The Million Masks Of God

Obstacle

New Waves (Live Recordings ’19-’21)

Long Blue Light (Live at Starling Farm)

This is for Sam so she can have the Haim CD without actually having it and then a little extra thingys I put in there by them

HAIM - Strong Enough (Like A Version Cover of Sheryl Crow)

Message In A Bottle

Get Money! (feat. Mallrat)

I can' remember how it feels
to know that time will tell me
everything that I do, boy
is like a movement minutes behind
I can't remember how it feels

You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, I don't know
You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, don't go

I can't remember how it feels
to know that nothing kills me
why you make guarantees, boy
we never need some meaning behind
I can't remember how it feels

You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, I don't know
You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, don't go

We're about to get in the night 
If you really want more, I don't really mind 

We're about to get in the night and you won't know how it feels, you won't know how it feels, you don't know how it feels

You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, I don't know
You don't know what you're hurting me for
Talk to me baby, don't go

Hints / Once The Lights Are On

Can't Remember How It Feels

Million

I was heartbroken and was just starting to put the pieces back together. But I lost focus on what was happening at school and became increasingly overwhelmed when suddenly I had graduated from college feeling empty in my both my personal life and now my professional life. Ouch. Could I put food on the table and pay my rent writing about you?

Lyrics:
I don’t have a plan and goddam do I need one now
My cigarette butts have to long been littering this town
I know that they’ll kill me if I don’t start putting them down
But maybe that’ll save me from having to figure life out

‘Cause I’m closer to this past than I am the future
Feeling less like an adult and more like a creature

My parents have given everything that they could to me
Maybe that’s why it’s been so hard for me to want to leave
Nevertheless I have hidden some tricks up my sleeve
To get out their basement- the ceiling’s to low for my dreams

Still I’m closer to this past than I am the future 
Feeling more an adult who’s still on the bleachers

What do I do in the meantime so I can get paid 
Until I’m making singing this song up on stage?
I guess I could find a job that lets me still sleep in late
So I could roll face and make it into work the next day 

See I’m closer to this past than I am the future
Feeling less like an adult and more like a creature

I do want a family someday so this shits gotta stop 
To give them the life that I’ve always been dreaming about 
Getting there will take just a little bit of knowhow  
Which I’m learning by letting this chapter of life take its bow

Now I’m farther from this past than I am the future
Feeling less like an adult? I didn’t either…

About POV (https://www.soundcloud.com/bleedtherads/sets/pov):
(One year ago) I fell in ~love~ with someone that simultaneously fell out of love [sic] with me, all as I was about finish college with absolutely no idea what I was going to do with my life. As I assessed the damage in the wake of graduation, and as everyone around me moved forward with their lives while I remained stuck in the same place, these songs came out of me like shrapnel. I used live drums and drum machines to vocode guitars, synths, and pianos to suck the life out of the mixes to echo how life had been sucked out of me. And I used digitally crafted harmonies to lift up my fragile vocals. In succession, they’re about as hollow sonically as I was emotionally, but they look with optimism to resolve at the close- follow along with the lyrics in the track descriptions to better trace the narrative I’m trying to tell and like and share if you're picking up what I'm trying to put down. This isn’t an LP, this is my POV.

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/IF

Spotify

To the Class of-

Thank you for taking this song to #1 on hype machine!

Upstate Soundtrack vol. 1
Free download, click 'Buy' link :)

I'd like to share something a bit different over the holidays as a special thank-you to my fans. I made these two songs quickly during moments of inspiration in upstate NY this fall, while taking time to breathe and connect with the quieter parts of myself. I've always felt music as a soundtrack for my experiences, and thought it would be fun to share some recent moments in this pure form, simply capturing a feeling through sounds. Think of these tunes as a soundtrack to accompany your own adventure! I hope you enjoy Upstate Soundtrack vol. 1 in your own meaningful place, and I'll see you there on tour in 2018 <3

Listen on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Iil2c3ykjPuCDGlftVuOh

Komorebi Tour:
http://joshjacobsonmusic.com/tour

HAIM - Strong Enough (Like A Version Cover of Sheryl Crow)

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