Always Too Much Yet Never Enough

HIIII!!! SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO UPLOAD THIS!!! 

The artwork was done by j.ddoodles on instagram!!! 

Youtube upload: https://youtu.be/jM4OBf4Xchk?si=Vaw3X8KWLHvLJxw6

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Lyrics:

Hey, can't you see my face?
You can't leave without a trace
"There's not much I see in your space", I can see more than you can

You're the accomplishment, a masterpiece, all that they hoped you'd become
But I can see your flaw, but it can't outlaw, doesn't mean that i've grown numb

Hey, what's the big idea?
I thought that I wouldn't see ya
I'm stuck here writing words, you see, but I just can't get it down!

You're now a superstar, ignore my scar, be the worst that you can be!
I look into your eyes, straight to my demise, and I hate what I've become

So go on and walk along steps that I depend apon
Grow so deep into a knave, oh, look at the path you pave!
Poke fun at someone's life while you sit down in your hive
Past and present, which is now?
I'd chill out, but I've had it now

I'm breaking this whole world apart, are you liking what I'm seeing?
I'd hate to tell you everything, cause you say you're only teasing
Yet here I stand, and my world has gone so bland
And ain't it grand how things couldn't go as planned?

Well hey, i'm born anew
There's a lot that I outgrew
I know how to improve myself, and the kid you know is dead!

But I'm the outcast here, do I give you fear? I just wanted to feel loved
But yet I hope to try, and I will not die till I see you smile back

Whatcha doing with that blade? what's the point in throwing shade
Now you're calling out my name, I'm an animal to tame!
Poke fun at all my life, all you ever have is strife!
Past and present which is now?
I'd stay calm, but I don't know how

[ Guitar solo ]

I know one day you will see the impact you had on me
Your heart's as cold as stone, and you can never call my phone
I wish that I knew you underneath that blur
But there's not much that I know for sure

I know one day you will change, you could have a better range
A heart as cold as stone could maybe have a change of tone
Yeah, I said, "Maybe you could change yourself, be better if you want!"
You'll refuse, you'll refuse, and like him, you're still obtuse

I'm breaking all my limbs apart, are you liking what you're seeing?
I know that it's not everything, and they say you're only teasing
Yet here I stand, and my world has gone so bland
And ain't it grand how things couldn't go as planned

It's breaking my whole mind apart, are you liking what you're seeing?
I'd hate to tell you everything, cause you say that i've gone crazy!
You only care if i'm gonna get locked up
Now would you say that's a little bit fucked up?

IGNOMINY (Ft. Yi Xi) [SynthV Original Song]

have you ever taken an edible in iowa after a 5 hour flight that departed at 4am followed by a 4 hour drive with no sleep and a stomach full exclusively of old nerds gummy clusters you found in your friend's car? did you then proceed to have a panic attack where you believed you were stuck in a seconds-long time loop and u kept forgetting and rediscovering the fact u were stuck in that time loop every time it looped? did you then to proceed to sleep for 6 hours in the living room where your friends got to hear you sleep talk in arabic? well THIS ALBUM IS FOR YOU!!!

All or Nothing

Ichor Tears

normal.

C4 Vertebrae Removal

hi guys rose synthv. a sort of lyric dump with a funky beat. 
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lyrics:

Grinding down my teeth 
I won’t hide, I won’t hide 
Pretty crybaby 
I won’t bite, I won’t bite 

Burns growing redder, by the second
By the second, third, sixth, seventh 
Coiled with a sickness, miss- 
You’ve left your skull beside my fission 

Turn the maker, one more minute 
One more minute, swore I’d do it
Markings on a casket, not neurotic 
Nor abstained resentment 

I thought you’d ascertain or ask in vain “what else must you resist?” 
“I’ve only left a stain, I thought we’ve trained you worse than this” 

Poor, sick wolf, nowhere to go 
Count your days, you’re sure to blow 

Racing sparks, my skull is surely fried 
Bide my time ‘till the time is right, I 
Open eyes, suicide, it just feels right 
Lay in line, wasting time, waiting to die 

(Poor, sick wolf, nowhere to go 
Count your days, you’re sure to blow) 

One more bite, just make it better 
Never wake, breathe under pressure 
Lay into submission, no permission 
In fatal position 

Wander through the attic 
Call them frantic or erratic 
Mirror, hold my hand along the passage 
Damn it, simply sick with panic 

Nine, one, one! 
Inside those lovely afternoons 
Swearing we’ve got no more room to hide that face 
What have you done? 
We’ll treat it with ammonium 
Refill when inopportune 
‘Hope to see you soon! 

(Grinding down my teeth 
I won’t hide, I won’t hide 
Pretty crybaby 
I won’t bite, I won’t bite) 

Tuning what I’ve replicated, recreated in a second 
Snuff the candle, condensation 
Start the engine, bite the bullet 

Tell me that it's over, head for cover 
Never wake the mother 
Cut my losses, strike the match 
We’re burning for another hour 

Counting blessings in the static 
Hug the wire, fuel the fire 
Taking air for granted, surely 
This is only my desire 

Nine, one, one! 
Hang up, and watch the headline noose 
Got nothin’ to lose, so don’t resuscitate 
Damnit, I’ve won! 
You’ve promised me a brand new sun 
10-56 on the run 
Sit still, clear the room 
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yt: https://youtu.be/YInlpGRf9pc 
bandcamp: https://ennnetc.bandcamp.com/album/unfinished-business
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN

UNFINISHED BUSINESS / ROSE

brushing teeth with rose thorns

self-performed laryngectomy

yt upload: https://youtu.be/n_-G7Z1iLos

a half vent i made today, i guess

Two Days Stretched To Eternity

19| Alt electronic/Glitchy/loud music, heavily experimental
I don't have any music knowledge I'm just doing this for fun
my music is electronic, glitchy and noisy on purpose

my discord server: https://discord.gg/PbhqEHkYs

brushing teeth with rose thorns

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