everything was blue

medicine

https://geo.itunes.apple.com/us/album/hope/id1230628724?i=1230628735&mt=1&app=music

produced by me
written by me

these lonely nights i just sit and write,
my heart and my mind get into a fight,
write all these songs, try to right my wrongs,
picking up my pieces from night til dawn,
they been left out, right on the lawn,
i cant find them, a part of me is gone but,
its cool, you probably took it when you left,
silent when you walked like an unspoken theft,
lets not forget, i forget the taste of your lips,
now my wishes and memories are all fuckin mixed,
i cant tell the difference between the two,
never spoke a word, but always wished that you knew,
you brang me down, when i was up in my prime,
now im struggling to find the right rhymes,

left me, with nothing but hope,
but i would rather travel the globe,
than to be here with all the feelings you bring,
i guess our thing was just a fling,
dont get so bent out of shape,
this is all just your charade,
and you play it from start to finish,
but i dont want to be finished,

thats cool didnt want you anyway,
i know im lying but theres nothing else to say,
im here, trying to be heroic,
but, you were never devoted,
and i dont know how i feel,
sometimes i need you and sometimes you know the deal,
stay away, dont talk, for a few days,
but love always wins its always been that way,

in the end, life is small,
no one really knows the point of it all,
yeah, sometimes im gonna fall.
your always right and im always wrong,
come stay in my heart, be my guest,
im sorry if its all just a mess,
its me and you against the world,
honestly, im betting on us girl,

had me at hello, 
tried to keep it mellow,
screaming for your name, now all i hear are echoes,
telling me maybe i should let go,
but i tried to, and that was years ago,
left me outside im freezing,
your love is what im needing,
but its not what im receiving,
and i dont know the reason, 
maybe i just need someone to believe in,
relentlessly trying to stop you from leaving,


left me, with nothing but hope,
but i would rather travel the globe,
than to be here with all the feelings you bring,
i guess our thing was just a fling,
dont get so bent out of shape,
this is all just your charade,
and you play it from start to finish,
but i dont want to be finished,

hope

https://geo.itunes.apple.com/us/album/love-me/id1231873888?i=1231873889&mt=1&app=music

produced by me
written by me 

you say you love me, 
i say i hate it,
you say you miss me,
you know i waited,
you say its my fault,
i say its yours,
you say you feel lost,
cause you wanted more,

its my fault, always mine,
i say its yours, i'm wrong most the time,
i apologize, the light dimmed in your eyes,
they used to glow but now they dark like the sky,
no stars, in the night, 
please don't speak i don't wanna fight,
we can pretend its all alright,
and everything we do is right,
but its not truth, we're with the rest,
getting further apart with every breath,
saving us was just a mess,
now you saying its for the best,
i think you get the hint, 
i'm not trying to be mean,
i hope you get the hint, 
but its not what it seems,

cant even sleep with my eyes closed,
but you always hitting up my iPhone,
you said i cant make it on my own, 
i thought i loved you but i don't,

you always act so reckless, 
i'm always so restless,
trying to figure out my message,
but i always keep you guessing,

don't you wish that everyone was the same, 
don't you wish i never said your name, 
make me forget you,
i still miss you

love me

written by me

cigarettes on rooftops baby girl you know we staying up,
taking all these downers, i dont know how you standing up,
never see your face but you hit me up a lot last month, 
crying to your mama saying im the one thats fucking up,

ive been doing me, you been living large,
i been going broke, while you swipe your daddy's card, 
closest that we been, but we still so far, 
closest that we been, but we still so far, 

you hintin at things you want me to do, 
im a bad dude, bad news, still feel for you,
you know its fake, when you ignore the truth, 
i know its fake, so what the hell is true, 

second floor balcony, always looking down on me, 
chasing dreams relentless, i want you to be proud of me,
living quick and reckless, you only see this side of me, 
please dont judge me on who i decide to be, 

matter fact, i dont give a fuck, 
i dont want no give and take, need a break, need to bake, to escape, all the things you say,
complaining to me, im not doing enough, 
tryna stunt out there, yeah you doing too much., 
i know you out there alone, but this life is too rough, 
set up so many dates, but i dont ever show up,

i call you once, you dont reply, 
you call me back, i dont say bye, 
im always saying things i dont mean, 
spur of the moment, gotta catch me inbetween,

catch me inbetween, 
im just saying things, you know i cant sing,
i dont ever dream.

everything was blue

attack