always honest
wont take the hint
won’t you loom

intense detest
with how your cells keep
regenerating
used to know them
gone too soon

on your front lawn
mid conclusion
hoping the loophole
gets exploited

you know i hate
to state the obvious
but youre a spitting image of him
may i remind you
you dont have to take the shape of
whatever youre afraid of

on your rooftop
day the gates lock
praying peter’s 
feeling lenient

were-

lyrics be like:

watch as i right on time lose my luster
patina starting to form
when you left did you miss lady liberty,
statue of just because youre bored?

enlightening other streets somewhere pretty
blowing up julia's head
well i would leave so to speak if you wanted me
fade into oblivion instead

this world spins like a centrifuge
find me in the earths core
you in higher altitudes

still i was dreaming
i mean hoping
i mean joking 
you'd come around
cut me some slack
come make me laugh
build me an ark to sleep on

i went westward
putting my best foot forward
have you left yet
know i can still make space in this twin bed
if you ever came around

this world it spins
just like a roundabout
caught you tryna play tag
lost you tryna play house

i’ll assume i’ll get the news some
[redacted] hours after you 
it wont
leave me feeling like it used to 
you don't
leave me feeling like you used to 

and honestly you said best
the only thing you’ll ever need is in a paycheck (ha!)
but when it all starts waning (ha!)
libertas is waiting
to welcome you 
with open arms
like the prodigal prodigal son you are
let me greet you in the evenings
let me orbit round your being

this world it spins just like a centrifuge
calls for another encore
you're fine just call me back soon

i’ll assume i’ll get the news some
[redacted] hours after you 
it wont
leave me feeling like it used to 
you don't (/wont)
leave me feeling like you used to

this world it spins

prodigal, prodigal (draft)

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Tomorrow

down the drain down the drain
let me swallow what i want to say
let me wring my hair out to dry 
let me cut my fingernails
let me put up a fight
(Not gonna give up so easy this time)

(Chorus) 
Wish I could go back to being a kid
Wish I didn’t have to fight every day to live
Have wasted too many thoughts
On giving you seconds shots
When u don't deserve it
I will not give in to you this time
I know what u are now
And I know your kind
And I know u don't deserve it x2

think it makes a difference what u say
you’re smaller than any father of mine
think you can make the past okay
well you can’t 
that chance has already passed you by 

(Part b)
I’ll see you in another life
Maybe it’ll be better a different time
I don't know where I’ll go
But any movement is better than just sitting 
Waiting for the wind to blow me
In some direction

(Chorus) 
Wish I could go back to being a kid
Wish I didn’t have to fight every day to live
Have wasted too many thoughts
On giving you seconds shots
When u dont deserve it
I will not give in to you this time
I know what I am now
And I know your kind
And I know u dont deserve it x2

fasting (voice memo)

ash tuesday