long sleeves is a must
marijuana smoke become my crutch
i was doing drugs instead of buyin lunch
i’m sick of myself i started to do some crunches
stressed out hair fallin out in bunches

i don’t wanna feel sick when i wake
i’m strugglin everyday
mirror betraying my weight
my face is displaying pain
i see castles of love 
in my cave made of hate
i should kill myself today
i keep telling myself wait

i don’t ever wanna leave
i keep ending up in places
with people with the fakest of expressions on their faces
i cant ever shake that i know they motivation
bleedin on the pavement my body gettin wasted

iont wanna feel sick no more
my body became a chore
life got a dick 
n it’s fuckin me like a whore
do a line of the addy 
do another if i’m bored
the only way i could be beautiful is dead on the floor

GULCH’D (RVTBVSTVRD)

TRACK SIX: THE FORMS IN THE PERIPHERY 

things are tugging at my mind
eyes that’s filling up with tears cannot read between the lines
maybe i’m ignoring signs
maybe i’d be better off if i sacrificed my life huh

how am i supposed to move on i got trauma from my last 
finding her body fucking lifeless wondering why, knowing you’re a failure
cause you couldn’t save a person in their darkest times
in their darkest times 

i never knew the felt of love but apparently i’m pretty enough to fuck
yeah blood on my wrists and you laughed it off
i took the blame for everything it’s all my fucking fault
it’s all my fucking fault i said it’s all my fucking fault 

subliminal messages
i’m made of light 
do you think that’s where heaven is?
the path that you walk has, already died so, don’t even mention it 

hiding behind, enemy lines
put em on a crucifix
me and doll got, nothing but time
fuck you poser ass lunatics

things are tugging at my mind
eyes that’s filling up with tears cannot read between the lines
maybe i’m ignoring signs
maybe i’d be better off if i sacrificed my life huh

BETWEEN THE LINES FEAT. MISERYFELL (BRVDY)

directly sampled off "realize" by my broski @fukcortez
https://soundcloud.com/fukcortez/realize

prod. by @zyrom
artwork by @dhaelo

lyrics:
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent (3x)
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til it's hated
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent (7x)
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til it's hated

Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you fathom
In the world of grown ups like my name Adam
Nonchalant as fuck, you gotta put me in a B-roll
Art like da Vinci, I hope my life finds a resolve
The name is Ian, the way I be white as snow
Damn, I'm on my Frozen shit, I won't let it go
Flow smooth like butter, uh, Kerrygold
I'm chillin' at the crib sipping Cherry Coke
When it comes to a litter
I'ma clean all of you spitters
Autosadism the way I'm a fuckin' killer
To all of my instrumentals taking it detrimental
But then you realize it fucks up your mental

Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent (7x)
Realize, you ain't make shit 'tll it's hated

Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent
Can’t tell if I’m losin’ it or that line's just my favorite
Smashin' these drums with primal tones like a caveman
They say I'm pushing thrties, hopefully 'till twenty-nine
27 Club ain't none for me, yeah, I feel too divine
Got to emphasize all the dillemmas I go through
Feelin’ boxed in, no exit I know to go to

Realize, you ain't make shit 'til you make rent (7x)
Realize, you ain't make shit 'til it's hated

I run the shit, no, I know that
I run the shit, no, I know that
I-I-I-I run the shit, no, I know that
I-I-I-I run the shit, no, I know that

YAMS.

produced Kill Ebola
mastered Frdm.wav 

Ebola andy eddie stain
Im a devil off a pill or bottle all the same
Or a God inside a game and saw it all in hate
To get to what today i never could explain 
Dealt the blood felt the stun, i cant feel their laughter 
Loneliness got me spun, never felt this happier 
In a World thats never real, whats the matter dear? 
Cant taste the meal just the fear of seeker gather gear 

Vintage pose reflected off a traffic cone 
Barb wire med kit you cant grab and go 
Red paint on its hand like it tagged the groped
Light in know Soul scrambled see it in my eye windows
Out my bitterness and weathering to hang with weirdos? 
Yall just relishing in telling shit i keep my ears closed 
Just whore around spoke metaphors aloud wrote over fear notes 
Imma turn you down and shut you off just how sears goes 
Umbilical chord
Spreading its spore
In an Agonized bore 
In endless corridor 
Inner oculus floor 
Torturing squeal from the pork turned to smear odor 
Stuck on the wheel with nothing left to tear over 
Electrified eel at the heel said its near over
Cant hear closure 

Guess im writing down what
Create timing now something 
Watch em swing but its bunt its light 
Throwing fits its your time of month and i see a clown show getting fucked repeat
Everyone around me annoying dumb pesticides to breed 
rather run on by just to die and be 
by the side of tide right as nukes will free
Us all from memories of trades we made 
Turning everything to an ace of spades
Double barrel breakfast buck is ate 
Bone marrow head fast duck and wait
Gut is late, Fuck it make 
Blood is taste, Shut its face
Just a waste, Such a state

Vessel / Death Source

Mixed & Mastered by frdm.wav
Artwork by @markypuwu on instagram

I watched it fade into the blue
I dried my tears off in the sun
We were stuck inside the doom
But I thought I was the one 
I saw it turning into violet
Express this pain through all this violence
Peace is something I ain’t strong enough to try yet
I can’t sleep, I just see you inside my eyelids
Need your figure and your form on top of my bed
Witnessed it morph into a red
My head just said that I’d be better off dead
It’s hard to wake up when you always waking up upset
At the bottom, I’m just asking if my come ups yet yeah

Faded white inside my eyes for when I sever my ties
And when I die, burn me down to ash and let it all fly
Another face, forgotten waste that’s only met his demise 
And now I’m just an empty name between the digital lines
A yellow frenzy when this flame has come alive 
Now I see your figure and your form inside my mind
Revealing your true colors I don’t want to visualize
With an ever growing rot taking over your design 
So when you took away my breath
That was the closest I ever been to death
Watching as I overdosed, you never felt distressed
Thinking I would never make it, I was seeing red
And still it hurts me that I couldn’t love you any less
Wait, held out my hand for someone that I always knew and now I’m terrified of ever seeing you 
Kept on playing with my life like I got nothing to lose
As I’m making my descent, I watched it fade into the blue

Faded Colours [Prod. frdm.wav]

black dahlia w/ REAPERXIII [prod. kodokuna]

prod by vexd, bbooskii, skinnydrag
mixed by kamaara mastered by frdm.wav

Gotta love you
Lost inside of your ruse 
Lord take me and guide through 
Were waking up to bright truth 
You offset pain that they do
You reset when the lane move
You change the lens from same view
Something else I can’t chose 
Who the fuck are you
You are this matrix hell 
Bruising my senses dwell 
What’s not real and won’t help 
Me leave the place I melt 
Over and over the cycle keep going 
Sick bay on a space ship my body is frozen 
Cryo chamber like a lonely womb go in 
There is no potion what we feel will skip across cosmo of props that your towing 
Behind the observer and learn realigned till your chosen 

I can sense your eyes life breathing through the walls talk
In a land of lies guys screaming through the halls stalk
Said it is your fault y’all been Branded by your choices 
Ascension to the halt walk Persuaded by the voices 
To Pick another poison And spiral downhill 
Grab it Static getting moistened Broken windmill 
Man in Gods landfill rant ill can’t pills aint a grand thrill Nothing can fill Ant hill at a stand still 
Endless wait 
None of it feel real all I got is faith can’t escape 
Psychotic time will heal neurotic lost in phase 
Heading home Letting go of steel and modded toss it maze 
Payed and Scarred forgive me as I wept 
Are you back and to the left 
Are you lost did you forget 
Land of horns and born in threat 
Nothing more and nothing less
Handed scorn and form obsessed 
Bury it in all the press  
Hurrying in all the stress
Trust in you and doubt the rest
They’ll have to rip me out this flesh 
I know they fein it ya I know they see it 
Can’t pretend electric fence cameras in the ceiling 
Hand to lend get guilotine onto rodents stealing
Sand in end it fill the sea pontoon oceans mealing

Med Bay / Eye Wall

EMERGENCY II [PROD. KUSOKIRAI]

Mixed & Mastered by frdm.wav
Artwork by @markypuwu on instagram

You gon suffer and I’ll watch
Blade up in my waistband touching on my crotch
Drop a body now the handle getting notched
I hate every single transphobe even notch
On my life, know it’s your death that I been plotting

This wallet get too fat, I had to take my girl out shopping
You think you lucked out with your girl, but I know she just homie hopping
I treat this beat like it’s a wrist, I get to chopping
You can find me in my bed, my body rotting 
My body weakens in the day unless I’m sniffing up that addy pill
I could’ve been a different person if I didn’t see my daddy killed 
I don’t know why I keep living, why I do this still
I just suffer, will you watch?

Blade up in my waistband touching on my crotch
Drop a body now the handle getting notched
I hate every single transphobe, even notch
On my life, know it’s your death that I been plotting

Keep that weak shit at home
You're tuned into The Evil Within

I’m drowning in my thoughts that fuck me up
Locked inside this room with all these voices you can’t hang with us
I would’ve been a different person if I never saw my friend get killed
And now I’m barely hanging on, I’m waiting for the blood to spill
Yeah I’ll drop a body cut it up then let it rot
Now pop the cap right off this script, that hits the spot 
You feel the blade go through your stomach full of knots
Bleeding out all on my timbs, I’ll make you suffer and I’ll watch 

You gon suffer and I’ll watch
Blade up in my waistband touching on my crotch
Drop a body now the handle getting notched
I hate every single transphobe, even notch
On my life, know it’s your death that I been plotting

Notched [Prod. frdm.wav + aszi]

[lyrics below]

feat.  @abortedaudio
video edited by me

stream the album "Stomach Filled With Roaches" on all platforms:
https://auraabnormal.fanlink.tv/stomachfilledwithroaches

follow my socials (IG, X, & Tiktok):
@auraabnormal

lyrics:
 
[Aura Abnormal]
Left in the dirt
Smoke dope, till my eyes blurred
My blood burns to hell
I am possessed

Twitching so violently
Feel my neck break
Flies come out of my mouth
When I try to speak
Nails dug in my head
And my lungs filled with lead
Pulled down to hell
Whip me till you see my flesh
Suffer in life till the end
Then die and rot in hell

Left in the dirt
Smoke dope till my eyes blurred
My blood burns to hell
I am possessed

[Kill Ebola]
I can feel demise
The metal smell not ripe
Needles in my eyes made to see their hearts on spikes
The world morphs in disguise
In burning tortured lives
Feet in the wrong shoes and up is down its all a lie ya
Pain deep in my spine my skin is hot ingraining mind ya
Please just one more night I said this many times hear flies ya
I can hear the bugs theres not enough to feed my tum aye
Pussy boy be sagging acting see through you ain't tough aye
If you locked up with me at the hospital you'll hunch aye
Whos been acting normal and your brains are mine for lunch aye

Stomach Filled With Roaches

Red Mist

Red Mist (feat. Kill Ebola)

[lyrics below]

feat.  @abortedaudio

stream the album "Stomach Filled With Roaches" on all platforms:
https://auraabnormal.fanlink.tv/stomachfilledwithroaches

follow my socials (IG, X, & Tiktok):
@auraabnormal

lyrics:

[Aura Abnormal]
Fall to a death
Comatose undead
See a glimpse of hell
That breaks my head

Roaches in my stomach
Coughing blood from my lungs
My liver filled with rage
That slowly kills me everyday
The more I observe I want to destroy society
As the world turns I feel my inevitable loss of sanity
Fall down with me inside of the ninth gate
God has been weeping manically and I have seen his face
Numbers on the clock of time controlling my heart beat
Ancient deities reach my mind telepathically unseen

Fall to a death
Comatose undead
See a glimpse of hell
That breaks my head

[Kill Ebola]
That shit feeling you used to
Heavy weight can't move scream it out hands loose
Live your blink in time like it just can't lose
Translating whisper wind that gonna pan through
Bitch work at brothel lonely men pay her rent
We float in hopelessness crave more sedatives
Orgies getting boring all algae is spent
Gasoline pouring what allergy sent
Hydros in ramen got me crumbling down
Water boiled legs then no bubble was found
Million years black and the rumble is brown
Mannequin motel needa stumble to frown