prod mix master sfx by bloodcryY

i done failed on myself
i think i need some help
all ts isnt workin
fuck ts yea im not sorry
if i told u wats goin on
ud worry
yea i like 2 think so
its on my phone now
theyre all waitin 4 me 2 fall down
yea im not goin strong now
dont i
yea im far from home
but ion wana go back
yeah fuck dat
shld learn 2 talkback

dey b on my phone
still feel so alone
dont got 2 call
seen it before
i feel fuckin dumb
yea im so done
yea i see thru it
yea i see the ruin
dey b on my phone
still feel so alone
dont got 2 call
seen it before
i feel fuckin dumb
yea im so done
yea i see thru it
yea i see the ruin

spotify

past the ruin (prod. @bloodcryy_)

prod / mix / master / sfx - @bloodcryy

get a followup
cuz ion follow ts at all
its not a comeback
ion evn need it doe
feel like im not needed no
wish i could go back
but not like a throwback
i jus have a problem
dk how 2 solve dat
so i prolong dat
did u rly mean dat
wen u said dat thing

mayb its good dat were apart
know i said ion give a fuck
rly thought we was in love
rly thought i was the1
did u rly think i stopped carin abt us

now its over n i stll
cant believe it
wake up
im still dreamin
whole day
i spent thinkin
6yrs
ive spent sinkin

thought id b over it
i thought so too
i been overdue
n i done faked it
all the shit i said
i meant it
fuck all those conversations
u aint evn wana say shit
den u say i deserve it
plz stop treatin me like a servant
u done used me 4 a fuckin mention
u denied the correlation

now its over n i stll
cant believe it
wake up
im still dreamin
whole day
i spent thinkin
6yrs
ive spent sinkin
now its over n i stll
cant believe it
wake up
im still dreamin
whole day
i spent thinkin
6yrs
ive spent sinkin

i'm still dreaming (prod. @bloodcryy_)

prod @bloodcryY + @s0lemn
mix+master @bloodcryY
sfx @bloodcryY

@bloodcryy
soon will b jus ,, ,. /
free .. 
i swear ts is not 4 me ; [/
im talkin 2 a tree  [; 
talkin wit u  / . ..
like im a  ,, 
fiend. ;p
smoke comin out my lungs. .. 
yea .. .
i done fucked it up ,, ,
yea . .,
stand myself '; } [
i . . .. .  .
cant ., , , ,,
i think i tried in the past .. ? .,
but its all gone now^ ^ . >
dont hold me now .. ,

@s0lemn
dont hold me down. . ,
ur keepin me quiet i wont make a sound .. ; [
wen ur around ,, ion wna feel tha same way . ..
vro im poppin 2 :p . ., but u kno i do it erryday
thought a lot of u ,, but u nvr felt da same way ...
stop the attitude // > mayb we would b ok ?
ok ,, i think ive had enough ,, 
ik ur lyin bae u kno i call ur bluff ,, ,

don't hold me now w/ s0lemn (prod. @bloodcryy_ +s0lemn)

prod bloodcryY + flesh
mix / master / sfx - bloodcryY

make a promise dat i keep 2 myself
ur all talk
bitch i wish u well
on my phone
cant get out my shell
i got up
lookd down
then i fell
have a feelin dat im losin my mind
need a reason that i jus cant find
2b special i shld get in line
want some problems ?
i can give u mine

yea i want some
new issue
new problem
new lesson
yea im less than u
dont listen
dont think it
got some shit dat i rly want to talk abt
got some shit dat i dont want to think abt
all these problems ,
insecurities
they pilin up
near the end
dont wana live2nite
live 2nite
near the end
dont wana live2nite
live 2nite
near the end
dont wana live2nite

near the end ***PROD @bloodcryy_ +flesh

prod + mix + sfx by bloodcryY
coverart by @s0lemn

blood drippin from my eyes
i cant go 2 sleep
wen u look into my eyes
tell me wat u see
i dont wanna b like dis
fallin finally
im so alone
no1 fw me

dont tell me
u just lost me
dont tell me
1thing
dont tell me
dont hurt me
dont feel me
dont touch me
dont tell me
u just lost me
dont tell me
1thing
dont tell me
dont hurt me
dont feel me
dont touch me

honestly
u disgust me
lot of time
it was costly
yea
whyd shame me
u offend me
makin me go crazy
aint dat somethin bby
why u act like u hate me
dont lie 
just tell me
aint dat somethin crazy
idc 
every1 left me
idc
every1 hates me

idc 
every1 left me
every1 hates me
every1 hates me
no1 likes me
idc 
every1 left me
every1 hates me

lost me (Prod Me)

prod @bloodcryy + @jolst
mix / master / sfx @bloodcryy

know dat feeling
n i kno it never lies
person in the mirror
i know he nvr tries
did it 1 time
i kno it wasnt right
saw the wrong signs
i knew it wouldnt b fine

can i forget
cuz ion wana know
dont talk 2 me
ion wana hear ur voice
wana play cuz u treat me like a toy
wana go 
dont want 2 live 2long

n im cryin
i cant go out
fuck life
it never works out
how it looked
idk now
i cant talk
im on the phone now

n im cryin
i cant go out
fuck life
it never works out
how it looked
idk now
was it worth it
idk now

crying in my room p. bloodcryY + Jolst

ion need u in my life
n i know i said its over but i lied
i know u better than id like
n u know i think ab it all the time
n i rly want 2 die
2nite
ur eyes on me
go hide
go hide
dont talk abt it
im fine
i read abt it 
online

fuck that
yea i might commit
fuck life
yea i might cry
but i dont mind
fuck u
goodbye
i like wastin my time
n i like wastin my breath
i think i lost my spine
the way u step on my head
try 2 talk it out
u never did the rest
everytime im declined but i still try again

ion need u in my life
n i know i said its over but i lied
i know u better than id like
n u know i think ab it all the time
n i rly want 2 die
2nite
ur eyes on me
go hide
go hide
dont talk abt it
im fine
i read abt it 
online

hide (Prod Me)

A personal journey through the depths of despair, the return of hope, and the destruction of potential.

Utopian Unity

prod / mix / sfx by bloodcryY

got these shivers on my back
yea i feel it close
now i think ive had enough
so let me go
dont u see it
yea i see it
yea i see it too
on my mind
its on my mind
oh i fuckin knew

its on my mind
its on my mind
but i see right thru
dont understand wat it means
im bein honest too
cant do shit by myself
tell me wats the move
end my life
yea i might
yea i wanted 2

got ts like on my mind
how i wana quit
stay alone in my room
i feel fuckin sick
n i talk 2 myself sometimes
im not fuckin lyin
i dont smoke 
but im fried
i am fuckin dumb

n i think ive had enough
so let me go
n in some time ill lyk
how i think i fucked up
how i want 2go
yea stay up all night
just stay a bit more
n i think ive had enough
so let me go
n in some time ill lyk
how i think i fucked up
how i want 2go
yea stay up all night
just stay a bit more

stay with me (prod me)

prod / mix / sfx by bloodcryY

i cant trust no1
ion take no picz
ion wana move on
4evr feel sick
i keep hatin myself
yea ion go out
if i had a gun
id point it at my eye
@ my eye
@ my eye
@ my eye
id point it at my eye
@ my eye
@ my eye
@ my eye
id point it at my eye
@ my eye

yea im lookin at my problemz
n i want2 deny
ion even want 2 live
ima cry out 2nite
i dont even want dis thing
take it
hit up my line
n im tired of dis bullshit
i done fuckedup my life

if u tryna catch a kill
come2my house
all the sudden my dreams turn into dust
ion want 2 live
yea im fuckinup
ion want 2 fight
i am fuckin done

into dust prod me

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