AI


I feel everything but show nothing.
I smile when I want to scream.
I push people away then beg them to stay.
I want closeness but I'm terrified of it.
I blame myself for everything.
I don’t know who I am.
I say I’m fine when I’m not.
I fear being a burden.
I fall apart in silence.
I punish myself for needing love.
I hate being seen but hate being invisible more.
I don’t trust anyone fully.
I expect abandonment even when I’m loved.
I second-guess every word I say.
I isolate to feel safe but feel worse when alone.
I crave connection then feel trapped by it.
I apologize for existing.
I feel guilt for things I didn’t do.
I downplay my pain so no one leaves.
I remember every rejection.
I replay every conversation.
I absorb other people’s moods.
I pretend I don’t care when I care too much.
I want to disappear without being forgotten.
I keep quiet so no one hates me.
I fear being too much and not enough.
I fake stability to stay accepted.
I feel broken but act put together.
I never ask for help but wish someone would notice.
I survive by staying silent.




Quiet

lyrics by https://soundcloud.com/dnag3

God is very much in AudioBake's life. But AudioBake does like angry music, so there's that to consider.


Part:1
Bitch I'm moody 
Bitch I'm fucking Moody/
My suicide is gonna be televised 
Like the enterprise/
Or a wrestling fight 
No God In my Life/
Just porn and some lines 
Why there's gore in my eyes/
Like when al comes on his wife
I need space I need time 
I hate fakes I hate crimes /
But I was a fucking sinner 
No worries, I almost killed a guy/
Relax almost like the skater brand 
When I die I will be caged in hell/
I had an Epiphanie, Life is only Good after a killing spree ridiculous/
Im Hella mad 
Moody fuck the weather man/
Still a psych in my mind 
Call me leather face /
The struggle never ends
down into neather realm/
want this cage to bend 
To much rage and pain in heads/
Feel like Rachel Amber damn 
if I die with the strangest death/
Suffocating with my tail in hand
Iron Maiden fan, torture method 
Let it end strapped with a leather band 
On my neck im aroused from this effing pain/
Want to fuck the nurse in the ambulance 
Radical cum on her severed brain /
Ahh Sometimes I feel like a Fagott Bitch 
Fist fuck Anger fist with my anger fist/

Hook:
My sound is like a skullfuck 
Im insane in the brain/
My music is fucked up 
Scream in your face/
Better keep your guard up 
My sound is like a skullfuck 
Im insane in the brain/
My music is fucked up 
Scream in your face/
Better keep your guard up 

Bridge:
What a lovely day 
I carve out heart's/
And shove them in your face

Hook:
My sound is like a skullfuck 
Im insane in the brain/
My music is fucked up 
Scream in your face/
Better keep your guard up 
My sound is like a skullfuck 
Im insane in the brain/
My music is fucked up 
Scream in your face/
Better keep your guard up

Skullfuck - SVICIXE/DNAG3

AI



You will never be free from pain.
You will never be fully understood.
You will never get the childhood you needed.
No one is coming to save you.
You will be misunderstood and unrecognized.
You will want things you’ll never get.
Your body will keep breaking down.
The world will never be fair.
You will always have to fight for meaning.
You will die with unfinished shit.
You will never be enough for everyone.
You will always get triggered by old wounds.
You will always feel out of place.
You will not get closure.
You will lose people who mattered more to you.
You will never know if you truly mattered.
You won’t get back the stolen years.
You will always be haunted by alternate versions of you.
Happiness will never last.
Most people lie to themselves.
Telling the truth will cost you.
You will always have to explain yourself.
You will question your worth until you die.
Love will not fix you or them.
No one will fully get you.
You won’t ever arrive.
You will always feel like you’re faking it.
Your needs will always feel like a burden.
The world won’t care that you’re tired.
Grief will never go away.
You will not get justice for what was done to you.
Your best qualities came from suffering 



Facts of Life

AI

Oh
Whoa whoa
No no no no

No

I came in
Crying and screaming
Not knowing why
I'm here
And I put in my time
Going through
Year after year

But it's never been clear

They say born bad
Though I try
To be nice
But what I've learned
Is only heard
As bad advice
And it makes me wonder
Makes me think twice

Is something wrong with me
Or just fucking society?

Cuz why is it
When I went to the same
Schools as them
That they can spew hatred
And end it with Amen
Did i miss something
Passed by some omen
That warned me to
Stay away
From anything human

How should I feel
Being I'm one too
But I disagree
With the shit
That others do
And I can't accept
What others call the truth
Make their claims
Without offering
Any proof

Live this fucking life
Playing by their rules
Watching them get dumber
Turning into fools
But they're the ones in power
Who take my hard earned jewels
And they tell me to behave
If not
I'm doomed

People collapse
And make homes on the streets
They're the ones
We look at
As examples of defeat
Yeah, their lives are harder
Struggling just to eat
But they remove themselves
From the system
Because their needs
They system won't treat

Look at your life
And tell me
It's what you desire
I instantly see you
As a filthy liar
And I wouldn't be surprised
If you ended up in fire
Its not my hope for you
But I think it's dire

Maybe if you pray
Forget eternity
Focus on today
And ask for what you need
So you're not consumed by greed
And what you're given
See it as a blessing
It's good enough
To get you through
This world
Its tough

Stop chasing after things
That are out of your control
And don't chase the money
If it costs you your soul
Don't fret about damnation
Focus on today
Focus on the now
When you kneel and pray

Erase your fear

Embrace the love

Thats available

And near

Its a better way to live
For the rest of your years

Integration

Steady Burn

AI

I can
Make you hate me
More than anyone
In the world
In a matter of seconds
With nothing but words
Thoughts about you
That I've prepared in advance
The minute
We started our romance
The worst thing
That ever happened to you
Was when you said
You love me too

I wish
It wasn't like this
But the thoughts
Form in my head
And I know once unleashed
I'll wish that I was dead
Because I love you very much
I do not want this dread
I'd be best living life
If I never got
Out of bed

But life never stops
Things happen
And we met
And its a great joy to me
But also a regret
Because
Love for me
Is not simple
I perceive it
As a threat
Perhaps I was cursed
Or I'm paying
Off some debt

I love you so much
I never want you to leave
But in my mind
You will
Thats what I perceive
Because every body
Always does
I try to stop the bleed
But I always make it worse
Because
I have an endless need

I have a bottomless pit
That nobody can fill
But every time
I meet someone
I think
Maybe this person will
When I realize
It's nothing they can do
I collapse inside
And take it out on you

I bury this monster
Every day
So nobody can see
All the rottenness
Deep inside of me
I wouldn't call it evil
Surely not from up above
It's just something that happens
When you never learn
Love

but it's desperately needed





Love,  Distorted

AI song

Maybe i see it
Maybe you don't see
Kinda pathetic
I can make you worship me
Not saying it's easy
But if it was my goal
Many of you would adore me
And offer me your soul

It'd take some money
But back to me It'd flow
And along the way
You'd give me yours
And thats the way it goes
Once I set up the machinery
Life becomes easier for me

You'll read about me in the news
But I'll never know about you
You'll be interested in things I do
And things i like, you’ll like them too
Some of you will hate me
This I know
But part of your life
You'll live through me
And thats the way it goes

I may face some hardships
I may face some shame
Something will condemn me
I will get the blame
You will judge me through words
Without having any proof
My favor will slip away
Until I reestablish truth
You'll see that I am human
But something in me shines
I'll do this with my money
I'll do this with my time
And then the hardship will be gone
And I will move on
But the thing that mostly bothers me
Is all of this costs
My privacy

This is rather gross
Humanity to regret
But people will hate me
People I've never met
Because the way they are fed
I'll exist inside their head
And some will wish
That I was dead
I may get killed
For someone else's thrills
Or because they forgot theirs pills
And perhaps the greatest tragedy and shame 
Will be that my murderer
Gets fame
And once locked away in a jail
This is where we truly fail
My killer gets a letter from someone
Thanking him for all he's done
And maybe in that letter too
That person will say
I love you

Living in this world
Means we're all a target
Fame just puts one on your back 
You give more reason
To provoke 
Being attacked 

Fear of Fame

Sorry, I'm on an AI kick

Well,
I've seen enough
No longer can deny
Though I've tried
And tried and tried
But this world, too many ways
It makes me want to cry
Has made me want to die
By suicide
But somehow

I survived

Somehow
Something changed in me
Blessed or cursed
With clarity
And now I see things
That I cant unsee
I understand
Much too clearly

I can sit
And examine you
See all your filthy ways
See right through you
Your most disturbing thoughts
I know them before you do
Because everyone I've ever met
Has the same problem as you
And
Unfortunately

Also in me

I always tried to understand
But never really could
How i can be
The epitome
Of everything thats good
I wanted to be
A shining star
But then it became quite clear
That my constant longing
Was just to prove that I was here
Something to show someone
That I did exist
I wanted to be someone
Someone who would be missed
Then I realized
Something I believe
That the purity of goodness
Is impossible for me
To achieve

I think you know what I mean
And I think you do it too
You think you live a moral life
But there's something rotten
Inside of you

This isn’t a condemnation
Not me who will judge your fate
But dont ever lie to yourself
And say you've never tasted hate
There's something inside of us
That we can't control
Its part of our survival
And it tarnished our souls

But I can attest
There is a way
To eliminate
The hate
What finally worked for me
Was finding truth through faith
Very difficult,  but very easy
Once I opened up
Sincerely

Since
Life has been much much
Easier
For me

Shine

lyrics/vocals Gothic Funk
https://soundcloud.com/gothic-funk


UPPERS BRING ME DOWN

MY CRAVING FOR AMPHETAMINES
AT LONG LAST PASSED ME BY
WAS NEVER ABOUT GETTING HIGH
WAS ALL ABOUT THE RUSH, NOW I DON’T KNOW WHY

WHEN I’M UP I TAKE SOMETHING TO BRING ME DOWN
AND WHEN I’M DOWN I TAKE SOMETHING TO GET ME HIGH
BUT WHEN I’M NEITHER UP OR DOWN
I TAKE A PHENOBARBITONE AND FACE THE WORLD ALONE
FACE THE WORLD ALONE

ANTIPSYCHOTIC….ANTIPSYCHOTIC
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
INTRODUCED ME 
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
TO REALITY
ANTIPSYCHOTIC ANT-IPSYCHOTIC
ANTIPSYCHOTIC  ANTIPSYCHOTIC
WOULD THEY STRAIGHTEN ME OUT
OR FILL ME WITH DOUBT
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
INTRODUCED ME TO REALITY
ANTIPSYCHOTIC

WITHOUT THE UPS AND DOWNS
I’D BE STUCK IN CRUISE CONTROL
EVERY DAY WOULD BE THE SAME
REPETITION TORTURING MY BRAIN

UPPERS BRING ME DOWN
ESCAPING THE NORM SEEKING EITHER EXTREME
UPPERS BRING ME DOWN
I ALWAYS FEEL TORN AND THERE’S NO TIME TO DREAM
UPPERS BRING ME DOWN
I ENJOY THE SENSATION, NOTHING AS IT SEEMS
UPPERS BRING ME DOWN
CHAOTIC EMOTIONS, THINKING I’M A MACHINE

BRING ME DOWN
AM I A YO-YO ON A ROLLERCOASTER
BRING ME DOWN
SOMETIMES I THINK SO, SOMETIMES I DON’T KNOW
BRING ME DOWN
SOMETIMES I’M HIGHER THAN HIGH, SOMETIME I'M LOWER THAN LOW
SOMETIMES I’M HIGH

Instrumental Break

PILL POPPING MACHINE
I CAN NEVER STAY CLEAN
IN BETWEEN BOUTS OF SNIFFING GLUE
MY ADDICTION IS RESIDUE




ANTIPSYCHOTIC
WOULD THEY STRAIGHTEN ME OUT
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
OR FILL ME WITH DOUBT
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
INTRODUCE ME TO REALITY
ANTIPSYCHOTIC ANTIPSYCHOTIC
WOULD THEY STRAIGHTEN ME OUT
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
OR FILL ME WITH DOUBT
ANTIPSYCHOTIC
INTRODUCE ME TO REALITY

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