Perfect Disposition

prod me

im in my bed, its late at night
 and im contemplating the rest of life
i cant see myself in the mirror
just a ghost of who i was
you said i was wrong and you're always right
so im telling myself that im not alright
how much longer can i go on
until im no one at all

id kill to get away from here
one shot to the brain no fucking fear
and not a single tear
will drop from my eyes while i bury the fear
yea im fine dont ask cuz im barely here
tell lies to your face while i grin ear to ear
why am i even here
just to wish for a dream thats so unclear

im a bad person tonight
and i guess for the rest of my life
i cant see myself in the mirror
everything's a distraction
i thought that i lost you
and your trust
but its just in my head
in your hands am i dead
you said i was wrong
and your always right
so i tell myself
that im not alright
that im not
im a bad person tonight
and i guess for the rest of my life
i cant see myself in the mirror
everything's a distraction

...

id kill to get away from here
one shot to the brain no fucking fear
and not a single tear
will drop from my eyes while i bury the fear
yea im fine dont ask cuz im barely here
tell lies to your face while i grin ear to ear
why am i even here
just to wish for a dream thats so unclear

distraction

mist - demo

art credit: https://instagram.com/distortion.05/

"u got a habit of playing with the truth
don't see it the way I do
you said its a game, only when I lose
so careless the way you move

see you packing bags like nothing to worry for
say he's just a friend, he don't even like girls anymore
you fly tonight and intuitions saying
im sorry if I sound crazy to you, but would you not mind staying?

I hope you packed all your red flags cus you say that you're never coming back

u got a habit of playing with the truth
don't see it the way I do
you said its a game, only when I lose
so careless the way you move"

privately released on: 16 July 2022

Perfect Disposition

Ava McCoy