VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

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longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

produced by branwen

completely non profit

lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

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vocals, mix & master by wrentek

flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch 
need no whip
need no bits 
bro got the corn, he aint eatin crisps 
bullseye the shot n he don’t even miss 
like OTN know who ur dealing with 
cus u can get hit with a big 4.5
not from me but from bro, that’s slime 
leave you with a hole in ur chest like shepard
soap mctavish how i throw this knife 
sittin on the shed, sippin lean i’m nice
“big crime lords” but u stealing bikes ?? 
30 year olds goin out on rides
hittin kids in school, 
u ain’t about that life 

so i’ll sit here now for a little bit
if you wanna swing 
just swing 
make a call and get gone
i don’t  wannatalk to civilians 
cus they ain’t about shit 
all this fuckin talkin is long
i don’t ride on opps 
just a little one two
beef on the estate 
grab a knife and get armed
all these broke boys 
sharing spliff and i 
don’t wanna have to expose 
what u really is on 

so slow ur role
watch the roads
look both ways before u shoot that pole
b town shit 
fuck ur road 
i don’t wanna 
see another yout 
turn cold 

pass me the flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch

SOAP MACTAVISH

produced by imalmostjoey
completely non profit

lyrics

u gotta listen
i got an ear for the music
i got some thoughts for u to listen to 
cus lately im winning
like half the lyrics are stupid
u aint got shit that u proving
least when i run my mouth 
i ditch the couch and get up n prove it

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn life

thats how i know u aint about it like i am
i know a lot of fuckin artists who are honestly just fans
it aint about what u accomplish but the texture of ur hands
cus if u had a spine at all u'd plant ur feet n take a damn stand

damn tramp
u aint ever caught a damn hand
trust a good knock to ur head will shake ur brain n all that damp sand 
wam bam
love to see ur back bend
how u getting pressed about a fight u fuckin started man
shady plans 
why u throwin shade out on ur twitter fam
make amends
never gonna happen if u play pretend
i just had to say my piece 
oh who knows if it was a waste of breath 
its sad i hit the scene nd had to ask 
like where the music at

honestly 
when did everything become so damn trife
watchin me
why does every body think theyre damn right
totally
to say this is a skill is fucking toxic? right..
totally
insulting to the ones who live this damn lie

nevermind

sleep talking (imalmostjoey)

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keep going
love you guys.
ty all so so much for the support recently
check up on your friends, and in retrospect, more importantly yourself.
thank you so much for listening.
prod @cartermetro x @gavinhadley 🖤

(i barely feel at home right now)
(so i sedate through the drink and hope it all works out)

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

i ain't want screen time
they think i ain't worth shit when my light dies
but i'll brush it off and say, "fine, yeah."
just don't get back to me for hi's
'cause that was our last goodbye

(who am i?) (2x)

avoid coming 'cross me
i don't talk often
sugarcoated but without the chocolate
you got the message, so ignore the comments
but my heart is nauseous, that's the problem
i drink and repeat 'cause i love the peak
down with his men-tal, knights, now the king
stuck in this hell, into hell i will sink
if i died, would you grieve?
i'd like to believe
and i can't remember how i felt
the moment had seized me, it's really so evident
all that remains are reminders and remnants
i wish i told you how i felt.

wade through the rain
cherish the moment
difficulties only prove they're golden
full exhaust, eyes sewn wide open
regard me as dust
just a road with no bliss

foaming at the lips
if i'm human, i admit
i hold a heavy distaste for what you have to say
but i'll listen
i'll listen anyways

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

porcelain [prod. cxrter x gavin hadley]

by the graves in the dark
*hold my hand*
i cant see, not even spark
on this land, fall apart

i just played you, im not smart
dripping faucets, hear the bark
from the dogs
in the old mans house

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

i just wanted die, good thing you'd never understand
i know i got too close to it, the days were running thin
outt line
really outta time

running through the trees, yeah im running through the breeze
now its set, im crying help!
no one ever talks now
this shi*s like poetry, im just tryna help myself. 

im just tryna walk my way out of this hell
im just tryna make a name to feed myself
the photos never really cut it, its an act im sorry please
dont just cut me off cause im not rich as i seemed
blood all on  my sheets
you name keeps ringing back amongst the graves, i just need to find some peace, oh well

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

grave 2 (prod. AsharpTheOne)

featuring my dawg @homesick

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

[@homesick:]
say goodbye, goodbye
send me off n shut the lights off
i can't expect you to live with this
no i won't spell it out for you
it's all wrong
i can't try to replace this
but i can keep my distance
let the memories keep me jaded
take what you want, i'm reapin the product
i'm serving sets of the shit i got wrong
n shit i cant talk, what i never wanted            
back to that spot it's so cold there
im a shadow with a blank stare
old coat with that old tear
i got a new spot with some old fears

[@sendflowrs:]
whats on ur mind?
whenever u talk
whenever u talk to me
cant help but lie
ur just a jester
laugh and smile at me
jus while i die
n my brain so fucked up
prozac helps me sleep
but i still cry 
whenever a memory comes to me i weep

i think my time is nigh
just let me out to dry
think ill pour another cup
or maybe roll n jus get high
n i been feelin hella fuzzy
u dont love me
need to lie
n i been screamin till my throat is sore
cant even say goodbye

liar w/ homesick (addyexo)

Lyrics:
it never worked out, the way it should
the way we fought, i just thought we never would
i fucking screamed, you fucking cried
you yelled at me, i made you mad like all the time

i did my best and you did too
cant be stable with changing moods
because im up but now youre down
then its reversed you hate my frown

wonder where you are tonight
are you alone or by his side
and they all say just give it time
say im okay but im not fine at all

look insane 'cause im obsessed
im borderline what'd you expect
it ripped a hole out from my chest
it had to be, im second best for life

so what the hell do i do
when everything is fucked
it'll all come together, then fall apart
its just my luck

tell me what i gain
from being this insane

i did my best and you did too
cant be stable with changing moods
because im up but now youre down
then its reversed you hate my frown

wonder where you are tonight
(i cannot say)
are you alone or by his side
(how much im dying inside)
and they all say just give it time
(part of the play)
say im okay but im not fine at all
(i forget my line)

look insane 'cause im obsessed
(i cannot say)
im borderline what'd you expect
(how much im dying inside)
it ripped a hole out from my chest
(part of the play)
it had to be, im second best for life
(i forget my line)

Second Best For Life

Second Best For Life (prod King Theta)

cover of jude's (sleepwater) "nervous"
guitar by caves
reprod by me

miss you bro :(
don't wait on me now

sleepwater - nervous (cover)

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

sleepwater - nervous (cover)

autie

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